傷逝 Regret for the Past

，，，。If I could, I would write down my remorse and grief, for Zijun, and for myself.

。The dilapidated room in the guild hall, forgotten in its remote corner, was so silent and empty.，，，。Time truly passes quickly; it has been a full year since I loved Zijun and, relying on her, escaped this silence and emptiness.，，。And things turned out so unluckily — when I came back again, the only room standing empty happened to be this very one.，，，，。It was still the same broken window, the same half-withered locust tree and old wisteria outside the window, the same square table before the window, the same crumbling wall, the same plank bed against the wall.，，，，，。Lying alone on the bed deep in the night, it was just as it had been before I ever lived with Zijun — as though the whole of that past year had been erased, had never happened at all, as though I had never moved out of this shabby room to set up, in Jizhao Hutong, a small household full of hope.

會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
遺忘: yí wàng — to forget; to cease to think about (sb or sth) anymore (HSK 7-9)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
偏僻: piān pì — 1. remote 2. desolate 3. far from the city (HSK 7-9)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
時光: shí guāng — time (esp. as sth that passes) (HSK 5)
過得: guò dé — 1. How are you getting by? 2. How's life? 3. contraction of 過得去, can get by 4. tolerably well 5. not too bad
真: zhēn — 1. really 2. truly 3. indeed 4. real 5. true 6. genuine (HSK 1)
快: kuài — 1. rapid 2. quick 3. speed 4. rate 5. soon 6. almost 7. to make haste 8. clever 9. sharp (of knives or wits) 10. forthright 11. plainspoken 12. gratified 13. pleased 14. pleasant (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
愛子: ài zǐ — beloved son
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
仗: zhàng — 1. weaponry 2. to hold (a weapon) 3. to wield 4. to rely on 5. to depend on 6. war 7. battle
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
逃: táo — 1. to escape 2. to run away 3. to flee (HSK 5)
出: chū — 1. to go out; to come out 2. to arise; to occur 3. to produce; to yield 4. to go beyond; to exceed 5. (used after a verb to indicate an outward direction or a positive result) 6. classifier for dramas, plays, operas etc (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
滿: Mǎn — Manchu ethnic group (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
年: Nián — surname Nian (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
事情: shì qing — 1. affair; matter; thing; business 2. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng) (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
這麼: zhè me — 1. so much 2. this much 3. how much? 4. this way 5. like this (HSK 2)
不湊巧: bù còu qiǎo — unluckily
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
重來: chóng lái — 1. to start over 2. to do sth all over again
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
偏偏: piān piān — 1. (indicating that sth turns out just the opposite of what one would wish) unfortunately; as it happened 2. (indicating that sth is the opposite of what would be normal or reasonable) stubbornly; contrarily; against reason 3. (indicating that sb or a group is singled out) precisely; only; of all people (HSK 7-9)
空: kōng — 1. empty 2. air 3. sky 4. in vain (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
間: jiān — 1. between 2. among 3. within a definite time or space 4. room 5. section of a room or lateral space between two pairs of pillars 6. classifier for rooms (HSK 1)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
依然: yī rán — still; as before (HSK 4)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
外: wài — 1. outside 2. in addition 3. foreign 4. external (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
半: bàn — 1. half 2. semi- 3. incomplete 4. (after a number) and a half (HSK 1)
枯: kū — 1. (of plants) withered 2. (of wells, rivers etc) dried up 3. (bound form) dull; boring 4. (bound form) residue of pressed oilseeds
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
槐樹: huái shù — locust tree (Sophora japonica) (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
老: lǎo — 1. prefix used before the surname of a person or a numeral indicating the order of birth of the children in a family or to indicate affection or familiarity 2. old (of people) 3. venerable (person) 4. experienced 5. of long standing 6. always 7. all the time 8. of the past 9. very 10. outdated 11. (of meat etc) tough (HSK 1)
紫藤: zǐ téng — wisteria
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
前: qián — 1. front 2. forward 3. ahead 4. first 5. top (followed by a number) 6. future 7. ago 8. before 9. BC (e.g. 前293年) 10. former 11. formerly (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
方: Fāng — surname Fang (HSK 4)
桌: zhuō — 1. table 2. desk 3. classifier for tables of guests at a banquet etc
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
敗: bài — 1. to defeat 2. to damage 3. to lose (to an opponent) 4. to fail 5. to wither (HSK 4)
壁: bì — 1. wall 2. rampart
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
靠: kào — 1. to lean against or on 2. to stand by the side of 3. to come near to 4. to depend on 5. to trust 6. to fuck (vulgar) 7. traditional military costume drama where the performers wear armor (old) (HSK 2)
壁: bì — 1. wall 2. rampart
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
板: bǎn — 1. board 2. plank 3. plate 4. shutter 5. table tennis bat 6. clappers (music) 7. classifier: 塊 (kuài) 8. accented beat in Chinese music 9. hard 10. stiff 11. to stop smiling or look serious (HSK 3)
床: chuáng — 1. bed; couch (furniture that one can lie down on) (classifier: 張 (zhāng)) 2. bed; bottom (of rivers, oceans, gardens etc) 3. frame; chassis 4. classifier for blankets, quilts etc (HSK 1)
深夜: shēn yè — very late at night (HSK 7-9)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
獨自: dú zì — alone (HSK 4)
躺: tǎng — 1. to recline 2. to lie down (HSK 4)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
床: chuáng — 1. bed; couch (furniture that one can lie down on) (classifier: 張 (zhāng)) 2. bed; bottom (of rivers, oceans, gardens etc) 3. frame; chassis 4. classifier for blankets, quilts etc (HSK 1)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
未曾: wèi céng — hasn't (or haven't); hasn't ever
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
同居: tóng jū — 1. to live together 2. to cohabit
以前: yǐ qián — 1. before 2. formerly 3. previous 4. ago (HSK 2)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
過去: guò qù — 1. (in the) past; former; previous 2. to go over; to pass by (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
年中: nián zhōng — 1. within the year 2. in the middle of the year 3. mid-year
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時光: shí guāng — time (esp. as sth that passes) (HSK 5)
全: Quán — surname Quan (HSK 2)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
消滅: xiāo miè — 1. to put an end to 2. to annihilate 3. to cause to perish 4. to perish 5. annihilation (in quantum field theory) (HSK 6)
全: Quán — surname Quan (HSK 2)
未有: wèi yǒu — 1. is not 2. has never been 3. never occurring 4. unprecedented
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
並: bìng — 1. and 2. furthermore 3. also 4. together with 5. (not) at all 6. simultaneously 7. to combine 8. to join 9. to merge (HSK 3)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
曾經: céng jīng — 1. once 2. already 3. former 4. previously 5. ever 6. (past tense marker used before verb or clause) (HSK 3)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
搬: bān — 1. to move (i.e. relocate oneself) 2. to move (sth relatively heavy or bulky) 3. to shift 4. to copy indiscriminately (HSK 3)
出: chū — 1. to go out; to come out 2. to arise; to occur 3. to produce; to yield 4. to go beyond; to exceed 5. (used after a verb to indicate an outward direction or a positive result) 6. classifier for dramas, plays, operas etc (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
吉兆: jí zhào — lucky omen
衚衕: hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
創立: chuàng lì — to establish; to set up; to found (HSK 5)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
滿懷: mǎn huái — 1. to have one's heart filled with 2. (to collide) full on 3. (of farm animals) heavy with young (HSK 7-9)
希望: xī wàng — 1. to hope 2. a hope; a wish (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
小小: xiǎo xiǎo — 1. very small 2. very few 3. very minor
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
家庭: jiā tíng — 1. family; household 2. classifier: 戶 (hù) (HSK 2)

。Not only that.，，；A year ago, this silence and emptiness were not like this at all — they were often filled with expectation;。the expectation of Zijun's arrival.，，！In the impatience of long waiting, how the clear sound of high leather heels tapping the brick pavement would suddenly quicken me to life!，，，。And then I would see her pale round face with its dimpled smile, her pale thin arms, her striped cotton blouse, her black skirt.，，。She would also bring with her the new leaves of the half-withered locust tree outside the window, and let me see, too, the clusters upon clusters of purple-white wisteria blossoms hanging from the iron-hard old trunk.

不但: bù dàn — not only (... but also ...) (HSK 2)
如此: rú cǐ — like this; so; such (HSK 5)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
年: Nián — surname Nian (HSK 1)
之前: zhī qián — 1. before 2. prior to 3. ago 4. previously 5. beforehand (HSK 4)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
常常: cháng cháng — frequently; often (HSK 1)
含: hán — 1. to keep in the mouth 2. to contain (HSK 4)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
期待: qī dài — 1. to look forward to 2. to await 3. expectation (HSK 4)
期待: qī dài — 1. to look forward to 2. to await 3. expectation (HSK 4)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
到來: dào lái — 1. to arrive 2. arrival; advent (HSK 5)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
待: dāi — to stay; to remain (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
焦躁: jiāo zào — 1. fretful 2. impatient (HSK 7-9)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
聽到: tīng dào — to hear (HSK 1)
皮鞋: pí xié — leather shoes (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
高: Gāo — surname Gao (HSK 1)
底: de — (equivalent to 的 as possessive particle) (HSK 4)
尖: jiān — 1. pointed; tapering; sharp 2. (of a sound) shrill; piercing 3. (of one's hearing, sight etc) sharp; acute; keen 4. to make (one's voice) shrill 5. sharp point; tip 6. the best of sth; the cream of the crop (HSK 6)
觸: chù — 1. to touch 2. to make contact with sth 3. to stir up sb's emotions
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
磚: zhuān — 1. brick 2. tile (floor or wall, not roof) 3. classifier: 塊 (kuài) (HSK 7-9)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
清: Qīng — 1. Qing (Wade-Giles: Ch'ing) dynasty of China (1644–1911) 2. surname Qing (HSK 6)
響: xiǎng — 1. echo 2. sound 3. noise 4. to make a sound 5. to sound 6. to ring 7. loud 8. classifier for noises (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
驟然: zhòu rán — 1. suddenly 2. abruptly (HSK 7-9)
生動: shēng dòng — (of descriptions, writing etc) vivid; lively (HSK 3)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
呵: ā — variant of 啊 (ā)
於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
帶: dài — 1. band 2. belt 3. girdle 4. ribbon 5. tire 6. area 7. zone 8. region 9. classifier: 條 (tiáo) 10. to wear 11. to carry 12. to take along 13. to bear (i.e. to have) 14. to lead 15. to bring 16. to look after 17. to raise (HSK 2)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
笑渦: xiào wō — variant of 笑窩 (xiào wō)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
蒼白: cāng bái — 1. pale 2. wan
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
圓: yuán — 1. circle 2. round 3. circular 4. spherical 5. (of the moon) full 6. unit of Chinese currency (yuan) 7. tactful 8. to make consistent and whole (the narrative of a dream or a lie) (HSK 4)
臉: liǎn — 1. face 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
蒼白: cāng bái — 1. pale 2. wan
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
瘦: shòu — 1. thin 2. to lose weight 3. (of clothing) tight 4. (of meat) lean 5. (of land) unproductive (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
臂膊: bì bó — arm
布: bù — 1. cloth 2. to declare 3. to announce 4. to spread 5. to make known (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
有條紋: yǒu tiáo wén — striped
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
衫: shān — 1. garment 2. jacket with open slits in place of sleeves
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
玄色: xuán sè — 1. black (without gloss) 2. black with a hint of red in it
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
裙: qún — (bound form) skirt
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
帶: dài — 1. band 2. belt 3. girdle 4. ribbon 5. tire 6. area 7. zone 8. region 9. classifier: 條 (tiáo) 10. to wear 11. to carry 12. to take along 13. to bear (i.e. to have) 14. to lead 15. to bring 16. to look after 17. to raise (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
外: wài — 1. outside 2. in addition 3. foreign 4. external (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
半: bàn — 1. half 2. semi- 3. incomplete 4. (after a number) and a half (HSK 1)
枯: kū — 1. (of plants) withered 2. (of wells, rivers etc) dried up 3. (bound form) dull; boring 4. (bound form) residue of pressed oilseeds
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
槐樹: huái shù — locust tree (Sophora japonica) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
葉: Yè — surname Ye
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
掛: guà — 1. to hang; to suspend (from a hook etc) 2. to hang up (the phone) 3. (of a line) to be dead 4. to be worried; to be concerned 5. (dialect) to make a phone call 6. to register (at a hospital); to make an appointment (with a doctor) 7. (slang) to kill; to die; to be finished; to fail (an exam) 8. classifier for sets or clusters of objects (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
鐵: Tiě — surname Tie (HSK 3)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
老: lǎo — 1. prefix used before the surname of a person or a numeral indicating the order of birth of the children in a family or to indicate affection or familiarity 2. old (of people) 3. venerable (person) 4. experienced 5. of long standing 6. always 7. all the time 8. of the past 9. very 10. outdated 11. (of meat etc) tough (HSK 1)
幹: gàn — 1. tree trunk 2. main part of sth 3. to manage 4. to work 5. to do 6. capable 7. cadre 8. to kill (slang) 9. to fuck (vulgar) 10. (coll.) pissed off 11. annoyed (HSK 1)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
房: Fáng — surname Fang
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
房: Fáng — surname Fang
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
紫: zǐ — 1. purple 2. violet (HSK 5)
白: Bái — 1. surname Bai 2. Bai ethnic group (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
藤: téng — 1. rattan 2. cane 3. vine
花: Huā — surname Hua (HSK 1)

，，，，！……But now — only the silence and emptiness remain as before; Zijun, though, will never come again, and forever, forever! ……

然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
依舊: yī jiù — 1. as before; still 2. to remain the same (HSK 5)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
決不: jué bù — 1. not at all 2. simply (can) not (HSK 5)
再: zài — 1. again; once more; re- 2. further; beyond this point of time 3. (before an adjective) more 4. then (after sth, and not until then) 5. no matter how ... (followed by an adjective or verb, and then (usually) 也 (yě) or 都 (dōu) for emphasis) 6. (used to introduce additional information, as in 再則 (zài zé), 再就是 (zài jiù shì) etc) 7. (literary) to reappear; to reoccur (HSK 1)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
而且: ér qiě — 1. (not only ...) but also 2. moreover; in addition; furthermore (HSK 2)
永遠: yǒng yuǎn — 1. forever 2. eternal (HSK 2)
永遠: yǒng yuǎn — 1. forever 2. eternal (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)

，。When Zijun is not here in this shabby room of mine, I can see nothing at all.，，，，；In utter listlessness I would pick up whatever book came to hand — science or literature, it made no difference either way;，，，，。I would read on and on, and suddenly realize I had already turned more than ten pages, yet remembered not a single thing the book had said.，，，，——，，。Only my ears grew unusually sharp, as though I could hear every footstep passing outside the gate, and among them Zijun's, its clip-clop drawing gradually nearer — but then, more often than not, it would grow gradually fainter again, and finally vanish amid the jumble of other footsteps.，！I hated the caretaker's son whose cloth-soled shoes sounded nothing like Zijun's step; I hated that creature next door, smeared with cold cream, who often wore new leather shoes whose sound resembled Zijun's step all too closely!

子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
不在: bù zài — 1. not to be present 2. to be out 3. (euphemism) to pass away 4. to be deceased
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
看不見: kàn bu jiàn — 1. cannot see 2. cannot be seen 3. invisible
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
百無聊賴: bǎi wú liáo lài — (idiom) bored to death; bored stiff; overcome with boredom
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
順手: shùn shǒu — 1. as an incidental action while doing sth else; while one is at it; in passing 2. smooth; easy; without difficulty (HSK 7-9)
抓: zhuā — 1. to grab 2. to catch 3. to arrest 4. to snatch 5. to scratch (HSK 3)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
本: běn — 1. (bound form) root; stem 2. (bound form) origin; source 3. (bound form) one's own; this 4. (bound form) this; the current (year etc) 5. (bound form) original 6. (bound form) inherent 7. originally; initially 8. capital; principal 9. classifier for books, periodicals, files etc (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
科學: kē xué — 1. science 2. scientific knowledge 3. scientific 4. rational 5. classifier: 門 (mén), 個 (gè), 種 (zhǒng) (HSK 2)
也好: yě hǎo — 1. that's fine 2. may as well 3. (reduplicated) regardless of whether ... or ... (HSK 5)
文學: wén xué — literature (HSK 3)
也好: yě hǎo — 1. that's fine 2. may as well 3. (reduplicated) regardless of whether ... or ... (HSK 5)
橫豎: héng shu — anyway
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
一樣: yī yàng — 1. same 2. like 3. equal to 4. the same as 5. just like (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
下去: xià qù — 1. to go down 2. to descend 3. to go on 4. to continue 5. (of a servant) to withdraw (HSK 3)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
下去: xià qù — 1. to go down 2. to descend 3. to go on 4. to continue 5. (of a servant) to withdraw (HSK 3)
忽而: hū ér — 1. suddenly 2. now (..., now...)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
翻: fān — 1. to turn over 2. to flip over 3. to overturn 4. to rummage through 5. to translate 6. to decode 7. to double 8. to climb over or into 9. to cross (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
十: shí — 1. ten 2. 10 (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
頁: xié — head (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
毫不: háo bù — 1. hardly 2. not in the least 3. not at all (HSK 7-9)
記得: jì de — to remember (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
耳朵: ěr duo — 1. ear 2. classifier: 隻 (zhī), 個 (gè), 對 (duì) 3. handle (on a cup) (HSK 5)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
分外: fèn wài — 1. exceptionally 2. not one's responsibility or job (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
靈: líng — 1. quick 2. alert 3. efficacious 4. effective 5. to come true 6. spirit 7. departed soul 8. coffin (HSK 7-9)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
聽到: tīng dào — to hear (HSK 1)
大門: Dà mén — the Doors, US rock band (HSK 2)
外: wài — 1. outside 2. in addition 3. foreign 4. external (HSK 1)
一切: yī qiè — 1. everything 2. every 3. all (HSK 3)
往來: wǎng lái — 1. dealings 2. contacts 3. to go back and forth (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
履: lǚ — 1. shoe 2. to tread on
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
從中: cóng zhōng — from among them; from it (HSK 5)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
而且: ér qiě — 1. (not only ...) but also 2. moreover; in addition; furthermore (HSK 2)
橐橐: tuó tuó — (onom.) footsteps
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
逐漸: zhú jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
臨近: lín jìn — to approach; to draw near; to be close to (in space or time) (HSK 7-9)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
往往: wǎng wǎng — 1. usually 2. in many cases 3. more often than not (HSK 3)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
逐漸: zhú jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
渺茫: miǎo máng — 1. uncertain 2. remote 3. distant and indistinct 4. vague
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
消失: xiāo shī — to disappear; to fade away (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
別的: bié de — 1. else 2. other (HSK 1)
步: Bù — surname Bu (HSK 3)
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
雜沓: zá tà — 1. small craftsman (contemptuous) 2. clatter (e.g. of footsteps) 3. jumbled mass 4. press of bodies 5. tumult
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
憎惡: zēng è — to hate evil
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
鞋: xié — 1. shoe 2. classifier: 雙 (shuāng), 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
穿: chuān — 1. to bore through; to pierce; to perforate 2. to go through (e.g. a tunnel); to cross (e.g. a street) 3. to thread; to string together 4. to wear; to put on (clothes, shoes etc.) 5. verb complement indicating thoroughness or completion (HSK 1)
布: bù — 1. cloth 2. to declare 3. to announce 4. to spread 5. to make known (HSK 3)
底: de — (equivalent to 的 as possessive particle) (HSK 4)
鞋: xié — 1. shoe 2. classifier: 雙 (shuāng), 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
長班: cháng bān — 1. (old) footman 2. servant
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
兒子: ér zi — son (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
憎惡: zēng è — to hate evil
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
太: tài — 1. highest 2. greatest 3. too (much) 4. very 5. extremely (HSK 1)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
鞋: xié — 1. shoe 2. classifier: 雙 (shuāng), 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
常常: cháng cháng — frequently; often (HSK 1)
穿著: chuān zhuó — attire; clothes; dress (HSK 7-9)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
皮鞋: pí xié — leather shoes (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
鄰: lín — 1. neighbor 2. adjacent 3. close to
院: yuàn — 1. courtyard 2. institution 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
搽: chá — 1. to apply (ointment, powder) 2. to smear 3. to paint on
雪花膏: xuě huā gāo — 1. vanishing cream 2. cold cream (makeup)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
東西: dōng xī — east and west (HSK 1)

？Could it be that her rickshaw had overturned?？……Could it be that she had been struck and hurt by a tram? ……

，。I would be on the point of taking up my hat to go and see her — but her uncle had once cursed me to my face.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
取: qǔ — 1. to take 2. to get 3. to choose 4. to fetch (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
帽子: mào zi — 1. hat 2. cap 3. (fig.) label 4. bad name 5. classifier: 頂 (dǐng) (HSK 4)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
胞: bāo — 1. placenta 2. womb 3. born of the same parents
叔: shū — 1. uncle 2. father's younger brother 3. husband's younger brother 4. Taiwan pr. (shú)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
曾經: céng jīng — 1. once 2. already 3. former 4. previously 5. ever 6. (past tense marker used before verb or clause) (HSK 3)
當面: dāng miàn — 1. to sb's face 2. in sb's presence (HSK 7-9)
罵: mà — 1. to scold 2. to abuse 3. to curse 4. classifier: 通 (tòng), 頓 (dùn) (HSK 5)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)

，，，，，。Then suddenly her footsteps would draw near, each step louder than the last, and by the time I went out to meet her she had already passed beneath the wisteria trellis, dimples of a smile on her face.；At her uncle's house she had evidently not been made to suffer any grievance;，，，，，，，，……。my heart would settle, and after gazing at each other in silence a while, the shabby room would gradually fill with the sound of my voice, talking of the tyranny of the family, talking of breaking old customs, talking of the equality of men and women, talking of Ibsen, of Tagore, of Shelley….，。She would always smile and nod, her eyes brimming with a childlike, curious brightness.，，。On the wall was pinned an engraved half-length portrait of Shelley, cut from a magazine — the most beautiful likeness of him there was.，，，。When I pointed it out for her to see, she only gave it a hasty glance and then lowered her head, as though embarrassed.，，——，；In such matters Zijun had, it seemed, not yet altogether shed the bonds of old ways of thinking — I thought afterward that it might have been better to replace it with a memorial picture of Shelley drowned in the sea, or one of Ibsen instead;，。but in the end I never did change it, and now even that one picture — I have no idea where it has gone.

驀然: mò rán — 1. suddenly 2. sudden
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
鞋: xié — 1. shoe 2. classifier: 雙 (shuāng), 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
步: Bù — surname Bu (HSK 3)
響: xiǎng — 1. echo 2. sound 3. noise 4. to make a sound 5. to sound 6. to ring 7. loud 8. classifier for noises (HSK 2)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
步: Bù — surname Bu (HSK 3)
迎: yíng — 1. to welcome; to meet 2. to forge ahead (esp. in the face of difficulties); to meet face to face (HSK 7-9)
出去: chū qù — to go out (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
走過: zǒu guò — 1. to walk past 2. to pass by (HSK 2)
紫藤: zǐ téng — wisteria
棚: péng — 1. shed 2. canopy 3. shack
下: xià — 1. down 2. downwards 3. below 4. lower 5. later 6. next (week etc) 7. second (of two parts) 8. to decline 9. to go down 10. to arrive at (a decision, conclusion etc) 11. measure word to show the frequency of an action (HSK 1)
臉: liǎn — 1. face 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
帶: dài — 1. band 2. belt 3. girdle 4. ribbon 5. tire 6. area 7. zone 8. region 9. classifier: 條 (tiáo) 10. to wear 11. to carry 12. to take along 13. to bear (i.e. to have) 14. to lead 15. to bring 16. to look after 17. to raise (HSK 2)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
微笑: wēi xiào — 1. smile 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 絲 (sī) 3. to smile (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
酒窩: jiǔ wō — dimple (on the cheek when smiling)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
叔子: shū zi — 1. brother-in-law 2. husband's younger brother
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
家裡: jiā lǐ — home (HSK 1)
大約: dà yuē — 1. approximately 2. probably (HSK 3)
並未: bìng wèi — (used to stress that sth did not turn out as one might have expected) did not actually ...; has not actually ...
受氣: shòu qì — 1. to be mistreated 2. to be bullied
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
寧: Níng — 1. abbr. for Ningxia Hui Autonomous Region 寧夏回族自治區 (Níng xià Huí zú Zì zhì qū) 2. abbr. for Nanjing 南京 (Nán jīng) 3. surname Ning
帖: tiē — 1. fitting snugly 2. appropriate 3. suitable 4. variant of 貼 (tiē) 5. to paste 6. to obey
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
默默: mò mò — in silence; not speaking (HSK 4)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
相視: xiāng shì — to look at each other
片時: piàn shí — 1. a short time 2. a moment
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
漸漸: jiàn jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
充滿: chōng mǎn — 1. full of 2. brimming with 3. very full 4. permeated (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
語聲: yǔ shēng — 1. spoken language 2. sound of speaking
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
家庭: jiā tíng — 1. family; household 2. classifier: 戶 (hù) (HSK 2)
專制: zhuān zhì — 1. autocracy 2. dictatorship (HSK 7-9)
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
打破: dǎ pò — to break; to smash (HSK 3)
舊習: jiù xí — 1. old habit 2. former custom
慣: guàn — 1. accustomed to 2. used to 3. indulge 4. to spoil (a child) (HSK 7-9)
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
男女平等: nán nǚ píng děng — equality of the sexes
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
伊: Yī — surname Yi
孛: bèi — comet
生: shēng — 1. to grow; to give birth; to produce; to be born 2. to arise; to occur 3. to light (a fire) 4. to live; to be alive 5. life 6. raw; uncooked; unprocessed 7. unfamiliar; strange 8. (bound form) student; person engaged in a field 9. (bound form) male role in traditional opera 10. (bound form) life; lifetime 11. (bound form) means of livelihood 12. (bound form) very; intensely (as in 生疼 (shēng téng)) 13. (bound form) in a forced manner (as in 生拉硬拽 (shēng lā yìng zhuài)) (HSK 2)
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
泰戈爾: Tài gē ěr — Rabindranath Tagore (1861-1941), Indian poet and writer
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
雪萊: Xuě lái — 1. Shelley 2. abbr. for 珀西·比希·雪萊 (Pò xī · Bǐ xī · Xuě lái)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
總是: zǒng shì — always (HSK 3)
微笑: wēi xiào — 1. smile 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 絲 (sī) 3. to smile (HSK 4)
點頭: diǎn tóu — to nod (HSK 2)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
瀰漫: mí màn — variant of 彌漫 (mí màn) (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
稚氣: zhì qì — 1. childish nature 2. infantile 3. juvenile 4. puerile
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
好奇: hào qí — 1. inquisitive 2. curious 3. inquisitiveness 4. curiosity (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
光澤: Guāng zé — see 光澤縣 (Guāng zé Xiàn) (HSK 7-9)
壁: bì — 1. wall 2. rampart
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
釘: dīng — 1. nail 2. to follow closely 3. to keep at sb (to do sth) 4. variant of 盯 (dīng) (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
銅板: tóng bǎn — 1. copper coin 2. copper plate 3. copper clappers (a kind of percussion instrument) 4. (Tw) coin
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
雪萊: Xuě lái — 1. Shelley 2. abbr. for 珀西·比希·雪萊 (Pò xī · Bǐ xī · Xuě lái)
半身像: bàn shēn xiàng — 1. half-length photo or portrait 2. bust
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
雜誌: zá zhì — 1. magazine 2. classifier: 本 (běn), 份 (fèn), 期 (qī) (HSK 3)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
裁: cái — 1. to cut out (as a dress) 2. to cut 3. to trim 4. to reduce 5. to diminish 6. to cut back (e.g. on staff) 7. decision 8. judgment (HSK 7-9)
下來: xià lai — 1. to come down 2. (completed action marker) 3. (after verb of motion, indicates motion down and towards us, also fig.) 4. (indicates continuation from the past towards us) 5. to be harvested (of crops) 6. to be over (of a period of time) 7. to go among the masses (said of leaders) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
最: zuì — 1. (before an adjective or verb) to the highest degree; (the) most ...; -est 2. (after 之 (zhī)) best or most extreme example (e.g. 世界之最 (shì jiè zhī zuì) "the greatest in the world") (HSK 1)
美的: Měi dí — Midea (brand)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
當: dāng — 1. to be 2. to act as 3. manage 4. withstand 5. when 6. during 7. ought 8. should 9. match equally 10. equal 11. same 12. obstruct 13. just at (a time or place) 14. on the spot 15. right 16. just at (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
指: zhǐ — 1. finger 2. to point at or to 3. to indicate or refer to 4. to depend on 5. to count on 6. (of hair) to stand on end (HSK 3)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
草草: cǎo cǎo — 1. carelessly 2. hastily
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
低: dī — 1. low 2. beneath 3. to lower (one's head) 4. to let droop 5. to hang down 6. to incline (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
頭: tóu — 1. head 2. hair style 3. the top 4. end 5. beginning or end 6. a stub 7. remnant 8. chief 9. boss 10. side 11. aspect 12. first 13. leading 14. classifier for pigs or livestock 15. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
不好意思: bù hǎo yì si — 1. to feel embarrassed 2. to find it embarrassing 3. to be sorry (for inconveniencing sb) (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
這些: zhè xiē — these (HSK 1)
地方: dì fāng — 1. region 2. regional (away from the central administration) 3. local (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
大概: dà gài — 1. roughly 2. probably 3. rough 4. approximate 5. about 6. general idea (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
未: wèi — 1. not yet 2. did not 3. have not 4. not 5. 8th earthly branch: 1-3 p.m., 6th solar month (7th July-6th August), year of the Sheep 6. ancient Chinese compass point: 210° (HSK 7-9)
脫: tuō — 1. to shed 2. to take off 3. to escape 4. to get away from (HSK 4)
盡: jìn — 1. to use up 2. to exhaust 3. to end 4. to finish 5. to the utmost 6. exhausted 7. finished 8. to the limit (of sth) 9. all 10. entirely (HSK 6)
舊: jiù — 1. old 2. opposite: new 新 3. former 4. worn (with age) (HSK 3)
思想: sī xiǎng — 1. thought 2. thinking 3. idea 4. ideology 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
束縛: shù fù — to bind; to tie up; to fetter; to shackle (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
倒: dǎo — 1. to fall; to collapse; to lie horizontally 2. to fail; to go bankrupt 3. to overthrow 4. to change (trains or buses) 5. to move around 6. to resell at a profit (HSK 2)
不如: bù rú — 1. not equal to; not as good as; inferior to 2. it would be better to (HSK 2)
換: huàn — 1. to exchange 2. to change (clothes etc) 3. to substitute 4. to switch 5. to convert (currency) (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
雪萊: Xuě lái — 1. Shelley 2. abbr. for 珀西·比希·雪萊 (Pò xī · Bǐ xī · Xuě lái)
淹死: yān sǐ — to drown
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
海: Hǎi — surname Hai (HSK 2)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
記念: jì niàn — to commemorate; to honor the memory of (variant of 紀念 (jì niàn))
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
或是: huò shì — 1. or 2. either one or the other (HSK 5)
伊: Yī — surname Yi
孛: bèi — comet
生: shēng — 1. to grow; to give birth; to produce; to be born 2. to arise; to occur 3. to light (a fire) 4. to live; to be alive 5. life 6. raw; uncooked; unprocessed 7. unfamiliar; strange 8. (bound form) student; person engaged in a field 9. (bound form) male role in traditional opera 10. (bound form) life; lifetime 11. (bound form) means of livelihood 12. (bound form) very; intensely (as in 生疼 (shēng téng)) 13. (bound form) in a forced manner (as in 生拉硬拽 (shēng lā yìng zhuài)) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
換: huàn — 1. to exchange 2. to change (clothes etc) 3. to substitute 4. to switch 5. to convert (currency) (HSK 2)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不知: bù zhī — 1. not to know 2. unaware 3. unknowingly 4. fig. not to admit (defeat, hardships, tiredness etc) (HSK 7-9)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

「，！」"I am my own; none of them has any right to interfere with me!"

，，，，，。This was what she said, plainly, resolutely, and calmly, after a moment of silent thought, when we had been keeping company half a year and again fell to talking of her uncle here and her father back home.，，，；By that time I had already said all there was of my views, my history, my faults, hiding scarcely anything;。and she had come to understand it all fully.，，，，，，。These few words shook my very soul, and for many days afterward still echoed in my ears, filling me with an indescribable wild joy at knowing that the women of China were not, as the pessimists claimed, beyond all hope, and that before long a glorious dawn would surely be seen.

這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
交際: jiāo jì — 1. communication 2. social intercourse (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
半年: bàn nián — half a year (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
談起: tán qǐ — 1. to mention 2. to speak of 3. to talk about (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這裡: zhè lǐ — here (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
胞: bāo — 1. placenta 2. womb 3. born of the same parents
叔: shū — 1. uncle 2. father's younger brother 3. husband's younger brother 4. Taiwan pr. (shú)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
在家: zài jiā — 1. to be at home 2. (at a workplace) to be in (as opposed to being away on official business 出差 (chū chāi)) 3. (Buddhism etc) to remain a layman (as opposed to becoming a monk or a nun 出家 (chū jiā)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
父親: fù qīn — 1. father 2. also pr. (fù qin) 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
默想: mò xiǎng — 1. silent contemplation 2. to meditate 3. to think in silence
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
一會: yī huì — 1. a moment 2. a while 3. in a moment 4. also pr. (yī huǐ)
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
分明: fēn míng — 1. clear 2. distinct 3. evidently 4. clearly (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
堅決: jiān jué — firm; resolute; determined (HSK 3)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
沉靜: chén jìng — 1. peaceful 2. quiet 3. calm 4. gentle
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
出來: chū lái — 1. to come out 2. to appear 3. to arise (HSK 1)
的話: de huà — if (coming after a conditional clause) (HSK 2)
其: qí — 1. his 2. her 3. its 4. their 5. that 6. such 7. it (refers to sth preceding it) (HSK 5)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
盡: jìn — 1. to use up 2. to exhaust 3. to end 4. to finish 5. to the utmost 6. exhausted 7. finished 8. to the limit (of sth) 9. all 10. entirely (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
意見: yì jiàn — 1. idea 2. opinion 3. suggestion 4. objection 5. complaint 6. classifier: 點 (diǎn), 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
身世: shēn shì — one's life experience; one's lot; one's past history
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
缺點: quē diǎn — 1. weak point 2. fault 3. shortcoming 4. disadvantage 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
少: shǎo — 1. few 2. less 3. to lack 4. to be missing 5. to stop (doing sth) 6. seldom (HSK 1)
隱瞞: yǐn mán — 1. to conceal 2. to hide (a taboo subject) 3. to cover up the truth (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
完全: wán quán — 1. complete; whole 2. totally; entirely (HSK 2)
瞭解: liǎo jiě — 1. to understand 2. to realize 3. to find out (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
句: gōu — variant of 勾 (gōu) (HSK 2)
話: huà — 1. dialect 2. language 3. spoken words 4. speech 5. talk 6. words 7. conversation 8. what sb said 9. classifier: 種 (zhǒng), 席 (xí), 句 (jù), 口 (kǒu), 番 (fān) (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
震動: zhèn dòng — 1. to shake 2. to vibrate 3. to strongly affect 4. shock 5. vibration (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
靈魂: líng hún — 1. soul 2. spirit (HSK 7-9)
此後: cǐ hòu — 1. after this 2. afterwards 3. hereafter (HSK 5)
許多: xǔ duō — 1. many 2. a lot of 3. much (HSK 2)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
耳: ěr — 1. ear 2. handle (archaeology) 3. and that is all (Classical Chinese)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
發: fā — 1. to send out 2. to show (one's feeling) 3. to issue 4. to develop 5. to make a bundle of money 6. classifier for gunshots (rounds) (HSK 2)
響: xiǎng — 1. echo 2. sound 3. noise 4. to make a sound 5. to sound 6. to ring 7. loud 8. classifier for noises (HSK 2)
而且: ér qiě — 1. (not only ...) but also 2. moreover; in addition; furthermore (HSK 2)
說不出: shuō bu chū — unable to say
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
狂喜: kuáng xǐ — 1. ecstasy 2. rapt
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
中國: Zhōng guó — China (HSK 1)
女性: nǚ xìng — 1. woman 2. the female sex (HSK 5)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
厭世: yàn shì — 1. world-weary 2. pessimistic
家: jiā — 1. home 2. family 3. (polite) my (sister, uncle etc) 4. classifier for families or businesses 5. refers to the philosophical schools of pre-Han China 6. noun suffix for a specialist in some activity, such as a musician or revolutionary, corresponding to English -ist, -er, -ary or -ian 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
那樣: nà yàng — 1. that kind 2. that sort (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
無法可施: wú fǎ kě shī — nothing can be done (about it)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
遠: yuǎn — 1. far 2. distant 3. remote 4. (intensifier in a comparison) by far 5. much (lower etc) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
將來: jiāng lái — 1. in the future 2. future 3. the future 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
要看: yào kàn — (it) depends on ...
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
輝煌: huī huáng — 1. splendid 2. glorious (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
曙色: shǔ sè — the light of early dawn
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，；Seeing her out the gate, as always we kept more than ten paces apart;，；as always, the face of that old catfish-whiskered creature was pressed close against the grimy windowpane again, its very nose-tip flattened into a little plane;，，。and on reaching the outer courtyard, as always there was again that creature's face in the brightly gleaming glass window, its layer of cold cream thickened.，；She walked on proudly, eyes fixed straight ahead, seeing nothing;。and I came back proudly.

送: sòng — 1. to send; to deliver; to transmit 2. to give (as a present) 3. to see (sb) off 4. to accompany; to go along with (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
出門: chū mén — 1. to go out 2. to leave home 3. to go on a journey 4. away from home 5. (of a woman) to get married (HSK 2)
照例: zhào lì — 1. as a rule 2. as usual 3. usually (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
相: Xiāng — surname Xiang
離: Lí — surname Li (HSK 2)
十: shí — 1. ten 2. 10 (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
步: Bù — surname Bu (HSK 3)
遠: yuǎn — 1. far 2. distant 3. remote 4. (intensifier in a comparison) by far 5. much (lower etc) (HSK 1)
照例: zhào lì — 1. as a rule 2. as usual 3. usually (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
鯰魚: nián yú — catfish
須: xū — 1. must 2. to have to 3. to wait (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
老東西: lǎo dōng xi — 1. (derog.) old fool 2. old bastard
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
臉: liǎn — 1. face 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
緊: jǐn — 1. tight 2. strict 3. close at hand 4. near 5. urgent 6. tense 7. hard up 8. short of money 9. to tighten (HSK 3)
帖: tiē — 1. fitting snugly 2. appropriate 3. suitable 4. variant of 貼 (tiē) 5. to paste 6. to obey
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
髒: zāng — 1. dirty 2. filthy 3. to get (sth) dirty (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
窗玻璃: chuāng bō lí — window pane
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
鼻尖: bí jiān — tip of the nose
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
擠: jǐ — 1. to crowd in 2. to cram in 3. to force others aside 4. to press 5. to squeeze 6. to find (time in one's busy schedule) (HSK 5)
成: Chéng — 1. surname Cheng 2. short name for Chengdu 成都 (Chéng dū) (HSK 2)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
平面: píng miàn — 1. plane (flat surface) 2. print media (HSK 7-9)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
外院: wài yuàn — outer courtyard
照例: zhào lì — 1. as a rule 2. as usual 3. usually (HSK 7-9)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
明晃晃: míng huǎng huǎng — 1. shining 2. bright
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
玻璃: bō li — 1. glass 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 塊 (kuài) 3. (slang) male homosexual (HSK 5)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
東西: dōng xī — east and west (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
臉: liǎn — 1. face 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
加: Jiā — 1. Canada (abbr. for 加拿大 (Jiā ná dà)) 2. surname Jia (HSK 2)
厚: hòu — 1. thick 2. deep or profound 3. kind 4. generous 5. rich or strong in flavor 6. to favor 7. to stress (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
雪花膏: xuě huā gāo — 1. vanishing cream 2. cold cream (makeup)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
目: mù — 1. eye 2. (literary) to look; to regard 3. eye (of a net); mesh 4. mesh size; grit size (abbr. for 目數 (mù shù)) 5. item; section 6. list; catalogue 7. (taxonomy) order 8. name; title
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
邪: xié — 1. demonic 2. iniquitous 3. nefarious 4. evil 5. unhealthy influences that cause disease (Chinese medicine) 6. (coll.) strange 7. abnormal (HSK 7-9)
視: shì — (literary, or bound form) to look at
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
驕傲: jiāo ào — 1. pride 2. arrogance 3. conceited 4. proud of sth (HSK 6)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
驕傲: jiāo ào — 1. pride 2. arrogance 3. conceited 4. proud of sth (HSK 6)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
回來: huí lai — to return; to come back (HSK 1)

「，！」，，。"I am my own; none of them has any right to interfere with me!" — this thoroughgoing idea existed in her mind far more clearly, far more firmly, than in mine.，？What could half a bottle of cold cream and a flattened nose-tip possibly amount to, in her eyes?

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
他們: tā men — they; them (HSK 1)
誰: shéi — 1. who 2. also pr. (shuí) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
干涉: gān shè — 1. to interfere 2. to meddle 3. interference (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
權利: quán lì — 1. right (i.e. an entitlement to sth) 2. (classical) power and wealth (HSK 4)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
徹底: chè dǐ — 1. thorough 2. thoroughly 3. complete (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
思想: sī xiǎng — 1. thought 2. thinking 3. idea 4. ideology 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
腦: nǎo — 1. brain 2. mind 3. head 4. essence
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
比: Bǐ — 1. Belgium 2. Belgian 3. abbr. for 比利時 (Bǐ lì shí) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
透澈: tòu chè — variant of 透徹 (tòu chè)
堅強: jiān qiáng — 1. staunch 2. strong (HSK 3)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
半: bàn — 1. half 2. semi- 3. incomplete 4. (after a number) and a half (HSK 1)
瓶: píng — 1. bottle 2. vase 3. pitcher 4. classifier: 個 (gè) 5. classifier for wine and liquids (HSK 2)
雪花膏: xuě huā gāo — 1. vanishing cream 2. cold cream (makeup)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
鼻尖: bí jiān — tip of the nose
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
平面: píng miàn — 1. plane (flat surface) 2. print media (HSK 7-9)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
能: Néng — surname Neng (HSK 1)
算: suàn — 1. to calculate; to figure out 2. to include; to count in 3. to count; to be valid; to carry weight 4. to regard as; to consider (to be ...) (HSK 2)
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
東西: dōng xī — east and west (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)

。I can no longer remember clearly how, at that time, I made known to her my pure and ardent love.，，，；Not only now — even soon after it happened, things had already grown hazy; recalling it at night, there were early on only a few fragments left;，。and one or two months after we began living together, even these fragments dissolved into dream-shadows beyond all tracing.，，，。I remember only that in the dozen or so days before it happened, I had studied very carefully just what manner to declare myself in, had arranged the order of my words, and had thought over what would happen should I be refused.，，。But when the moment came, all of it seemed useless; in my fluster, quite beyond my own control, I ended up using a method I had seen at the cinema.，，，，，……。Whenever I think of it afterward it fills me with shame, and yet it is precisely this one moment that has remained forever in my memory, still today like a solitary lamp in a dark room, lighting up the sight of myself, tears in my eyes, holding her hand and going down on one knee…….

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
記: jì — 1. to record 2. to note 3. to memorize 4. to remember 5. mark 6. sign 7. classifier for blows, kicks, shots (HSK 1)
不清: bù qīng — unclear
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
純真: chún zhēn — 1. innocent and unaffected 2. pure and unadulterated
熱烈: rè liè — 1. enthusiastic 2. ardent 3. warm (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
表示: biǎo shì — 1. (of sb) to express; to state; to show 2. (of sth) to indicate; to signify; to show 3. expression; manifestation (HSK 2)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
豈: kǎi — 1. old variant of 愷 (kǎi) 2. old variant of 凱 (kǎi)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
事後: shì hòu — 1. after the event 2. in hindsight 3. in retrospect (HSK 6)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
已: yǐ — 1. already 2. to stop 3. then 4. afterwards (HSK 3)
模胡: mó hu — variant of 模糊 (mó hu)
夜間: yè jiān — 1. nighttime 2. evening or night (e.g. classes) (HSK 5)
回想: huí xiǎng — 1. to recall 2. to recollect 3. to think back (HSK 7-9)
早: zǎo — 1. early 2. morning 3. Good morning! 4. long ago 5. prematurely (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
剩: shèng — 1. to remain 2. to be left 3. to have as remainder (HSK 5)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
一些: yī xiē — some; a few; a little; (following an adjective) slightly ...er (HSK 1)
斷片: duàn piàn — 1. fragment 2. piece 3. (of a film) to break in the middle of viewing
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
同居: tóng jū — 1. to live together 2. to cohabit
以後: yǐ hòu — 1. after 2. later 3. afterwards 4. following 5. later on 6. in the future (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
月: yuè — 1. moon 2. month 3. monthly 4. classifier: 個 (gè), 輪 (lún) (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
這些: zhè xiē — these (HSK 1)
斷片: duàn piàn — 1. fragment 2. piece 3. (of a film) to break in the middle of viewing
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
化作: huà zuò — 1. to change into 2. to turn into 3. to become
無可: wú kě — can't
追蹤: zhuī zōng — 1. to track; to trace; to follow up 2. (HK, Tw) to follow (on social media) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
夢: mèng — 1. dream (classifier: 場 (cháng)) 2. (bound form) to dream (HSK 4)
影: yǐng — 1. picture 2. image 3. film 4. movie 5. photograph 6. reflection 7. shadow 8. trace
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
記得: jì de — to remember (HSK 1)
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
以前: yǐ qián — 1. before 2. formerly 3. previous 4. ago (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
十幾: shí jǐ — more than ten; a dozen or more
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
曾經: céng jīng — 1. once 2. already 3. former 4. previously 5. ever 6. (past tense marker used before verb or clause) (HSK 3)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
仔細: zǐ xì — 1. careful; attentive; cautious 2. to be careful; to look out 3. (dialect) thrifty; frugal (HSK 5)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
研究: yán jiū — 1. research 2. a study 3. classifier: 項 (xiàng) 4. to research 5. to look into (HSK 4)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
表示: biǎo shì — 1. (of sb) to express; to state; to show 2. (of sth) to indicate; to signify; to show 3. expression; manifestation (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
態度: tài du — 1. manner 2. bearing 3. attitude 4. approach 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
排列: pái liè — 1. to arrange in order 2. (math.) permutation (HSK 4)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
措辭: cuò cí — 1. wording 2. way of expressing something 3. turn of phrase 4. diction
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
先後: xiān hòu — 1. early or late; first and last; priority 2. in succession; one after another (HSK 5)
以及: yǐ jí — and; as well as (HSK 4)
倘或: tǎng huò — if; supposing that
遭: zāo — 1. to suffer; to meet with (usu. misfortune) 2. classifier for events: time, turn, incident
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
拒絕: jù jué — to refuse; to decline; to reject (HSK 5)
以後: yǐ hòu — 1. after 2. later 3. afterwards 4. following 5. later on 6. in the future (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
情形: qíng xing — circumstances; situation; state of affairs (HSK 5)
可是: kě shì — 1. but; however 2. (used for emphasis) indeed (HSK 2)
臨時: lín shí — 1. as the time draws near 2. at the last moment 3. temporary 4. interim 5. ad hoc (HSK 4)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
無用: wú yòng — 1. useless 2. worthless
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
慌張: huāng zhāng — 1. flustered 2. agitated (HSK 7-9)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
身不由己: shēn bù yóu jǐ — (idiom) (of one's circumstances) beyond one's control; unable to do anything about it; (of one's actions) not subject to conscious control (i.e. done in spite of oneself) (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
電影: diàn yǐng — 1. movie; film 2. classifier: 部 (bù) (HSK 1)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
方法: fāng fǎ — method; way; technique; procedure (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
想到: xiǎng dào — 1. to think of 2. to call to mind 3. to anticipate (HSK 2)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
愧: kuì — ashamed
恧: nǜ — ashamed
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
記憶: jì yì — 1. to remember; to recall 2. memory (HSK 5)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
偏: piān — 1. to lean 2. to slant 3. oblique 4. prejudiced 5. to deviate from average 6. to stray from the intended line 7. stubbornly 8. contrary to expectations (HSK 6)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
永遠: yǒng yuǎn — 1. forever 2. eternal (HSK 2)
留遺: liú yí — 1. to leave behind 2. sb's legacy
至今: zhì jīn — 1. so far 2. to this day 3. until now (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
暗室: àn shì — darkroom
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
孤: gū — 1. lone 2. lonely
燈: dēng — 1. lamp 2. light 3. lantern 4. classifier: 盞 (zhǎn) (HSK 2)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
照: zhào — 1. according to 2. in accordance with 3. to shine 4. to illuminate 5. to reflect 6. to look at (one's reflection) 7. to take (a photo) 8. photo 9. as requested 10. as before (HSK 3)
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
含淚: hán lèi — 1. tearful 2. tearfully
握: wò — 1. to hold; to grasp 2. to clench (one's fist) 3. (bound form) to have in one's control 4. classifier: a handful (HSK 5)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
手: shǒu — 1. hand 2. (formal) to hold 3. person engaged in certain types of work 4. person skilled in certain types of work 5. personal(ly) 6. convenient 7. classifier for skill 8. classifier: 雙 (shuāng), 隻 (zhī) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
條: tiáo — 1. strip 2. item 3. article 4. clause (of law or treaty) 5. classifier for long thin things (ribbon, river, road, trousers etc) (HSK 2)
腿: tuǐ — 1. leg 2. classifier: 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
跪: guì — to kneel (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
下去: xià qù — 1. to go down 2. to descend 3. to go on 4. to continue 5. (of a servant) to withdraw (HSK 3)

，，；Not only my own — even Zijun's words and gestures, I failed at the time to see clearly;。I knew only that she had already consented to me.，，——，；Yet I still seem to remember that her face turned pale, and then gradually flushed crimson — a crimson I had never seen before, nor ever saw again;，，，。in her childlike eyes shone both sorrow and joy, mingled with a light of alarm and doubt, and though she strove to avoid my gaze, she seemed, in her flurry, as if about to break through the window and fly away.，。Still, I knew she had already consented to me, without knowing how she had said it, or whether she had said anything at all.

不但: bù dàn — not only (... but also ...) (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
言語: yán yǔ — 1. words 2. speech 3. (spoken) language (HSK 5)
舉動: jǔ dòng — 1. act 2. action 3. activity 4. move 5. movement (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
得分: dé fēn — 1. to score a point (in a competition, test etc) 2. score; rating; grade (HSK 3)
明: Míng — 1. Ming Dynasty (1368–1644) 2. surname Ming 3. Ming (c. 2000 BC), fourth of the legendary Flame Emperors, 炎帝 (Yán dì) descended from Shennong 神農 (Shén nóng) Farmer God
僅: jǐn — 1. barely 2. only 3. merely (HSK 3)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
允許: yǔn xǔ — 1. to permit 2. to allow (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
記得: jì de — to remember (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
臉色: liǎn sè — 1. complexion 2. look (HSK 5)
變成: biàn chéng — 1. to change into 2. to turn into 3. to become (HSK 2)
青白: Qīng bái — Qingbaijiang district of Chengdu city 成都市 (Chéng dū shì), Sichuan
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
漸漸: jiàn jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
轉作: zhuǎn zuò — (agriculture) to switch to growing a different crop
緋紅: fēi hóng — 1. crimson 2. scarlet
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
再見: zài jiàn — 1. goodbye 2. see you again later (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
緋紅: fēi hóng — 1. crimson 2. scarlet
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
射出: shè chū — 1. emission 2. ejaculation
悲: bēi — 1. sad 2. sadness 3. sorrow 4. grief
喜: xǐ — 1. to be fond of 2. to like 3. to enjoy 4. to be happy 5. to feel pleased 6. happiness 7. delight 8. glad
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
夾: gā — used in 夾肢窩 (gā zhi wō) (HSK 5)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
驚疑: jīng yí — bewildered
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
光: guāng — 1. light; ray (classifier: 道 (dào)) 2. bright; shiny 3. only; merely 4. used up; finished 5. to leave (a part of the body) uncovered (HSK 3)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
力: Lì — surname Li (HSK 3)
避: bì — 1. to avoid 2. to shun 3. to flee 4. to escape 5. to keep away from 6. to leave 7. to hide from (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
視線: shì xiàn — line of sight (HSK 7-9)
張皇: zhāng huáng — 1. alarmed 2. flustered
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
飛: fēi — to fly (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
允許: yǔn xǔ — 1. to permit 2. to allow (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
或是: huò shì — 1. or 2. either one or the other (HSK 5)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)

：，，；She, however, remembered everything: my words, to the point that she could recite them fluently, as though she had learned them by heart;，，，，。my gestures, as though there hung before her eyes a film I myself could not see, she described them vividly, in the minutest detail, and of course including that shallow flash from the cinema which I would rather not think of again.，，，，，，，。Late at night, when all was still, was the time for us to review together face to face; I was often questioned, tested, and ordered to repeat the words spoken then, yet time and again it had to be filled out by her, corrected by her, like a fourth-rate student.

她: tā — she (HSK 1)
卻是: què shì — 1. nevertheless 2. actually 3. the fact is ... (HSK 6)
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
記得: jì de — to remember (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
言辭: yán cí — 1. words 2. expression 3. what one says (HSK 7-9)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
至於: zhì yú — 1. as for 2. as to 3. to go so far as to (HSK 6)
讀: dòu — 1. comma 2. phrase marked by pause (HSK 1)
熟: shú — 1. ripe; mature 2. thoroughly cooked; done 3. familiar; acquainted 4. experienced; skilled 5. (of sleep etc) deep; profound 6. also pr. (shóu) (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
能夠: néng gòu — 1. to be capable of 2. to be able to 3. can (HSK 2)
滔滔: tāo tāo — torrential
背誦: bèi sòng — 1. to recite 2. to repeat from memory (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
舉動: jǔ dòng — 1. act 2. action 3. activity 4. move 5. movement (HSK 5)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
看不見: kàn bu jiàn — 1. cannot see 2. cannot be seen 3. invisible
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
影片: yǐng piàn — 1. a copy of a film 2. film; motion picture; movie 3. (Tw) video; video clip 4. classifier: 部 (bù) (HSK 2)
掛: guà — 1. to hang; to suspend (from a hook etc) 2. to hang up (the phone) 3. (of a line) to be dead 4. to be worried; to be concerned 5. (dialect) to make a phone call 6. to register (at a hospital); to make an appointment (with a doctor) 7. (slang) to kill; to die; to be finished; to fail (an exam) 8. classifier for sets or clusters of objects (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
眼下: yǎn xià — 1. now; at present 2. (anatomy) subocular (HSK 7-9)
敘述: xù shù — 1. to relate (a story or information) 2. to tell or talk about 3. to recount 4. narration 5. telling 6. narrative 7. account (HSK 7-9)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
生: shēng — 1. to grow; to give birth; to produce; to be born 2. to arise; to occur 3. to light (a fire) 4. to live; to be alive 5. life 6. raw; uncooked; unprocessed 7. unfamiliar; strange 8. (bound form) student; person engaged in a field 9. (bound form) male role in traditional opera 10. (bound form) life; lifetime 11. (bound form) means of livelihood 12. (bound form) very; intensely (as in 生疼 (shēng téng)) 13. (bound form) in a forced manner (as in 生拉硬拽 (shēng lā yìng zhuài)) (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
細微: xì wēi — 1. tiny 2. minute 3. fine 4. subtle 5. sensitive (instruments) (HSK 7-9)
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不願: bù yuàn — unwilling
再: zài — 1. again; once more; re- 2. further; beyond this point of time 3. (before an adjective) more 4. then (after sth, and not until then) 5. no matter how ... (followed by an adjective or verb, and then (usually) 也 (yě) or 都 (dōu) for emphasis) 6. (used to introduce additional information, as in 再則 (zài zé), 再就是 (zài jiù shì) etc) 7. (literary) to reappear; to reoccur (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
淺薄: qiǎn bó — superficial
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
電影: diàn yǐng — 1. movie; film 2. classifier: 部 (bù) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
閃: Shǎn — surname Shan (HSK 4)
夜闌人靜: yè lán rén jìng — 1. the still of the night (idiom) 2. late at night
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
相對: xiāng duì — 1. relatively 2. opposite 3. to resist 4. to oppose 5. relative 6. vis-a-vis 7. counterpart (HSK 7-9)
溫習: wēn xí — to review (a lesson etc) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
常: Cháng — surname Chang (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
質問: zhì wèn — 1. to question 2. to ask questions 3. to inquire 4. to bring to account 5. to interrogate (HSK 7-9)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
考驗: kǎo yàn — 1. to test 2. to put to the test 3. trial 4. ordeal (HSK 3)
並且: bìng qiě — and; besides; moreover; furthermore; in addition (HSK 3)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
命: mìng — 1. life 2. fate 3. order or command 4. to assign a name, title etc (HSK 6)
複述: fù shù — 1. to repeat (one's own words or sb else's) 2. (in the classroom) to paraphrase what one has learned
當時: dāng shí — then; at that time (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
言語: yán yǔ — 1. words 2. speech 3. (spoken) language (HSK 5)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
常: Cháng — surname Chang (HSK 1)
須: xū — 1. must 2. to have to 3. to wait (HSK 7-9)
由: yóu — 1. to follow 2. from 3. because of; due to 4. by; via; through 5. (before a noun and a verb) it is for ... to ... (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
補足: bǔ zú — 1. to bring up to full strength 2. to make up a deficiency 3. to fill (a vacancy, gap etc)
由: yóu — 1. to follow 2. from 3. because of; due to 4. by; via; through 5. (before a noun and a verb) it is for ... to ... (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
糾正: jiū zhèng — 1. to correct 2. to make right (HSK 6)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
丁: Dīng — surname Ding (HSK 7-9)
等: děng — 1. to wait for; to await 2. by the time; when; till 3. and so on; etc.; et al. 4. (bound form) class; rank; grade 5. (bound form) equal to; same as 6. (used to end an enumeration) 7. (literary) (plural suffix attached to a personal pronoun or noun) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
學生: xué sheng — 1. student 2. schoolchild (HSK 1)

。This reviewing, too, later grew gradually less frequent.，，，，，。But whenever I saw her two eyes fixed on the empty air, lost in thought as though in a trance, and then her expression grow gentler still, her dimples deepen — I would know she was going over her old lesson again by herself; only I was very much afraid of her seeing that ridiculous flash of cinema in me.，，。Yet I also knew that she was bound to see it, and could not help but see it.

這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
溫習: wēn xí — to review (a lesson etc) (HSK 7-9)
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
漸漸: jiàn jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
稀疏: xī shū — 1. sparse 2. infrequent 3. thinly spread
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
只要: zhǐ yào — so long as; provided; if (HSK 2)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)
註: zhù — 1. to annotate; to provide explanatory notes on a written text 2. an annotation; an explanatory note 3. (bound form) to put on record; to register (HSK 7-9)
視: shì — (literary, or bound form) to look at
空中: kōng zhōng — 1. in the sky 2. in the air (HSK 5)
出神: chū shén — 1. spellbound 2. entranced 3. lost in thought
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
凝: níng — 1. to congeal 2. to concentrate attention 3. to stare
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
越: Yuè — 1. generic word for peoples or states of south China or south Asia at different historical periods 2. abbr. for Vietnam 越南 (HSK 2)
加: Jiā — 1. Canada (abbr. for 加拿大 (Jiā ná dà)) 2. surname Jia (HSK 2)
柔和: róu hé — 1. gentle 2. soft (HSK 7-9)
笑窩: xiào wō — dimple (on the cheek when smiling)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
深: shēn — (lit. and fig.) deep (HSK 3)
下去: xià qù — 1. to go down 2. to descend 3. to go on 4. to continue 5. (of a servant) to withdraw (HSK 3)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
自修: zì xiū — 1. to study on one's own 2. self-study
舊: jiù — 1. old 2. opposite: new 新 3. former 4. worn (with age) (HSK 3)
課: kè — 1. subject 2. course 3. classifier: 門 (mén) 4. class 5. lesson 6. classifier: 堂 (táng), 節 (jié) 7. to levy 8. tax 9. form of divination (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
怕: Pà — surname Pa (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
看到: kàn dào — to see (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
可笑: kě xiào — 1. funny 2. ridiculous (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
電影: diàn yǐng — 1. movie; film 2. classifier: 部 (bù) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
閃: Shǎn — surname Shan (HSK 4)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
一定: yī dìng — 1. surely; certainly; definitely 2. fixed; settled 3. a certain ...; a given ... (HSK 2)
要看: yào kàn — (it) depends on ...
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
而且: ér qiě — 1. (not only ...) but also 2. moreover; in addition; furthermore (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
非: Fēi — abbr. for 非洲 (Fēi zhōu), Africa (HSK 4)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
不可: bù kě — cannot; should not; must not
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

。And yet she did not find it in the least ridiculous.，，。Even what I myself thought ridiculous, even contemptible, she did not think ridiculous at all.，，，。This much I knew very clearly, because she loved me — so ardently, so purely.

然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
可笑: kě xiào — 1. funny 2. ridiculous (HSK 7-9)
即使: jí shǐ — even if; even though (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
可笑: kě xiào — 1. funny 2. ridiculous (HSK 7-9)
甚而至於: shèn ér zhì yú — 1. even 2. so much so that
可鄙: kě bǐ — 1. base 2. mean 3. despicable
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
毫不: háo bù — 1. hardly 2. not in the least 3. not at all (HSK 7-9)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
可笑: kě xiào — 1. funny 2. ridiculous (HSK 7-9)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
得很: de hěn — (after an adjective) very
清楚: qīng chu — 1. clear 2. distinct 3. to understand thoroughly 4. to be clear about (HSK 2)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地熱: dì rè — geothermal heat
烈: liè — 1. ardent 2. intense 3. fierce 4. stern 5. upright 6. to give one's life for a noble cause 7. exploits 8. achievements
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
純真: chún zhēn — 1. innocent and unaffected 2. pure and unadulterated

，。Last year's late spring was the happiest time, and also the busiest.，。My heart had grown calm, but another part of me, together with my body, had grown busy instead.，，。It was only now that we walked together on the streets, and went a few times to the park as well, but most of all we went about looking for lodgings.，，，，，。I felt that on the road we constantly met with prying, mocking, lewd, and contemptuous looks, and the moment I was off guard, my whole body would shrink a little, so that I had at once to summon my pride and defiance to bear it up.，，，。She, however, was utterly fearless, quite unconcerned by any of it, walking calmly and slowly onward, as composed as though entering a land where no one else existed.

去年: qù nián — last year (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
暮: mù — 1. evening 2. sunset
春: Chūn — surname Chun
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
最為: zuì wéi — the most
幸福: xìng fú — 1. happiness 2. happy 3. blessed (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
最為: zuì wéi — the most
忙碌: máng lù — busy; bustling (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時光: shí guāng — time (esp. as sth that passes) (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
平靜: píng jìng — calm; tranquil; serene (HSK 4)
下去: xià qù — 1. to go down 2. to descend 3. to go on 4. to continue 5. (of a servant) to withdraw (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
有別: yǒu bié — 1. different 2. distinct 3. unequal 4. variable
一部分: yī bù fen — 1. portion 2. part of 3. subset (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
身體: shēn tǐ — 1. the body 2. one's health (HSK 1)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
忙碌: máng lù — busy; bustling (HSK 7-9)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
這時: zhè shí — 1. at this time 2. at this moment (HSK 2)
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
路上: lù shang — 1. on the road 2. on the way; en route (HSK 1)
同行: tóng háng — 1. person of the same profession 2. of the same trade, occupation or industry (HSK 6)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
回: Huí — Hui ethnic group (Chinese Muslims) (HSK 1)
公園: gōng yuán — 1. park (for public recreation) 2. classifier: 座 (zuò) (HSK 2)
最多: zuì duō — 1. at most 2. maximum 3. greatest (amount) 4. maximal
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
尋: xún — 1. to search 2. to look for 3. to seek (HSK 7-9)
住所: zhù suǒ — 1. habitation 2. dwelling place 3. residence 4. classifier: 處 (chù)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
路上: lù shang — 1. on the road 2. on the way; en route (HSK 1)
時時: shí shí — 1. often 2. constantly (HSK 6)
遇到: yù dào — to meet; to run into; to come across (HSK 4)
探索: tàn suǒ — to explore; to probe (HSK 6)
譏笑: jī xiào — to sneer (HSK 7-9)
猥褻: wěi xiè — 1. obscene; indecent 2. to indecently assault
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
輕蔑: qīng miè — 1. scornful; disdainful; contemptuous; pejorative 2. disdain; contempt (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼光: yǎn guāng — 1. gaze 2. insight 3. foresight 4. vision 5. way of looking at things (HSK 5)
一不小心: yī bù xiǎo xīn — to be a little bit careless; to have a moment of inattentiveness; accidentally (HSK 7-9)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
全身: quán shēn — 1. the whole body 2. (typography) em (HSK 2)
有些: yǒu xiē — 1. some 2. somewhat; rather; a bit
瑟縮: sè suō — 1. to curl up shivering (from cold) 2. timid and trembling (in fear) 3. to shrink 4. to cower
只得: zhǐ dé — to have no alternative but to; to be obliged to (HSK 6)
即刻: jí kè — 1. immediately 2. instant 3. instantly
提起: tí qǐ — 1. to mention; to bring up 2. (lit. and fig.) to lift; to raise 3. to initiate (legal proceedings) (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
驕傲: jiāo ào — 1. pride 2. arrogance 3. conceited 4. proud of sth (HSK 6)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
反抗: fǎn kàng — 1. to resist 2. to rebel (HSK 6)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
支持: zhī chí — 1. to be in favor of 2. to support 3. to back 4. support 5. backing 6. to stand by 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
卻是: què shì — 1. nevertheless 2. actually 3. the fact is ... (HSK 6)
大無畏: dà wú wèi — utterly fearless
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
對於: duì yú — regarding; as far as (sth) is concerned; with regard to (HSK 4)
這些: zhè xiē — these (HSK 1)
全: Quán — surname Quan (HSK 2)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
關心: guān xīn — to be concerned about; to care about (HSK 2)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
鎮靜: zhèn jìng — 1. calm 2. cool
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
緩緩: huǎn huǎn — 1. slowly 2. unhurriedly 3. little by little (HSK 7-9)
前行: qián xíng — (literary) to go forward
坦然: tǎn rán — 1. calm 2. undisturbed (HSK 7-9)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
入: rù — 1. to enter; to go into 2. to join; to become a member of 3. (bound form) to conform to (as in 入時 (rù shí)) 4. abbr. for 入聲 (rù shēng) 5. (on product packaging, after {number n} + {classifier}) containing (n pieces) (from Japanese 入 "iri") (HSK 6)
無人: wú rén — 1. unmanned 2. uninhabited
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
境: jìng — 1. border 2. place 3. condition 4. boundary 5. circumstances 6. territory

，，。Finding lodgings was truly no easy matter — for the most part we were turned away with some pretext, and for the rest we ourselves judged the place unsuitable.，——，；At first we were very exacting in our choice — though it was not really exacting, for most places simply did not look like a home where we could settle;，。but later, we asked only that they would take us in.，，；After looking at more than twenty places, we finally found one that would do for the time being — two south-facing rooms in a small house in Jizhao Hutong;，，。the landlord was a minor official, but a sensible man for all that, living himself in the main rooms and the side wing.，，，。He had only his wife and a baby girl not yet a year old, and employed a country woman as a servant; so long as the child did not cry, the place was extremely quiet and at ease.

尋: xún — 1. to search 2. to look for 3. to seek (HSK 7-9)
住所: zhù suǒ — 1. habitation 2. dwelling place 3. residence 4. classifier: 處 (chù)
實在: shí zài — 1. really 2. actually 3. indeed 4. true 5. real 6. honest 7. dependable 8. (philosophy) reality (HSK 2)
不是: bù shì — 1. no 2. is not 3. not
容易: róng yì — 1. easy; straightforward 2. likely; liable to; apt to (HSK 3)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
大半: dà bàn — 1. more than half 2. greater part 3. most 4. probably 5. most likely
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
托辭: tuō cí — variant of 託詞 (tuō cí)
拒絕: jù jué — to refuse; to decline; to reject (HSK 5)
小半: xiǎo bàn — 1. a portion smaller than a half 2. the lesser part 3. the smaller part
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
相宜: xiāng yí — to be suitable or appropriate
起先: qǐ xiān — at first; in the beginning
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
選擇: xuǎn zé — 1. to select; to pick 2. choice; option; alternative (HSK 4)
得很: de hěn — (after an adjective) very
苛: kē — 1. severe 2. exacting
酷: kù — 1. ruthless 2. strong (e.g. of wine) 3. (loanword) cool 4. hip (HSK 6)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
非: Fēi — abbr. for 非洲 (Fēi zhōu), Africa (HSK 4)
苛: kē — 1. severe 2. exacting
酷: kù — 1. ruthless 2. strong (e.g. of wine) 3. (loanword) cool 4. hip (HSK 6)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
大抵: dà dǐ — 1. generally speaking 2. by and large 3. for the most part
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
安身: ān shēn — 1. to make one's home 2. to take shelter
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
只要: zhǐ yào — so long as; provided; if (HSK 2)
他們: tā men — they; them (HSK 1)
能: Néng — surname Neng (HSK 1)
相容: xiāng róng — 1. compatible 2. consistent 3. to tolerate (each other)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
二十多: èr shí duō — over 20
處: chǔ — 1. to reside 2. to live 3. to dwell 4. to be in 5. to be situated at 6. to stay 7. to get along with 8. to be in a position of 9. to deal with 10. to discipline 11. to punish (HSK 4)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
得到: dé dào — to get; to obtain; to receive (HSK 1)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
暫且: zàn qiě — for now; for the time being; temporarily
敷衍: fū yǎn — 1. to elaborate (on a theme) 2. to expound (the classics) 3. perfunctory 4. to skimp 5. to botch 6. to do sth half-heartedly or just for show 7. barely enough to get by
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
處所: chù suǒ — place
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
吉兆: jí zhào — lucky omen
衚衕: hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
小屋: xiǎo wū — 1. cabin 2. lodge 3. cottage 4. chalet 5. hut 6. shed
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
間: jiān — 1. between 2. among 3. within a definite time or space 4. room 5. section of a room or lateral space between two pairs of pillars 6. classifier for rooms (HSK 1)
南: Nán — surname Nan (HSK 1)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
主人: zhǔ rén — 1. master 2. host 3. owner 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
小官: xiǎo guān — 1. petty official 2. minor functionary
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
倒是: dào shi — 1. contrary to what one might expect 2. actually 3. contrariwise 4. why don't you (HSK 5)
明白: míng bai — 1. clear; obvious; unequivocal 2. sensible; reasonable 3. to understand; to realize (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
自: zì — 1. (bound form) self; oneself 2. from; since 3. naturally; as a matter of course (HSK 4)
住: zhù — 1. to live; to reside; to stay 2. to stop; to cease 3. (result complement indicating firmness or a stable achieved state) (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
正: zhēng — first month of the lunar year (HSK 1)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
廂房: xiāng fáng — 1. wing (of a traditional house) 2. side room
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
夫人: fū ren — 1. lady 2. madam 3. Mrs. 4. classifier: 位 (wèi) (HSK 4)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
不到: bù dào — 1. not to arrive 2. not reaching 3. insufficient 4. less than
周: Zhōu — 1. surname Zhou 2. Zhou Dynasty (1046–256 BC) (HSK 2)
歲: suì — 1. classifier for years (of age) 2. year 3. year (of crop harvests) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
女孩子: nǚ hái zi — girl
雇: gù — 1. to employ 2. to hire 3. to rent (HSK 7-9)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
鄉下: xiāng xia — 1. countryside 2. rural area 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
女工: nǚ gōng — 1. working woman 2. variant of 女紅 (nǚ gōng)
只要: zhǐ yào — so long as; provided; if (HSK 2)
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
啼哭: tí kū — 1. to cry 2. to wail
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
極其: jí qí — extremely (HSK 4)
安閑: ān xián — 1. at one's ease 2. carefree
幽靜: yōu jìng — 1. quiet 2. secluded 3. isolated 4. peaceful
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，；Our furniture was very simple, yet it had already used up more than half of the funds I had managed to raise;。and Zijun, besides, sold her one and only gold ring and her earrings.，，；I tried to stop her, but she insisted on selling them, and so I did not press the matter further;，。I knew that unless she was allowed to put in some share of her own, she would not feel easy about living there.

我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
傢具: jiā jù — variant of 家具 (jiā jù)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
簡單: jiǎn dān — simple; not complicated (HSK 3)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
籌: chóu — 1. chip (in gambling); token (for counting); ticket 2. to prepare; to plan; to raise (funds) 3. resource; way; means (HSK 7-9)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
的款: dí kuǎn — reliable funds
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
大半: dà bàn — 1. more than half 2. greater part 3. most 4. probably 5. most likely
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
賣掉: mài diào — to sell off
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
唯一: wéi yī — only; sole (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
金: Jīn — 1. surname Jin 2. surname Kim (Korean) 3. Jurchen Jin dynasty (1115–1234) (HSK 3)
戒指: jiè zhi — (finger) ring (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
耳環: ěr huán — 1. earring 2. classifier: 隻 (zhī), 對 (duì)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
攔阻: lán zǔ — 1. to block 2. to obstruct
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
定: dìng — 1. to fix; to set; to make definite 2. to subscribe to (a newspaper etc); to book (tickets etc); to order (goods etc) 3. to congeal; to coagulate 4. (literary) definitely (HSK 4)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
賣: mài — 1. to sell 2. to betray 3. to spare no effort 4. to show off or flaunt (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
不再: bù zài — no more; no longer (HSK 6)
堅持下去: jiān chí xià qù — to press on
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
加入: jiā rù — 1. to become a member 2. to join 3. to mix into 4. to participate in 5. to add in (HSK 4)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
股: gǔ — 1. thigh 2. part of a whole; portion of a sum 3. (finance) stock; share 4. strand of a thread 5. low-level administrative unit, translated as "section" or "department" etc, ranked below 科 (kē) 6. classifier for long winding things like ropes, rivers etc 7. classifier for smoke, smells etc: thread, puff, whiff 8. classifier for bands of people, gangs etc 9. classifier for sudden forceful actions (HSK 6)
分: fēn — 1. to divide; to separate 2. to distribute; to allocate 3. to distinguish (good and bad) 4. (bound form) branch of (an organization); sub- (as in 分局 (fēn jú)) 5. fraction 6. one tenth (of certain units) 7. unit of length equivalent to 0.33 cm 8. minute (unit of time) 9. minute (angular measurement unit) 10. a point (in sports or games) 11. 0.01 yuan (unit of money) (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
住: zhù — 1. to live; to reside; to stay 2. to stop; to cease 3. (result complement indicating firmness or a stable achieved state) (HSK 1)
不舒服: bù shū fu — 1. unwell 2. feeling ill 3. to feel uncomfortable 4. uneasy
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，，；With her uncle she had already broken off long before, to the point of angering him so much that he no longer acknowledged her as his niece;，，。and I, too, gradually broke with several friends who believed themselves to be giving me honest counsel, but who were in fact only timid on my behalf, or perhaps even jealous.。And yet this made things rather peaceful.，，，。Every day after office hours, though it was already close to dusk, and the ricksha puller was sure to go so slowly, still, in the end, there came the time when the two of us sat facing each other.，，。We would first gaze at each other in silence, then talk freely and intimately, and afterward fall silent again.，。Each of us bowed our heads in deep thought, yet was not really thinking of anything at all.，，，，，。I too came, with growing clarity, to read through her body and her soul entirely; in no more than three weeks, I seemed to understand her even better, stripping away much that I had before taken for understanding but which now appeared to be a barrier — what might be called true estrangement.

和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
叔子: shū zi — 1. brother-in-law 2. husband's younger brother
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
早: zǎo — 1. early 2. morning 3. Good morning! 4. long ago 5. prematurely (HSK 1)
經: Jīng — surname Jing (HSK 7-9)
鬧: nào — 1. noisy 2. cacophonous 3. to make noise 4. to disturb 5. to vent (feelings) 6. to fall ill 7. to have an attack (of sickness) 8. to go in (for some activity) 9. to joke (HSK 4)
開: kāi — 1. to open (transitive or intransitive) 2. (of ships, vehicles, troops etc) to start 3. to turn on; to put in operation; to operate; to run 4. to boil 5. to write out (a prescription, check, invoice etc) 6. (directional complement) away; off 7. carat (gold) 8. abbr. for Kelvin, 開爾文 (Kāi ěr wén) 9. abbr. for 開本 (kāi běn), book format (HSK 1)
至於: zhì yú — 1. as for 2. as to 3. to go so far as to (HSK 6)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
氣憤: qì fèn — 1. indignant 2. furious (HSK 7-9)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
不再: bù zài — no more; no longer (HSK 6)
認: rèn — 1. to recognize 2. to know 3. to admit (HSK 5)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
侄女: zhí nǚ — brother's daughter; niece
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
陸續: lù xù — 1. in turn 2. successively 3. one after the other 4. bit by bit (HSK 4)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
幾個: jǐ ge — 1. a few 2. several 3. how many
自: zì — 1. (bound form) self; oneself 2. from; since 3. naturally; as a matter of course (HSK 4)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
忠告: zhōng gào — 1. to give sb a word of advice 2. advice; counsel; a wise word
其實: qí shí — actually; in fact; really (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
替: tì — 1. to substitute for 2. to take the place of 3. to replace 4. for 5. on behalf of 6. to stand in for (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
膽怯: dǎn qiè — 1. timidity 2. timid 3. cowardly (HSK 7-9)
或者: huò zhě — 1. or 2. possibly; maybe; perhaps (HSK 2)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
嫉妒: jí dù — to be jealous of; to envy (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
朋友: péng you — 1. friend 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi) (HSK 1)
絕了: jué le — 1. (slang) awesome 2. dope
交: jiāo — 1. to hand over; to deliver; to pay (money); to turn over 2. to make friends 3. (of lines) to intersect 4. variant of 跤 (jiāo) (HSK 2)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
倒: dǎo — 1. to fall; to collapse; to lie horizontally 2. to fail; to go bankrupt 3. to overthrow 4. to change (trains or buses) 5. to move around 6. to resell at a profit (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
清靜: qīng jìng — 1. quiet 2. peaceful and quiet (HSK 7-9)
每日: měi rì — 1. daily 2. (soup etc) of the day
辦公: bàn gōng — to handle official business (usu. in an office); to do (office) work (HSK 6)
散: sǎn — 1. scattered 2. loose 3. to come loose 4. to fall apart 5. leisurely 6. powdered medicine (HSK 4)
後: hòu — 1. back 2. behind 3. rear 4. afterwards 5. after 6. later 7. post- (HSK 1)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
已: yǐ — 1. already 2. to stop 3. then 4. afterwards (HSK 3)
近: jìn — 1. near 2. close to 3. approximately (HSK 2)
黃昏: huáng hūn — 1. dusk 2. evening 3. nightfall (HSK 7-9)
車夫: chē fū — 1. cart driver 2. coachman
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
一定: yī dìng — 1. surely; certainly; definitely 2. fixed; settled 3. a certain ...; a given ... (HSK 2)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
慢: màn — slow (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
究竟: jiū jìng — 1. to go to the bottom of a matter 2. after all 3. when all is said and done 4. (in an interrogative sentence) finally 5. outcome 6. result (HSK 4)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
二: èr — 1. two 2. 2 3. (Beijing dialect) stupid (HSK 1)
人相: rén xiàng — physiognomy
對: duì — 1. right; correct 2. towards; at; for 3. concerning; regarding 4. to treat (sb a certain way) 5. to face 6. (bound form) opposite; facing; matching 7. to match together; to adjust 8. to fit; to suit 9. to answer; to reply 10. to add; to pour in (a fluid) 11. to check; to compare 12. classifier: couple; pair (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
先: xiān — 1. beforehand; first; earlier 2. at first; originally 3. for the time being; for now 4. (prefix) my late (in referring to deceased relatives older than oneself) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
沉默: chén mò — 1. taciturn 2. uncommunicative 3. silent (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
相視: xiāng shì — to look at each other
接著: jiē zhe — 1. to catch and hold on 2. to continue 3. to go on to do sth 4. to follow 5. to carry on 6. then 7. after that 8. subsequently 9. to proceed 10. to ensue 11. in turn 12. in one's turn (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
放: fàng — 1. to put 2. to place 3. to release 4. to free 5. to let go 6. to let out 7. to set off (fireworks) (HSK 1)
懷: Huái — surname Huai
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
親密: qīn mì — 1. intimate 2. close (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
交談: jiāo tán — 1. to discuss; to converse 2. chat; discussion (HSK 7-9)
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
沉默: chén mò — 1. taciturn 2. uncommunicative 3. silent (HSK 4)
大家: dà jiā — 1. everyone 2. influential family 3. great expert (HSK 2)
低頭: dī tóu — 1. to bow the head 2. to yield 3. to give in (HSK 6)
沉思: chén sī — 1. to contemplate 2. to ponder 3. contemplation 4. meditation (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
並未: bìng wèi — (used to stress that sth did not turn out as one might have expected) did not actually ...; has not actually ...
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
什麼事: shén me shì — 1. What's up?; Is something the matter? 2. (coll.) (used in rhetorical questions of the form 關 (guān) + {person} + 什麼事 (shén me shì) "what business is it of {person}'s?; what's it to {person}?")
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
漸漸: jiàn jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
清醒: qīng xǐng — 1. clear-headed 2. sober 3. awake (HSK 4)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
讀: dòu — 1. comma 2. phrase marked by pause (HSK 1)
遍: biàn — 1. everywhere 2. all over 3. classifier for actions: one time (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
身體: shēn tǐ — 1. the body 2. one's health (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
靈魂: líng hún — 1. soul 2. spirit (HSK 7-9)
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
三星: Sān xīng — Samsung (South Korean electronics company)
期: qī — 1. a period of time 2. phase 3. stage 4. classifier for issues of a periodical, courses of study 5. time 6. term 7. period 8. to hope 9. Taiwan pr. (qí) (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
更加: gèng jiā — 1. more (than sth else) 2. even more (HSK 3)
瞭解: liǎo jiě — 1. to understand 2. to realize 3. to find out (HSK 4)
揭: Jiē — surname Jie (HSK 6)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
許多: xǔ duō — 1. many 2. a lot of 3. much (HSK 2)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
瞭解: liǎo jiě — 1. to understand 2. to realize 3. to find out (HSK 4)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
看來: kàn lai — 1. apparently 2. it seems that (HSK 4)
卻是: què shì — 1. nevertheless 2. actually 3. the fact is ... (HSK 6)
隔膜: gé mó — 1. diaphragm (anatomy) 2. distant (socially aloof) 3. divided by lack of mutual comprehension 4. nonexpert
即: jí — 1. namely 2. that is 3. i.e. 4. prompt 5. at once 6. at present 7. even if 8. prompted (by the occasion) 9. to approach 10. to come into contact 11. to assume (office) 12. to draw near (HSK 7-9)
所謂: suǒ wèi — 1. what is meant by the expression ...; what is referred to as ... 2. (derog.) so-called (HSK 7-9)
真的: zhēn de — 1. really; truly; indeed 2. real; true; genuine 3. (math.) proper (HSK 1)
隔膜: gé mó — 1. diaphragm (anatomy) 2. distant (socially aloof) 3. divided by lack of mutual comprehension 4. nonexpert
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

。Zijun, too, grew livelier day by day.，，，，。But she was not fond of flowers; the two potted plants I had bought at the temple fair went four days without water and withered away dead in the corner, and I, for my part, had no leisure to look after everything.，，，，，。She was fond of animals, though, perhaps caught from the official's wife next door; within less than a month our household had suddenly grown by a good many members — four little chicks, which walked about in the small courtyard together with the landlord's dozen or so.，。But the two of them could tell the chickens apart by their looks, and each always knew which ones were her own.，，，，。There was also a black-and-white pug bought at the temple fair; I seem to recall it already had a name, but Zijun gave it another, calling it Ah Sui.，。So I too called it Ah Sui, though I did not care for the name.

子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
逐日: zhú rì — 1. day-by-day 2. daily 3. on a daily basis
活潑: huó po — 1. lively 2. vivacious 3. brisk 4. active 5. (chemistry) reactive (HSK 5)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
花: Huā — surname Hua (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
廟會: miào huì — temple fair (HSK 7-9)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
買: mǎi — 1. to buy 2. to purchase (HSK 1)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
盆: pén — 1. basin 2. flower pot 3. unit of volume equal to 12 斗 (dǒu) and 8 升 (shēng), approx 128 liters 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 5)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
草: cǎo — 1. grass 2. straw 3. manuscript 4. draft (of a document) 5. careless 6. rough 7. classifier: 棵 (kē), 撮 (zuǒ), 株 (zhū), 根 (gēn) (HSK 2)
花: Huā — surname Hua (HSK 1)
四: sì — 1. four 2. 4 (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
澆: jiāo — 1. to pour liquid 2. to irrigate (using waterwheel) 3. to water 4. to cast (molten metal) 5. to mold (HSK 7-9)
枯死: kū sǐ — (of a plant) to wither and die; withered and dead
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
壁: bì — 1. wall 2. rampart
角: Jué — surname Jue (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
照顧: zhào gu — 1. to take care of 2. to show consideration 3. to attend to 4. to look after (HSK 2)
一切: yī qiè — 1. everything 2. every 3. all (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
閑暇: xián xiá — 1. leisure 2. free time 3. unoccupied 4. not in use
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
動物: dòng wù — animal (HSK 2)
也許: yě xǔ — perhaps; maybe (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
官: Guān — surname Guan (HSK 4)
太太: tài tai — 1. married woman 2. Mrs. 3. Madam 4. wife 5. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi) (HSK 2)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
傳染: chuán rǎn — 1. to infect 2. contagious (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
不一: bù yī — 1. to vary 2. to differ
月: yuè — 1. moon 2. month 3. monthly 4. classifier: 個 (gè), 輪 (lún) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眷屬: juàn shǔ — 1. family member 2. husband and wife
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
驟然: zhòu rán — 1. suddenly 2. abruptly (HSK 7-9)
加: Jiā — 1. Canada (abbr. for 加拿大 (Jiā ná dà)) 2. surname Jia (HSK 2)
得很: de hěn — (after an adjective) very
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
四: sì — 1. four 2. 4 (HSK 1)
隻: zhī — classifier for birds and certain animals, one of a pair, some utensils, vessels etc (HSK 2)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
院子: yuàn zi — 1. courtyard 2. garden 3. yard 4. patio 5. classifier: 個 (gè) 6. (old) servant (HSK 2)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
房主: fáng zhǔ — 1. landlord 2. house owner
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
十: shí — 1. ten 2. 10 (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
她們: tā men — they; them (females) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
認識: rèn shi — 1. to know 2. to recognize 3. to be familiar with 4. to get acquainted with sb 5. knowledge 6. understanding 7. awareness 8. cognition (HSK 1)
雞: jī — 1. fowl 2. chicken 3. classifier: 隻 (zhī) 4. (slang) prostitute (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
相貌: xiàng mào — appearance
各: gè — 1. each 2. every (HSK 3)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
隻: zhī — classifier for birds and certain animals, one of a pair, some utensils, vessels etc (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
自家: zì jiā — 1. oneself 2. one's own family
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
隻: zhī — classifier for birds and certain animals, one of a pair, some utensils, vessels etc (HSK 2)
花白: huā bái — grizzled (hair)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
叭: bā — denote a sound or sharp noise (gunfire etc)
兒: ér — 1. child 2. son
狗: gǒu — 1. dog 2. classifier: 隻 (zhī), 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
廟會: miào huì — temple fair (HSK 7-9)
買: mǎi — 1. to buy 2. to purchase (HSK 1)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
記得: jì de — to remember (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
原有: yuán yǒu — 1. original 2. former (HSK 5)
名字: míng zi — name (of a person or thing) (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
它: tā — it (HSK 2)
另: lìng — 1. other 2. another 3. separate 4. separately (HSK 6)
起: qǐ — 1. to rise 2. to raise 3. to get up 4. to set out 5. to start 6. to appear 7. to launch 8. to initiate (action) 9. to draft 10. to establish 11. to get (from a depot or counter) 12. verb suffix, to start 13. starting from (a time, place, price etc) 14. classifier for occurrences or unpredictable events: case, instance 15. classifier for groups: batch, group (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
叫作: jiào zuò — 1. to call 2. to be called (HSK 2)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
叫: jiào — 1. to shout 2. to call 3. to order 4. to ask 5. to be called 6. by (indicates agent in the passive mood) (HSK 1)
它: tā — it (HSK 2)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
喜歡: xǐ huan — to like; to be fond of (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
名字: míng zi — name (of a person or thing) (HSK 1)

，，，。This much is true: love must constantly renew itself, grow, and create anew.，。I spoke of this to Zijun, and she nodded in understanding.

，！Ah, ah — what tranquil and happy nights those were!

，。Peace and happiness were meant to be held fast, to remain forever just such peace and happiness.，，，；When we were still at the guild hall, there had still been the occasional clash of opinions or misunderstanding of intent; but since coming to Jizhao Hutong, even that much had vanished;，。we could only, sitting facing each other under the lamp in reminiscent talk, savor again the joy — like a kind of rebirth — of reconciliation after those old conflicts.

安寧: Ān níng — 1. see 安寧區 (Ān níng Qū) 2. see 安寧市 (Ān níng Shì) (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
幸福: xìng fú — 1. happiness 2. happy 3. blessed (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
凝固: níng gù — 1. to freeze 2. to solidify 3. to congeal 4. fig. with rapt attention (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
永久: yǒng jiǔ — 1. everlasting 2. perpetual 3. lasting 4. forever 5. permanent (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
安寧: Ān níng — 1. see 安寧區 (Ān níng Qū) 2. see 安寧市 (Ān níng Shì) (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
幸福: xìng fú — 1. happiness 2. happy 3. blessed (HSK 3)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
偶: ǒu — 1. accidental 2. image 3. pair 4. mate
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
議論: yì lùn — 1. to comment 2. to talk about 3. to discuss 4. discussion 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
衝突: chōng tū — 1. conflict 2. to conflict 3. clash of opposing forces 4. collision (of interests) 5. contention (HSK 5)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
意思: yì si — 1. idea 2. opinion 3. meaning 4. wish 5. desire 6. interest 7. fun 8. token of appreciation, affection etc 9. classifier: 個 (gè) 10. to give as a small token 11. to do sth as a gesture of goodwill etc (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
誤會: wù huì — 1. to misunderstand 2. to mistake 3. misunderstanding 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 4)
自從: zì cóng — 1. since (a time) 2. ever since (HSK 3)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
吉兆: jí zhào — lucky omen
衚衕: hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
以來: yǐ lái — since (used after a specified time or event) (HSK 3)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
燈: dēng — 1. lamp 2. light 3. lantern 4. classifier: 盞 (zhǎn) (HSK 2)
下: xià — 1. down 2. downwards 3. below 4. lower 5. later 6. next (week etc) 7. second (of two parts) 8. to decline 9. to go down 10. to arrive at (a decision, conclusion etc) 11. measure word to show the frequency of an action (HSK 1)
對坐: duì zuò — to sit facing each other
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
懷舊: huái jiù — 1. to feel nostalgic 2. nostalgia (HSK 7-9)
譚: Tán — surname Tan
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
回味: huí wèi — 1. to call to mind and ponder over 2. aftertaste (HSK 7-9)
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
衝突: chōng tū — 1. conflict 2. to conflict 3. clash of opposing forces 4. collision (of interests) 5. contention (HSK 5)
以後: yǐ hòu — 1. after 2. later 3. afterwards 4. following 5. later on 6. in the future (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
和解: hé jiě — 1. to settle (a dispute out of court) 2. to reconcile 3. settlement 4. conciliation 5. to become reconciled (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
重生: chóng shēng — 1. to be reborn 2. rebirth
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
樂趣: lè qù — delight; pleasure; joy (HSK 4)

，；Zijun had actually grown plump, and her complexion had turned rosy and full of life;。the pity of it was that she was so busy.，。Once she had taken charge of the household, she had no time even for chatting, let alone for reading or taking walks.，。We often said that we really ought to hire a maidservant.

子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
胖: pán — 1. healthy 2. at ease (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
臉色: liǎn sè — 1. complexion 2. look (HSK 5)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
紅: Hóng — surname Hong (HSK 2)
活: huó — 1. to live 2. alive 3. living 4. work 5. workmanship (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
可惜: kě xī — 1. it is a pity 2. what a pity 3. unfortunately (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
忙: máng — 1. busy 2. hurriedly 3. to hurry 4. to rush (HSK 1)
管: Guǎn — surname Guan (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
家務: jiā wù — 1. household duties 2. housework (HSK 4)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
談天: tán tiān — to chat
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
工夫: gōng fū — (old) laborer (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
何況: hé kuàng — 1. let alone 2. to say nothing of 3. besides 4. what's more (HSK 7-9)
讀書: dú shū — 1. to read a book 2. to study 3. to attend school (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
散步: sàn bù — to take a walk; to go for a walk (HSK 3)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
常: Cháng — surname Chang (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
總: zǒng — 1. (bound form) general; overall 2. to sum up 3. in every case; always; invariably 4. anyway; after all; eventually; sooner or later 5. surely 6. (after a person's name) abbr. for 總經理 (zǒng jīng lǐ) or 總編 (zǒng biān) etc (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
雇: gù — 1. to employ 2. to hire 3. to rent (HSK 7-9)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
女工: nǚ gōng — 1. working woman 2. variant of 女紅 (nǚ gōng)

，，，。This made me just as unhappy; coming home in the evening, I would often see her concealing an unhappy look, and what displeased me most was that she would force herself to put on a smile.，，。Fortunately I found out what it was — it was, after all, a covert struggle with that petty official's wife, and the fuse was the two households' little chicks.？But why on earth had she insisted on not telling me?。A person ought, after all, to have an independent household.，。A place like this was simply not fit to live in.

這就: zhè jiù — 1. immediately 2. at once
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
一樣: yī yàng — 1. same 2. like 3. equal to 4. the same as 5. just like (HSK 1)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
不快: bù kuài — 1. unhappy 2. in low spirits 3. (of a knife) not sharp
活: huó — 1. to live 2. alive 3. living 4. work 5. workmanship (HSK 3)
傍晚: bàng wǎn — 1. in the evening 2. when night falls 3. towards evening 4. at night fall 5. at dusk (HSK 6)
回來: huí lai — to return; to come back (HSK 1)
常見: cháng jiàn — 1. commonly seen 2. common 3. to see sth frequently (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
包藏: bāo cáng — 1. to contain 2. to harbor 3. to conceal
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
不快: bù kuài — 1. unhappy 2. in low spirits 3. (of a knife) not sharp
活: huó — 1. to live 2. alive 3. living 4. work 5. workmanship (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
顏色: yán sè — 1. color 2. countenance 3. appearance 4. facial expression 5. pigment 6. dyestuff (HSK 2)
尤其: yóu qí — especially; particularly (HSK 5)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
樂: Lè — surname Le (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
裝作: zhuāng zuò — 1. to pretend 2. to feign 3. to act a part
勉強: miǎn qiǎng — 1. to do with difficulty 2. to force sb to do sth 3. reluctant 4. barely enough (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
笑容: xiào róng — 1. smile 2. smiling expression 3. classifier: 副 (fù) (HSK 6)
幸而: xìng ér — 1. by good fortune 2. luckily
探聽: tàn tīng — 1. to make inquiries 2. to try to find out 3. to pry
出來: chū lái — 1. to come out 2. to appear 3. to arise (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
小官: xiǎo guān — 1. petty official 2. minor functionary
太太: tài tai — 1. married woman 2. Mrs. 3. Madam 4. wife 5. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
暗: àn — 1. dark 2. to turn dark 3. secret; hidden 4. (literary) confused; ignorant (HSK 4)
鬥: dòu — 1. to fight 2. to struggle 3. to condemn 4. to censure 5. to contend 6. to put together 7. coming together (HSK 7-9)
導火線: dǎo huǒ xiàn — 1. fuse (for explosives) 2. (fig.) proximate cause 3. the last straw
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
家的: jiā de — (old) wife
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
何必: hé bì — 1. there is no need 2. why should (HSK 7-9)
硬: yìng — 1. hard; stiff; solid 2. (fig.) strong; firm 3. resolutely; uncompromisingly 4. laboriously; with great difficulty 5. good (quality); able (person) 6. (of food) filling; substantial (HSK 5)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
告訴: gào sù — to press charges; to file a complaint (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
總: zǒng — 1. (bound form) general; overall 2. to sum up 3. in every case; always; invariably 4. anyway; after all; eventually; sooner or later 5. surely 6. (after a person's name) abbr. for 總經理 (zǒng jīng lǐ) or 總編 (zǒng biān) etc (HSK 3)
該: gāi — 1. should 2. ought to 3. probably 4. must be 5. to deserve 6. to owe 7. to be sb's turn to do sth 8. that 9. the above-mentioned (HSK 2)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
獨立: dú lì — 1. independent 2. independence 3. to stand alone (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
家庭: jiā tíng — 1. family; household 2. classifier: 戶 (hù) (HSK 2)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
處所: chù suǒ — place
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
居住: jū zhù — 1. to reside 2. to dwell 3. to live in a place 4. resident in (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，，，。My own course, too, was cast in a fixed mold: six days out of every week, from home to the bureau, and from the bureau back home again.，，；At the bureau I would sit at my desk copying, copying, copying out official documents and letters;，，。at home I would sit facing her, or help her light the stove, cook rice, steam buns.，。It was at this time that I learned to cook.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
鑄: zhù — to cast or found metals
定: dìng — 1. to fix; to set; to make definite 2. to subscribe to (a newspaper etc); to book (tickets etc); to order (goods etc) 3. to congeal; to coagulate 4. (literary) definitely (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
每: měi — 1. each 2. every (HSK 3)
星期: xīng qī — 1. week 2. classifier: 個 (gè) 3. day of the week 4. Sunday (HSK 1)
中的: zhòng dì — 1. to hit the target 2. (fig.) to hit the nail on the head
六: liù — 1. six 2. 6 (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
由: yóu — 1. to follow 2. from 3. because of; due to 4. by; via; through 5. (before a noun and a verb) it is for ... to ... (HSK 3)
家: jiā — 1. home 2. family 3. (polite) my (sister, uncle etc) 4. classifier for families or businesses 5. refers to the philosophical schools of pre-Han China 6. noun suffix for a specialist in some activity, such as a musician or revolutionary, corresponding to English -ist, -er, -ary or -ian 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
局: jú — 1. office 2. situation 3. classifier for games: match, set, round etc (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
由: yóu — 1. to follow 2. from 3. because of; due to 4. by; via; through 5. (before a noun and a verb) it is for ... to ... (HSK 3)
局: jú — 1. office 2. situation 3. classifier for games: match, set, round etc (HSK 4)
到家: dào jiā — 1. perfect 2. excellent 3. brought to the utmost degree
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
局: jú — 1. office 2. situation 3. classifier for games: match, set, round etc (HSK 4)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
辦公: bàn gōng — to handle official business (usu. in an office); to do (office) work (HSK 6)
桌: zhuō — 1. table 2. desk 3. classifier for tables of guests at a banquet etc
前: qián — 1. front 2. forward 3. ahead 4. first 5. top (followed by a number) 6. future 7. ago 8. before 9. BC (e.g. 前293年) 10. former 11. formerly (HSK 1)
鈔: chāo — 1. money 2. paper money 3. variant of 抄 (chāo)
鈔: chāo — 1. money 2. paper money 3. variant of 抄 (chāo)
鈔: chāo — 1. money 2. paper money 3. variant of 抄 (chāo)
些: xiē — classifier indicating a small amount or small number greater than 1: some, a few, several (HSK 4)
公文: gōng wén — official document
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
信件: xìn jiàn — letter (sent by mail) (HSK 7-9)
在家: zài jiā — 1. to be at home 2. (at a workplace) to be in (as opposed to being away on official business 出差 (chū chāi)) 3. (Buddhism etc) to remain a layman (as opposed to becoming a monk or a nun 出家 (chū jiā)) (HSK 1)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
相對: xiāng duì — 1. relatively 2. opposite 3. to resist 4. to oppose 5. relative 6. vis-a-vis 7. counterpart (HSK 7-9)
或: huò — 1. maybe 2. perhaps 3. might 4. possibly 5. or (HSK 2)
幫: bāng — 1. to help 2. to assist 3. to support 4. for sb (i.e. as a help) 5. hired (as worker) 6. side (of pail, boat etc) 7. outer layer 8. upper (of a shoe) 9. group 10. gang 11. clique 12. party 13. secret society (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
生: shēng — 1. to grow; to give birth; to produce; to be born 2. to arise; to occur 3. to light (a fire) 4. to live; to be alive 5. life 6. raw; uncooked; unprocessed 7. unfamiliar; strange 8. (bound form) student; person engaged in a field 9. (bound form) male role in traditional opera 10. (bound form) life; lifetime 11. (bound form) means of livelihood 12. (bound form) very; intensely (as in 生疼 (shēng téng)) 13. (bound form) in a forced manner (as in 生拉硬拽 (shēng lā yìng zhuài)) (HSK 2)
白: Bái — 1. surname Bai 2. Bai ethnic group (HSK 1)
爐子: lú zi — 1. stove 2. oven 3. furnace (HSK 7-9)
煮飯: zhǔ fàn — to cook
蒸: zhēng — 1. to evaporate 2. (of cooking) to steam 3. torch made from hemp stalks or bamboo (old) 4. finely chopped firewood (old) (HSK 7-9)
饅頭: mán tou — steamed bun (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
學會: xué huì — 1. to learn; to master 2. institute; learned society; (scholarly) association (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
煮飯: zhǔ fàn — to cook
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這時: zhè shí — 1. at this time 2. at this moment (HSK 2)
候: hòu — 1. to wait 2. to inquire after 3. to watch 4. season 5. climate 6. (old) period of five days

。Yet my meals were far better now than they had been at the guild hall.，；Cooking was not exactly Zijun's forte, and yet she poured all her energy into it;，，。and her ceaseless worrying, day and night, over it left me no choice but to worry along with her, so as to share, as it were, the sweet and the bitter alike.，；What is more, she would be like this the whole day long, her face streaming with sweat, her short hair sticking to her forehead;。and her two hands, too, simply grew rougher and rougher this way.

但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
食品: shí pǐn — foodstuff; food; provisions (HSK 3)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
比: Bǐ — 1. Belgium 2. Belgian 3. abbr. for 比利時 (Bǐ lì shí) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
好: hǎo — 1. good 2. appropriate; proper 3. all right! 4. (before a verb) easy to 5. (before a verb) good to 6. (before an adjective for exclamatory effect) so 7. (verb complement indicating completion) 8. (of two people) close; on intimate terms 9. (after a personal pronoun) hello (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
做菜: zuò cài — 1. to cook 2. cooking
雖: suī — 1. although 2. even though (HSK 6)
不是: bù shì — 1. no 2. is not 3. not
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
特長: tè cháng — 1. personal strength 2. one's special ability or strong points (HSK 7-9)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
此: cǐ — this; these (HSK 4)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
傾: qīng — 1. to overturn 2. to collapse 3. to lean 4. to tend 5. to incline 6. to pour out
註: zhù — 1. to annotate; to provide explanatory notes on a written text 2. an annotation; an explanatory note 3. (bound form) to put on record; to register (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
全力: quán lì — 1. with all one's strength 2. full strength 3. all-out (effort) 4. fully (support) (HSK 6)
對於: duì yú — regarding; as far as (sth) is concerned; with regard to (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
日夜: rì yè — 1. day and night 2. around the clock (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
操心: cāo xīn — to worry about (HSK 7-9)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不能不: bù néng bù — 1. have to 2. cannot but (HSK 5)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
操心: cāo xīn — to worry about (HSK 7-9)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
算: suàn — 1. to calculate; to figure out 2. to include; to count in 3. to count; to be valid; to carry weight 4. to regard as; to consider (to be ...) (HSK 2)
作: zuō — 1. (bound form) worker 2. (bound form) workshop 3. (slang) troublesome; high-maintenance (person) (HSK 6)
分: fēn — 1. to divide; to separate 2. to distribute; to allocate 3. to distinguish (good and bad) 4. (bound form) branch of (an organization); sub- (as in 分局 (fēn jú)) 5. fraction 6. one tenth (of certain units) 7. unit of length equivalent to 0.33 cm 8. minute (unit of time) 9. minute (angular measurement unit) 10. a point (in sports or games) 11. 0.01 yuan (unit of money) (HSK 1)
甘: Gān — 1. surname Gan 2. short name for Gansu 甘肅 (Gān sù)
共: gòng — 1. common 2. general 3. to share 4. together 5. total 6. altogether 7. abbr. for 共產黨 (Gòng chǎn dǎng), Communist party (HSK 4)
苦: kǔ — 1. bitter 2. hardship 3. pain 4. to suffer 5. to bring suffering to 6. painstakingly (HSK 4)
況且: kuàng qiě — 1. moreover 2. besides 3. in addition 4. furthermore (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
終日: zhōng rì — all day long
汗: hán — see 可汗 (kè hán), 汗國 (hán guó) (HSK 5)
流: liú — 1. to flow 2. to disseminate 3. to circulate or spread 4. to move or drift 5. to degenerate 6. to banish or send into exile 7. stream of water or sth resembling one 8. class, rate or grade (HSK 2)
滿面: mǎn miàn — 1. across one's whole face 2. (smiling) from ear to ear
短髮: duǎn fà — short hair
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
粘: nián — variant of 黏 (nián) (HSK 7-9)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
腦: nǎo — 1. brain 2. mind 3. head 4. essence
額: é — 1. forehead 2. horizontal tablet or inscribed board 3. specified number or amount
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
隻: zhī — classifier for birds and certain animals, one of a pair, some utensils, vessels etc (HSK 2)
手: shǒu — 1. hand 2. (formal) to hold 3. person engaged in certain types of work 4. person skilled in certain types of work 5. personal(ly) 6. convenient 7. classifier for skill 8. classifier: 雙 (shuāng), 隻 (zhī) (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
粗糙: cū cāo — 1. crude 2. gruff 3. rough 4. coarse (HSK 7-9)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)

，，……And besides, there was Ah Sui to feed, and the chicks to feed, ……。all of it work that had to be hers and no one else's.：，；I once counseled her earnestly: if I went without eating, that would be no great matter;。but on no account should she wear herself out like this.，，；She only looked at me once, without a word, though her expression seemed touched with a kind of sadness;。and so I too had no choice but to say nothing more.。Yet she went on wearing herself out just the same.

況且: kuàng qiě — 1. moreover 2. besides 3. in addition 4. furthermore (HSK 7-9)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
飼: sì — 1. to raise 2. to rear 3. to feed
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
飼: sì — 1. to raise 2. to rear 3. to feed
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
是非: shì fēi — 1. right and wrong 2. quarrel (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
不可: bù kě — cannot; should not; must not
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
工作: gōng zuò — 1. to work 2. (of a machine) to operate 3. job 4. work 5. task 6. classifier: 個 (gè), 份 (fèn), 項 (xiàng) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
曾經: céng jīng — 1. once 2. already 3. former 4. previously 5. ever 6. (past tense marker used before verb or clause) (HSK 3)
忠告: zhōng gào — 1. to give sb a word of advice 2. advice; counsel; a wise word
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
吃: chī — 1. to eat; to consume 2. to eat at (a cafeteria etc) 3. to eradicate; to destroy 4. to absorb 5. to suffer (shock, injury, defeat etc) (HSK 1)
倒: dǎo — 1. to fall; to collapse; to lie horizontally 2. to fail; to go bankrupt 3. to overthrow 4. to change (trains or buses) 5. to move around 6. to resell at a profit (HSK 2)
也罷: yě bà — 1. (reduplicated) whether... or... 2. never mind 3. fine (indicating acceptance or resignation)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
萬: Wàn — surname Wan (HSK 2)
不可: bù kě — cannot; should not; must not
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
操勞: cāo láo — 1. to work hard 2. to look after (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一眼: yī yǎn — 1. a glance 2. a quick look 3. a glimpse (HSK 7-9)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
開口: kāi kǒu — 1. to open one's mouth 2. to start to talk (HSK 7-9)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
有點: yǒu diǎn — a little
凄然: qī rán — distressed
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
只好: zhǐ hǎo — to have no other option but to ...; to have to; to be forced to (HSK 3)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
開口: kāi kǒu — 1. to open one's mouth 2. to start to talk (HSK 7-9)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
操勞: cāo láo — 1. to work hard 2. to look after (HSK 7-9)

。The blow I had anticipated did indeed come.，，。On the eve of the Double Tenth Festival, I sat blankly, while she washed the dishes.，，，。Hearing a knock at the door, I went to open it — it was a messenger from the bureau, who handed me a mimeographed slip of paper.，，，：I had half expected it already; taking it under the lamp to look, sure enough, what was printed there read: "By order of the Bureau Chief, Shi Juansheng is no longer required to report for duty at the bureau. — Secretarial Office, October 9th."

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
豫: Yù — short name for Henan 河南 (Hé nán)
期: qī — 1. a period of time 2. phase 3. stage 4. classifier for issues of a periodical, courses of study 5. time 6. term 7. period 8. to hope 9. Taiwan pr. (qí) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
打擊: dǎ jī — 1. to hit 2. to strike 3. to attack 4. to crack down on sth 5. blow 6. (psychological) shock 7. percussion (music) (HSK 5)
果然: guǒ rán — 1. really 2. sure enough 3. as expected 4. if indeed (HSK 3)
到來: dào lái — 1. to arrive 2. arrival; advent (HSK 5)
雙十節: Shuāng shí jié — 1. Double Tenth, the anniversary of the Wuchang Uprising 武昌起義 (Wǔ chāng Qǐ yì) of October 10th, 1911 2. (Tw) National Day
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
前: qián — 1. front 2. forward 3. ahead 4. first 5. top (followed by a number) 6. future 7. ago 8. before 9. BC (e.g. 前293年) 10. former 11. formerly (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
晚: wǎn — 1. evening 2. night 3. late (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
呆: dāi — 1. foolish; stupid 2. expressionless; blank 3. variant of 待 (dāi) (HSK 5)
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
洗碗: xǐ wǎn — to wash the dishes
聽到: tīng dào — to hear (HSK 1)
打門: dǎ mén — 1. to knock on the door 2. to take a shot on goal (sports)
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
我去: wǒ qù — (slang) what the ...!; oh my god!; that's insane!
開門: kāi mén — 1. (lit. and fig.) to open a door 2. to open for business
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
局: jú — 1. office 2. situation 3. classifier for games: match, set, round etc (HSK 4)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
信差: xìn chāi — messenger
交給: jiāo gěi — to give; to deliver; to hand over (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
油印: yóu yìn — to mimeograph
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
紙條: zhǐ tiáo — slip of paper
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
有些: yǒu xiē — 1. some 2. somewhat; rather; a bit
料到: liào dào — 1. to foresee 2. to anticipate (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
燈: dēng — 1. lamp 2. light 3. lantern 4. classifier: 盞 (zhǎn) (HSK 2)
下去: xià qù — 1. to go down 2. to descend 3. to go on 4. to continue 5. (of a servant) to withdraw (HSK 3)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
果然: guǒ rán — 1. really 2. sure enough 3. as expected 4. if indeed (HSK 3)
印: Yìn — 1. surname Yin 2. abbr. for 印度 (Yìn dù), India (HSK 6)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
就是: jiù shì — 1. exactly; precisely 2. only; simply; just 3. (used correlatively with 也 (yě)) even; even if (HSK 3)
奉: fèng — 1. to offer (tribute) 2. to present respectfully (to superior, ancestor, deity etc) 3. to esteem 4. to revere 5. to believe in (a religion) 6. to wait upon 7. to accept orders (from superior)
局長: jú zhǎng — 1. bureau chief 2. classifier: 位 (wèi), 個 (gè) (HSK 5)
諭: yù — order (from above)
史: Shǐ — surname Shi
涓: Juān — surname Juan
生: shēng — 1. to grow; to give birth; to produce; to be born 2. to arise; to occur 3. to light (a fire) 4. to live; to be alive 5. life 6. raw; uncooked; unprocessed 7. unfamiliar; strange 8. (bound form) student; person engaged in a field 9. (bound form) male role in traditional opera 10. (bound form) life; lifetime 11. (bound form) means of livelihood 12. (bound form) very; intensely (as in 生疼 (shēng téng)) 13. (bound form) in a forced manner (as in 生拉硬拽 (shēng lā yìng zhuài)) (HSK 2)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
毋庸: wú yōng — no need for
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
局: jú — 1. office 2. situation 3. classifier for games: match, set, round etc (HSK 4)
辦事: bàn shì — 1. to handle (affairs) 2. to work (HSK 4)
秘書: mì shū — secretary (HSK 4)
處: chǔ — 1. to reside 2. to live 3. to dwell 4. to be in 5. to be situated at 6. to stay 7. to get along with 8. to be in a position of 9. to deal with 10. to discipline 11. to punish (HSK 4)
啟: Qǐ — Qi son of Yu the Great 禹 (Yǔ), reported founder of the Xia Dynasty 夏朝 (Xià Cháo) (c. 2070-c. 1600 BC)
十月: Shí yuè — 1. October 2. tenth month (of the lunar year)
九: jiǔ — 1. nine 2. 9 (HSK 1)
號: háo — (bound form) to wail; to howl (HSK 1)

，；Back when we were still living at the hostel, I had already foreseen this;，，。that "Vanishing Cream" fellow was a gambling companion of the Bureau Chief's son, and was bound to go add some rumors and find a way to report on us.，。That it only took effect now must already be counted quite late.，，，，，，《》，。In fact this could hardly count as a blow to me, for I had long since decided that I could copy documents for others, or tutor, or, though it would take effort, still translate a bit; besides, the chief editor of Freedom's Friend was an acquaintance I had met several times, and we had even exchanged letters two months before.。Yet my heart was pounding all the same.，；That even Zijun, so fearless, changed color at the news pained me all the more;。of late she seemed to have grown somewhat more timid.

這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
早已: zǎo yǐ — 1. for a long time; long since 2. (dialect) in the past (HSK 3)
料到: liào dào — 1. to foresee 2. to anticipate (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
雪花膏: xuě huā gāo — 1. vanishing cream 2. cold cream (makeup)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
局長: jú zhǎng — 1. bureau chief 2. classifier: 位 (wèi), 個 (gè) (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
兒子: ér zi — son (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
賭: dǔ — to bet; to gamble (HSK 6)
友: yǒu — friend
一定: yī dìng — 1. surely; certainly; definitely 2. fixed; settled 3. a certain ...; a given ... (HSK 2)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
添: tiān — to add; to increase; to replenish (HSK 6)
些: xiē — classifier indicating a small amount or small number greater than 1: some, a few, several (HSK 4)
謠言: yáo yán — rumor (HSK 7-9)
設法: shè fǎ — 1. to try 2. to make an attempt 3. to think of a way (to accomplish sth) (HSK 7-9)
報告: bào gào — 1. to inform 2. to report 3. to make known 4. report 5. speech 6. talk 7. lecture 8. classifier: 篇 (piān), 份 (fèn), 個 (gè), 通 (tòng) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
到現在: dào xiàn zài — 1. up until now 2. to date
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
發生: fā shēng — to happen; to occur; to take place; to break out (HSK 3)
效驗: xiào yàn — 1. (desired) effect 2. (expected) result 3. effective
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
算是: suàn shì — 1. considered to be 2. at last (HSK 6)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
晚: wǎn — 1. evening 2. night 3. late (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
其實: qí shí — actually; in fact; really (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
算是: suàn shì — 1. considered to be 2. at last (HSK 6)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
打擊: dǎ jī — 1. to hit 2. to strike 3. to attack 4. to crack down on sth 5. blow 6. (psychological) shock 7. percussion (music) (HSK 5)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
早就: zǎo jiù — already at an earlier time (HSK 2)
決定: jué dìng — 1. to decide; to determine; to make up one's mind 2. decision (classifier: 個 (gè), 項 (xiàng)) (HSK 3)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
別人: bié ren — other people; others; other person (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
鈔: chāo — 1. money 2. paper money 3. variant of 抄 (chāo)
寫: xiě — to write (HSK 1)
或者: huò zhě — 1. or 2. possibly; maybe; perhaps (HSK 2)
教: Jiào — surname Jiao (HSK 1)
讀: dòu — 1. comma 2. phrase marked by pause (HSK 1)
或者: huò zhě — 1. or 2. possibly; maybe; perhaps (HSK 2)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
費力: fèi lì — to expend a great deal of effort
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
譯: yì — 1. to translate 2. to interpret (HSK 7-9)
點: diǎn — 1. to touch briefly; to tap 2. to mark with a dot; to check off (on a list) 3. to order (food etc); to select 4. to mention; to bring up (a topic or person) 5. to hint at; to imply 6. to administer (eye medicine etc) in drops 7. to light (a fire, a lamp etc); to ignite 8. to nod (one's head) in agreement; to beckon by moving (one's hand) up and down 9. point; dot; spot; speck 10. dot stroke in Chinese characters 11. (math.) decimal point 12. point in time or space 13. (after a number) o'clock 14. a small amount; a bit; (after a verb or adjective) a bit more 15. classifier for small amounts (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
況且: kuàng qiě — 1. moreover 2. besides 3. in addition 4. furthermore (HSK 7-9)
自由: zì yóu — 1. freedom; liberty 2. free; unrestricted (HSK 2)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
友: yǒu — friend
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
總編輯: zǒng biān jí — chief editor (of newspaper)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
幾次: jǐ cì — several times
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
熟人: shú rén — 1. acquaintance 2. friend (HSK 3)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
月: yuè — 1. moon 2. month 3. monthly 4. classifier: 個 (gè), 輪 (lún) (HSK 1)
前: qián — 1. front 2. forward 3. ahead 4. first 5. top (followed by a number) 6. future 7. ago 8. before 9. BC (e.g. 前293年) 10. former 11. formerly (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
通過: tōng guò — 1. to pass through; to get through 2. to adopt (a resolution); to pass (legislation) 3. to pass (a test) 4. by means of; through; via (HSK 2)
信: xìn — 1. letter 2. mail 3. classifier: 封 (fēng) 4. to trust 5. to believe 6. to profess faith in 7. truthful 8. confidence 9. trust 10. at will 11. at random (HSK 2)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
跳躍: tiào yuè — 1. to jump 2. to leap 3. to bound 4. to skip (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
那麼: nà me — 1. like that; in that way; to that extent 2. (before a number) ... or so; about ... 3. then; in that case (HSK 2)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
畏: wèi — to fear
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
變: biàn — 1. to change 2. to become different 3. to transform 4. to vary 5. rebellion (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
色: sè — 1. color 2. classifier: 種 (zhǒng) 3. look 4. appearance 5. sex (HSK 4)
尤其: yóu qí — especially; particularly (HSK 5)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
痛心: tòng xīn — 1. grieved 2. pained (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
較為: jiào wéi — 1. comparatively 2. relatively 3. fairly
怯弱: qiè ruò — 1. timid 2. weak
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

「。"What does that matter.，。Hmph, we'll strike out on something new.……。」。We…" she said.

；She did not finish what she was saying;，；somehow, to my ears that voice sounded only hollow and unsteady;。the lamplight, too, seemed unusually dim.，，。People truly are ridiculous creatures — the most trifling little thing can affect them so deeply.，，，「」，《》，，，。At first we merely gazed at each other in silence, then gradually began to talk it over, and at last decided that we would economize as much as possible with the money we had on hand, while placing a "small advertisement" to look for copying and tutoring work, and at the same time write to the chief editor of Freedom's Friend explaining my present circumstances, asking him to accept my translation and help me a little through this hard time.

她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的話: de huà — if (coming after a conditional clause) (HSK 2)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
完: wán — 1. to finish 2. to be over 3. whole 4. complete 5. entire (HSK 2)
不知: bù zhī — 1. not to know 2. unaware 3. unknowingly 4. fig. not to admit (defeat, hardships, tiredness etc) (HSK 7-9)
怎: zěn — how
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
聲音: shēng yīn — sound; voice (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
聽: tīng — 1. to listen to; to hear 2. to heed; to obey 3. a can (loanword from English "tin") 4. classifier for canned beverages 5. to let be; to allow (Taiwan pr. (tìng)) 6. (literary) to administer; to deal with (Taiwan pr. (tìng)) (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
浮: fú — 1. to float 2. superficial 3. floating 4. unstable 5. movable 6. provisional 7. temporary 8. transient 9. impetuous 10. hollow 11. inflated 12. to exceed 13. superfluous 14. excessive 15. surplus (HSK 6)
浮: fú — 1. to float 2. superficial 3. floating 4. unstable 5. movable 6. provisional 7. temporary 8. transient 9. impetuous 10. hollow 11. inflated 12. to exceed 13. superfluous 14. excessive 15. surplus (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
燈光: dēng guāng — 1. (stage) lighting 2. light (HSK 4)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
格外: gé wài — 1. especially; particularly; even more than usual 2. extra; additional (HSK 4)
黯淡: àn dàn — variant of 暗淡 (àn dàn)
人們: rén men — people (HSK 2)
真是: zhēn shi — 1. indeed; truly 2. (coll.) (used to express disapproval, annoyance etc)
可笑: kě xiào — 1. funny 2. ridiculous (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
動物: dòng wù — animal (HSK 2)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
極: jí — 1. extremely 2. pole (geography, physics) 3. utmost 4. top (HSK 4)
微末: wēi mò — 1. tiny 2. negligible
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
小事: xiǎo shì — 1. trifle 2. trivial matter 3. classifier: 點 (diǎn)
情: qíng — 1. (bound form) feelings; emotion; sentiment; passion 2. (bound form) situation; condition (HSK 7-9)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
會: huì — 1. can; to have the skill; to know how to 2. to be likely to; to be sure to 3. to meet; to get together 4. meeting; gathering 5. (suffix) union; group; association 6. (bound form) a moment (Taiwan pr. (huǐ)) (HSK 1)
受: shòu — 1. to receive 2. to accept 3. to suffer 4. subjected to 5. to bear 6. to stand 7. pleasant 8. (passive marker) 9. (LGBT) bottom (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
深: shēn — (lit. and fig.) deep (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
影響: yǐng xiǎng — 1. influence 2. effect 3. to influence 4. to affect (usually adversely) 5. to disturb 6. classifier: 股 (gǔ) (HSK 2)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
先: xiān — 1. beforehand; first; earlier 2. at first; originally 3. for the time being; for now 4. (prefix) my late (in referring to deceased relatives older than oneself) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
默默: mò mò — in silence; not speaking (HSK 4)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
相視: xiāng shì — to look at each other
逐漸: zhú jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
商量: shāng liang — 1. to consult 2. to talk over 3. to discuss (HSK 2)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
決定: jué dìng — 1. to decide; to determine; to make up one's mind 2. decision (classifier: 個 (gè), 項 (xiàng)) (HSK 3)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
現有: xiàn yǒu — 1. currently existing 2. currently available (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
錢: Qián — surname Qian (HSK 1)
竭力: jié lì — to do one's utmost (HSK 7-9)
節省: jié shěng — 1. saving 2. to save 3. to use sparingly 4. to cut down on (HSK 4)
一面: yī miàn — 1. one side 2. one aspect 3. simultaneously... (and...) 4. one's whole face (HSK 7-9)
登: dēng — 1. to scale (a height) 2. to ascend 3. to mount 4. to publish or record 5. to enter (e.g. in a register) 6. to press down with the foot 7. to step or tread on 8. to put on (shoes or trousers) (dialect) 9. to be gathered and taken to the threshing ground (old) (HSK 4)
小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
廣告: guǎng gào — 1. to advertise 2. a commercial 3. advertisement 4. classifier: 項 (xiàng) (HSK 2)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
尋求: xún qiú — to seek; to look for (HSK 5)
鈔: chāo — 1. money 2. paper money 3. variant of 抄 (chāo)
寫: xiě — to write (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
教: Jiào — surname Jiao (HSK 1)
讀: dòu — 1. comma 2. phrase marked by pause (HSK 1)
一面: yī miàn — 1. one side 2. one aspect 3. simultaneously... (and...) 4. one's whole face (HSK 7-9)
寫信: xiě xìn — to write a letter
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
自由: zì yóu — 1. freedom; liberty 2. free; unrestricted (HSK 2)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
友: yǒu — friend
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
總編輯: zǒng biān jí — chief editor (of newspaper)
說明: shuō míng — 1. to explain 2. to illustrate 3. to indicate 4. to show 5. to prove 6. explanation 7. directions 8. caption 9. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
目下: mù xià — at present
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
遭遇: zāo yù — 1. to meet with; to encounter (esp. misfortune or hardship) 2. an experience (esp. adverse) (HSK 6)
請: qǐng — 1. to ask 2. to invite 3. please (do sth) 4. to treat (to a meal etc) 5. to request (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
收: shōu — 1. to receive 2. to accept 3. to collect 4. to put away 5. to restrain 6. to stop 7. in care of (used on address line after name) (HSK 2)
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
譯本: yì běn — translation (translated version of a text)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
幫: bāng — 1. to help 2. to assist 3. to support 4. for sb (i.e. as a help) 5. hired (as worker) 6. side (of pail, boat etc) 7. outer layer 8. upper (of a shoe) 9. group 10. gang 11. clique 12. party 13. secret society (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
艱辛: jiān xīn — 1. hardships 2. arduous 3. difficult (HSK 7-9)
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
忙: máng — 1. busy 2. hurriedly 3. to hurry 4. to rush (HSK 1)

「，！"If we say we'll do it, then let's do it!！」Let's open up a new road!"

說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
開: kāi — 1. to open (transitive or intransitive) 2. (of ships, vehicles, troops etc) to start 3. to turn on; to put in operation; to operate; to run 4. to boil 5. to write out (a prescription, check, invoice etc) 6. (directional complement) away; off 7. carat (gold) 8. abbr. for Kelvin, 開爾文 (Kāi ěr wén) 9. abbr. for 開本 (kāi běn), book format (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
條: tiáo — 1. strip 2. item 3. article 4. clause (of law or treaty) 5. classifier for long thin things (ribbon, river, road, trousers etc) (HSK 2)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)

，，。I turned at once to my writing desk, pushing aside the bottle of sesame oil and the vinegar dish, and Zijun brought over that dim lamp.；First I drafted the advertisement;，，；next I chose which books were fit to translate — I had not opened them since we moved, and the top of every one was thick with dust;。and only last did I write the letter.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
立刻: lì kè — immediately; at once; right away (HSK 3)
轉身: zhuǎn shēn — 1. (of a person) to turn round 2. to face about 3. (of a widow) to remarry (archaic) (HSK 4)
向: Xiàng — surname Xiang (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
書案: shū àn — 1. writing desk 2. official record
推開: tuī kāi — 1. to push open (a gate etc) 2. to push away 3. to reject 4. to decline (HSK 3)
盛: Shèng — surname Sheng (HSK 7-9)
香油: xiāng yóu — 1. sesame oil 2. perfumed oil (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
瓶子: píng zi — 1. bottle 2. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
醋: cù — 1. vinegar 2. jealousy (in love rivalry) (HSK 6)
碟: dié — 1. dish 2. plate
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
送: sòng — 1. to send; to deliver; to transmit 2. to give (as a present) 3. to see (sb) off 4. to accompany; to go along with (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
黯淡: àn dàn — variant of 暗淡 (àn dàn)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
燈: dēng — 1. lamp 2. light 3. lantern 4. classifier: 盞 (zhǎn) (HSK 2)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
先: xiān — 1. beforehand; first; earlier 2. at first; originally 3. for the time being; for now 4. (prefix) my late (in referring to deceased relatives older than oneself) (HSK 1)
擬: nǐ — 1. to plan to 2. to draft (a plan) 3. to imitate 4. to assess 5. to compare 6. pseudo- (HSK 7-9)
廣告: guǎng gào — 1. to advertise 2. a commercial 3. advertisement 4. classifier: 項 (xiàng) (HSK 2)
其次: qí cì — 1. next 2. secondly (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
選定: xuǎn dìng — 1. to select 2. to choose 3. to settle on
可: kě — 1. (prefix) can; may; able to; -able 2. to approve; to permit 3. to suit 4. (particle used for emphasis) certainly; very 5. but; however (HSK 5)
譯: yì — 1. to translate 2. to interpret (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
遷移: qiān yí — 1. to migrate 2. to move (HSK 7-9)
以來: yǐ lái — since (used after a specified time or event) (HSK 3)
未曾: wèi céng — hasn't (or haven't); hasn't ever
翻閱: fān yuè — 1. to thumb through 2. to flip through (a book)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
每: měi — 1. each 2. every (HSK 3)
本: běn — 1. (bound form) root; stem 2. (bound form) origin; source 3. (bound form) one's own; this 4. (bound form) this; the current (year etc) 5. (bound form) original 6. (bound form) inherent 7. originally; initially 8. capital; principal 9. classifier for books, periodicals, files etc (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
頭上: tóu shàng — 1. overhead 2. above
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
滿: Mǎn — Manchu ethnic group (HSK 2)
漫: màn — 1. free 2. unrestrained 3. to inundate (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
灰塵: huī chén — dust (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
最後: zuì hòu — 1. final; last; ultimate 2. finally; in the end (HSK 1)
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
寫信: xiě xìn — to write a letter

，，，，，。I hesitated a great deal, not knowing how best to word it, and when I paused, pen in hand, to think, I glanced over at her face, which, in the dim lamplight, looked quite forlorn.，，。I truly had not expected that so slight a matter could bring about so marked a change in the resolute, fearless Zijun.，。She really had grown very timid of late, though this had not begun only tonight.，——，，，。My heart grew all the more troubled at this; suddenly an image of a peaceful life flashed before my eyes — the stillness of that shabby room at the hostel — and just as I was about to fix my gaze on it, I saw once more only the dim lamplight.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
費: Fèi — surname Fei (HSK 3)
躊躕: chóu chú — variant of 躊躇 (chóu chú)
不知: bù zhī — 1. not to know 2. unaware 3. unknowingly 4. fig. not to admit (defeat, hardships, tiredness etc) (HSK 7-9)
道: dào — 1. road; path (classifier: 條 (tiáo), 股 (gǔ)) 2. (bound form) way; reason; principle 3. (bound form) a skill; an art; a specialization 4. (Daoism) the Way; the Dao 5. to say (introducing a direct quotation, as in a novel) 6. (bound form) to express; to extend (polite words) 7. classifier for long thin things (rivers, cracks, shadows etc), barriers (walls, doors etc), questions (in an exam etc), commands, courses in a meal, steps in a process 8. (old) circuit (administrative division) (HSK 2)
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
措辭: cuò cí — 1. wording 2. way of expressing something 3. turn of phrase 4. diction
好: hǎo — 1. good 2. appropriate; proper 3. all right! 4. (before a verb) easy to 5. (before a verb) good to 6. (before an adjective for exclamatory effect) so 7. (verb complement indicating completion) 8. (of two people) close; on intimate terms 9. (after a personal pronoun) hello (HSK 1)
當: dāng — 1. to be 2. to act as 3. manage 4. withstand 5. when 6. during 7. ought 8. should 9. match equally 10. equal 11. same 12. obstruct 13. just at (a time or place) 14. on the spot 15. right 16. just at (HSK 2)
停: tíng — 1. to stop 2. to halt 3. to park (a car) (HSK 2)
筆: bǐ — 1. writing brush; writing implement (pen, pencil etc) (classifier: 支 (zhī), 枝 (zhī)) 2. brushstroke; stroke (in painting or calligraphy) 3. (bound form) style of writing; literary manner; technique of brushwork 4. (classifier) stroke of a Chinese character 5. (classifier) sum of money; financial transaction; piece of business 6. (literary) to write (with a brush or pen) (HSK 2)
凝: níng — 1. to congeal 2. to concentrate attention 3. to stare
思: sī — 1. to think 2. to consider
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
轉眼: zhuǎn yǎn — 1. in a flash 2. in the blink of an eye 3. to glance (HSK 7-9)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
一瞥: yī piē — 1. glance 2. glimpse
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
臉: liǎn — 1. face 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
昏暗: hūn àn — dusky
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
燈光: dēng guāng — 1. (stage) lighting 2. light (HSK 4)
下: xià — 1. down 2. downwards 3. below 4. lower 5. later 6. next (week etc) 7. second (of two parts) 8. to decline 9. to go down 10. to arrive at (a decision, conclusion etc) 11. measure word to show the frequency of an action (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
見得: jiàn dé — 1. to seem 2. to appear 3. (in a negative or interrogative sentence) to be sure
凄然: qī rán — distressed
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
真: zhēn — 1. really 2. truly 3. indeed 4. real 5. true 6. genuine (HSK 1)
不料: bù liào — 1. unexpectedly 2. to one's surprise (HSK 6)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
微細: wēi xì — microminiature (technology)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
小事: xiǎo shì — 1. trifle 2. trivial matter 3. classifier: 點 (diǎn)
情: qíng — 1. (bound form) feelings; emotion; sentiment; passion 2. (bound form) situation; condition (HSK 7-9)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
會: huì — 1. can; to have the skill; to know how to 2. to be likely to; to be sure to 3. to meet; to get together 4. meeting; gathering 5. (suffix) union; group; association 6. (bound form) a moment (Taiwan pr. (huǐ)) (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
堅決: jiān jué — firm; resolute; determined (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
畏: wèi — to fear
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
以: Yǐ — abbr. for Israel 以色列 (Yǐ sè liè) (HSK 7-9)
這麼: zhè me — 1. so much 2. this much 3. how much? 4. this way 5. like this (HSK 2)
顯著: xiǎn zhù — 1. outstanding 2. notable 3. remarkable 4. statistically significant (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
變化: biàn huà — 1. (intransitive) to change; to vary 2. change; variation (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
實在: shí zài — 1. really 2. actually 3. indeed 4. true 5. real 6. honest 7. dependable 8. (philosophy) reality (HSK 2)
變得: biàn de — to become
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
怯弱: qiè ruò — 1. timid 2. weak
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
今夜: jīn yè — 1. tonight 2. this evening
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
開始: kāi shǐ — 1. to begin 2. beginning 3. to start 4. initial 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
因此: yīn cǐ — thus; consequently; as a result (HSK 3)
更: gēng — 1. to change or replace 2. to experience 3. one of the five two-hour periods into which the night was formerly divided 4. watch (e.g. of a sentry or guard) (HSK 2)
繚亂: liáo luàn — 1. dazzled 2. confused
忽然: hū rán — suddenly; all of a sudden (HSK 2)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
安寧: Ān níng — 1. see 安寧區 (Ān níng Qū) 2. see 安寧市 (Ān níng Shì) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
影像: yǐng xiàng — image (HSK 7-9)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
眼前: yǎn qián — 1. before one's eyes 2. now 3. at present (HSK 3)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
閃: Shǎn — surname Shan (HSK 4)
剛剛: gāng gang — 1. just recently 2. just a moment ago (HSK 2)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
定睛: dìng jīng — to stare at
凝視: níng shì — 1. to gaze at 2. to fix one's eyes on
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
昏暗: hūn àn — dusky
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
燈光: dēng guāng — 1. (stage) lighting 2. light (HSK 4)

，，；A long while later, the letter too was finished — it was a fairly long letter;，。I felt quite worn out, as though I too had grown somewhat more timid of late.，，。So we decided that the advertisement and the mailing of the letter would both be carried out the next day.，，，。Without either of us intending it, we both straightened our backs at the same moment, and in that silence we seemed once again to feel each other's steadfast, unyielding spirit, and to see, freshly sprouting, the hope of a future to come.

許久: xǔ jiǔ — 1. for a long time 2. for ages
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
信: xìn — 1. letter 2. mail 3. classifier: 封 (fēng) 4. to trust 5. to believe 6. to profess faith in 7. truthful 8. confidence 9. trust 10. at will 11. at random (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
寫: xiě — to write (HSK 1)
成了: chéng le — 1. to be done 2. to be ready 3. that's enough! 4. that will do!
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
封: Fēng — surname Feng (HSK 2)
頗: Pō — 1. surname Po 2. Taiwan pr. (Pǒ) (HSK 7-9)
長: cháng — 1. long 2. (bound form) length 3. (bound form) strong point; forte 4. (bound form) to be good at 5. (literary) surplus; spare (Taiwan pr. (zhàng)) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
信: xìn — 1. letter 2. mail 3. classifier: 封 (fēng) 4. to trust 5. to believe 6. to profess faith in 7. truthful 8. confidence 9. trust 10. at will 11. at random (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
疲勞: pí láo — 1. fatigue 2. wearily 3. weariness 4. weary (HSK 7-9)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
較為: jiào wéi — 1. comparatively 2. relatively 3. fairly
怯弱: qiè ruò — 1. timid 2. weak
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
決定: jué dìng — 1. to decide; to determine; to make up one's mind 2. decision (classifier: 個 (gè), 項 (xiàng)) (HSK 3)
廣告: guǎng gào — 1. to advertise 2. a commercial 3. advertisement 4. classifier: 項 (xiàng) (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
發信: fā xìn — to post a letter
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
明日: míng rì — tomorrow (HSK 6)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
實行: shí xíng — 1. to implement 2. to carry out 3. to put into practice (HSK 3)
大家: dà jiā — 1. everyone 2. influential family 3. great expert (HSK 2)
不約而同: bù yuē ér tóng — (idiom) (of two or more people) to take the same action without prior consultation; (usu. used adverbially) all (or both) of them, independently; as if by prior agreement (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
伸直: shēn zhí — 1. to straighten 2. to stretch out
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
腰肢: yāo zhī — waist
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
無言: wú yán — 1. to remain silent 2. to have nothing to say
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
感到: gǎn dào — to feel; to sense; to perceive (HSK 2)
彼此: bǐ cǐ — each other; one another (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
堅忍: jiān rěn — 1. persevering 2. tenacious
崛: jué — towering as a peak
強: Qiáng — surname Qiang (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
精神: jīng shén — 1. spirit 2. mind 3. consciousness 4. thought 5. mental 6. psychological 7. essence 8. gist 9. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
萌芽: méng yá — 1. (of a seed) to germinate 2. (of a plant) to sprout; to bud 3. sprout; bud 4. (also used figuratively) (HSK 7-9)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
將來: jiāng lái — 1. in the future 2. future 3. the future 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
希望: xī wàng — 1. to hope 2. a hope; a wish (HSK 3)

。The blow from outside had, in fact, roused our spirits anew.，，，；Life at the bureau had, after all, been like that of a bird in a bird-seller's hands, kept alive on nothing but a few grains of millet, never to grow plump;，，，。and as the days wore on, one ended up only with numbed wings, so that even set free of the cage, one could no longer fly.，，。Now I had finally escaped that cage; from now on I would soar in a new, open sky, while I still had not forgotten how to beat my wings.

外來: wài lái — 1. external 2. foreign 3. outside (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
打擊: dǎ jī — 1. to hit 2. to strike 3. to attack 4. to crack down on sth 5. blow 6. (psychological) shock 7. percussion (music) (HSK 5)
其實: qí shí — actually; in fact; really (HSK 3)
倒是: dào shi — 1. contrary to what one might expect 2. actually 3. contrariwise 4. why don't you (HSK 5)
振作: zhèn zuò — 1. to bestir oneself 2. to pull oneself together 3. to cheer up 4. to uplift 5. to stimulate (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
精神: jīng shén — 1. spirit 2. mind 3. consciousness 4. thought 5. mental 6. psychological 7. essence 8. gist 9. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
局: jú — 1. office 2. situation 3. classifier for games: match, set, round etc (HSK 4)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
原: Yuán — 1. surname Yuan 2. (Japanese surname) Hara (HSK 6)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
鳥: diǎo — 1. variant of 屌 (diǎo) 2. penis (HSK 2)
販子: fàn zi — trafficker; dealer; monger; peddler
手裡: shǒu lǐ — 1. in hand 2. (a situation is) in sb's hands (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
禽鳥: qín niǎo — 1. birds 2. fowl
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
僅: jǐn — 1. barely 2. only 3. merely (HSK 3)
有一點: yǒu yī diǎn — a little; somewhat
小米: Xiǎo mǐ — Xiaomi, Chinese electronics company founded in 2010
維繫: wéi xì — 1. to maintain 2. to keep up 3. to hold together
殘生: cán shēng — remaining years of one's life
決不: jué bù — 1. not at all 2. simply (can) not (HSK 5)
會: huì — 1. can; to have the skill; to know how to 2. to be likely to; to be sure to 3. to meet; to get together 4. meeting; gathering 5. (suffix) union; group; association 6. (bound form) a moment (Taiwan pr. (huǐ)) (HSK 1)
肥胖: féi pàng — fat; obese (HSK 7-9)
日子: rì zi — 1. day 2. a (calendar) date 3. days of one's life (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
落得: luò de — 1. ending up as 2. leading to 3. resulting in 4. in total
麻痹: má bì — 1. paralysis 2. palsy 3. numbness 4. to benumb 5. (fig.) to lull 6. negligent 7. apathetic (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
翅子: chì zi — 1. shark's fin 2. wing 3. classifier: 隻 (zhī)
即使: jí shǐ — even if; even though (HSK 5)
放出: fàng chū — 1. to let off 2. to give out
籠: lóng — 1. enclosing frame made of bamboo, wire etc; cage; basket 2. steamer basket
外: wài — 1. outside 2. in addition 3. foreign 4. external (HSK 1)
早已: zǎo yǐ — 1. for a long time; long since 2. (dialect) in the past (HSK 3)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
奮飛: fèn fēi — to spread wings and fly
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
總算: zǒng suàn — 1. at long last 2. finally 3. on the whole (HSK 5)
脫出: tuō chū — 1. to break away 2. to extricate 3. to escape 4. to leave the confines of
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
牢籠: láo lóng — 1. cage 2. trap (e.g. basket, pit or snare for catching animals) 3. fig. bonds (of wrong ideas) 4. shackles (of past misconceptions) 5. to trap 6. to shackle
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
從此: cóng cǐ — 1. from now on 2. since then 3. henceforth (HSK 4)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
開闊: kāi kuò — 1. wide 2. open (spaces) 3. to open up (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
天空: tiān kōng — sky (HSK 3)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
翱翔: áo xiáng — to soar; to wheel about in the sky
趁: chèn — 1. to avail oneself of 2. to take advantage of (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
未: wèi — 1. not yet 2. did not 3. have not 4. not 5. 8th earthly branch: 1-3 p.m., 6th solar month (7th July-6th August), year of the Sheep 6. ancient Chinese compass point: 210° (HSK 7-9)
忘卻: wàng què — to forget
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
翅子: chì zi — 1. shark's fin 2. wing 3. classifier: 隻 (zhī)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
扇動: shān dòng — 1. to fan 2. to flap 3. to incite 4. to instigate (a strike etc)

；The small advertisement would, of course, not take effect right away;，，，，，。and translating books proved no easy matter either — passages I had read before and thought I understood turned out, once I set to work, to be riddled with difficulties, and progress was very slow.，，，，。《》，。Still, I resolved to work hard at it; a dictionary that had been half new, in less than half a month, had its edges covered with a great smear of black fingerprints, which proved just how earnestly I was working. The chief editor of Freedom's Friend had once said that his publication would never let a good manuscript go to waste.

小: xiǎo — 1. small 2. tiny 3. few 4. young (HSK 1)
廣告: guǎng gào — 1. to advertise 2. a commercial 3. advertisement 4. classifier: 項 (xiàng) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一時: yī shí — 1. a period of time 2. a while 3. for a short while 4. temporary 5. momentary 6. at the same time (HSK 6)
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
不會: bù huì — 1. improbable 2. unlikely 3. will not (act, happen etc) 4. not able 5. not having learned to do sth 6. (coll.) (Tw) don't mention it 7. not at all
發生: fā shēng — to happen; to occur; to take place; to break out (HSK 3)
效力: xiào lì — 1. effectiveness 2. positive effect 3. to serve (in some capacity) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
譯: yì — 1. to translate 2. to interpret (HSK 7-9)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不是: bù shì — 1. no 2. is not 3. not
容易: róng yì — 1. easy; straightforward 2. likely; liable to; apt to (HSK 3)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
懂得: dǒng de — to understand; to know; to comprehend (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
動手: dòng shǒu — 1. to set about (a task) 2. to raise a hand to hit sb 3. to touch; to handle (typically used in cautioning sb *not* to touch sth) (HSK 5)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
疑難: yí nán — 1. hard to understand 2. difficult to deal with 3. knotty 4. complicated
百出: bǎi chū — 1. (following a noun) full of ... 2. abounding in ...
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
進行: jìn xíng — 1. (of a process etc) to proceed; to be in progress; to be underway 2. (of people) to carry out; to conduct (an investigation or discussion etc) 3. (of an army etc) to be on the march; to advance (HSK 2)
得很: de hěn — (after an adjective) very
慢: màn — slow (HSK 1)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
決: jué — 1. to decide 2. to determine 3. to execute (sb) 4. (of a dam etc) to breach or burst 5. definitely 6. certainly
計: Jì — surname Ji (HSK 7-9)
努力: nǔ lì — 1. to make an effort; to try hard; to strive 2. hard-working; conscientious (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
本: běn — 1. (bound form) root; stem 2. (bound form) origin; source 3. (bound form) one's own; this 4. (bound form) this; the current (year etc) 5. (bound form) original 6. (bound form) inherent 7. originally; initially 8. capital; principal 9. classifier for books, periodicals, files etc (HSK 1)
半: bàn — 1. half 2. semi- 3. incomplete 4. (after a number) and a half (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
字典: zì diǎn — 1. Chinese character dictionary (containing entries for single characters, contrasted with a 詞典 (cí diǎn), which has entries for words of one or more characters) 2. (coll.) dictionary 3. classifier: 本 (běn) (HSK 2)
不到: bù dào — 1. not to arrive 2. not reaching 3. insufficient 4. less than
半月: bàn yuè — 1. half-moon 2. fortnight
邊: biān — 1. side 2. edge 3. margin 4. border 5. boundary 6. classifier: 個 (gè) 7. simultaneously (HSK 2)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
有了: yǒu le — 1. I've got a solution! 2. to have a bun in the oven (abbr. for 有了胎 (yǒu le tāi))
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
大片: dà piàn — 1. wide expanse 2. large area 3. vast stretch 4. extending widely 5. blockbuster movie (HSK 7-9)
烏黑: wū hēi — 1. jet-black 2. dark
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
指: zhǐ — 1. finger 2. to point at or to 3. to indicate or refer to 4. to depend on 5. to count on 6. (of hair) to stand on end (HSK 3)
痕: hén — 1. scar 2. traces
這就: zhè jiù — 1. immediately 2. at once
證明: zhèng míng — 1. proof 2. certificate 3. identification 4. testimonial 5. classifier: 個 (gè) 6. to prove 7. to testify 8. to confirm the truth of (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
工作: gōng zuò — 1. to work 2. (of a machine) to operate 3. job 4. work 5. task 6. classifier: 個 (gè), 份 (fèn), 項 (xiàng) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
切實: qiè shí — 1. feasible 2. realistic 3. practical 4. earnestly 5. conscientiously (HSK 6)
自由: zì yóu — 1. freedom; liberty 2. free; unrestricted (HSK 2)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
友: yǒu — friend
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
總編輯: zǒng biān jí — chief editor (of newspaper)
曾經: céng jīng — 1. once 2. already 3. former 4. previously 5. ever 6. (past tense marker used before verb or clause) (HSK 3)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
刊物: kān wù — publication (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
決不: jué bù — 1. not at all 2. simply (can) not (HSK 5)
會: huì — 1. can; to have the skill; to know how to 2. to be likely to; to be sure to 3. to meet; to get together 4. meeting; gathering 5. (suffix) union; group; association 6. (bound form) a moment (Taiwan pr. (huǐ)) (HSK 1)
埋沒: mái mò — 1. to engulf 2. to bury 3. to overlook 4. to stifle 5. to neglect 6. to fall into oblivion (HSK 7-9)
好: hǎo — 1. good 2. appropriate; proper 3. all right! 4. (before a verb) easy to 5. (before a verb) good to 6. (before an adjective for exclamatory effect) so 7. (verb complement indicating completion) 8. (of two people) close; on intimate terms 9. (after a personal pronoun) hello (HSK 1)
稿子: gǎo zi — 1. draft of a document 2. script 3. manuscript 4. mental plan 5. precedent (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，，，，，，。The pity was that I had no quiet room of my own, and Zijun was no longer as calm and considerate as before; the room was forever littered with bowls and plates, filled with coal smoke, so that one could not settle down to work — though of course, this could only be blamed on my own inability to afford a separate study.，。And on top of that there was Ah Sui, and there were the chickens as well.，。And the chickens, having grown bigger now, more easily became the fuse for quarrels between the two households.

可惜: kě xī — 1. it is a pity 2. what a pity 3. unfortunately (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
間: jiān — 1. between 2. among 3. within a definite time or space 4. room 5. section of a room or lateral space between two pairs of pillars 6. classifier for rooms (HSK 1)
靜: jìng — 1. still 2. calm 3. quiet 4. not moving (HSK 3)
室: Shì — surname Shi (HSK 3)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
那麼: nà me — 1. like that; in that way; to that extent 2. (before a number) ... or so; about ... 3. then; in that case (HSK 2)
幽靜: yōu jìng — 1. quiet 2. secluded 3. isolated 4. peaceful
善於: shàn yú — to be good at; to be adept at (HSK 4)
體: tī — 1. used in 體己 (tī ji) 2. Taiwan pr. (tǐ)
帖: tiē — 1. fitting snugly 2. appropriate 3. suitable 4. variant of 貼 (tiē) 5. to paste 6. to obey
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
總是: zǒng shì — always (HSK 3)
散亂: sǎn luàn — 1. in disorder 2. messy 3. Taiwan pr. (sàn luàn)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
碗: wǎn — 1. bowl 2. cup 3. classifier: 隻 (zhī), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
碟: dié — 1. dish 2. plate
瀰漫: mí màn — variant of 彌漫 (mí màn) (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
煤: méi — 1. coal 2. classifier: 塊 (kuài) (HSK 5)
煙: yān — 1. cigarette or pipe tobacco 2. classifier: 根 (gēn) 3. smoke 4. mist 5. vapour 6. classifier: 縷 (lǚ) 7. tobacco plant 8. (of the eyes) to be irritated by smoke (HSK 3)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
安心: ān xīn — 1. at ease 2. to feel relieved 3. to set one's mind at rest 4. to keep one's mind on sth (HSK 7-9)
做事: zuò shì — 1. to work 2. to handle matters 3. to have a job
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
只能: zhǐ néng — 1. can only 2. obliged to do sth 3. to have no other choice (HSK 2)
怨: yuàn — 1. to blame 2. (bound form) resentment; hatred; grudge (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
無力: wú lì — 1. powerless 2. lacking strength (HSK 7-9)
置: zhì — 1. to install 2. to place 3. to put 4. to buy (HSK 7-9)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
間: jiān — 1. between 2. among 3. within a definite time or space 4. room 5. section of a room or lateral space between two pairs of pillars 6. classifier for rooms (HSK 1)
書齋: shū zhāi — study (room)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
加以: jiā yǐ — 1. (formal) to apply; to carry out; to take action to (do sth) (used before a disyllabic verb, indicating that the action is directed at sth previously mentioned, e.g. 加以說明 (jiā yǐ shuō míng)); to apply (restrictions etc); to give (support, consideration etc) 2. (literary) moreover; in addition (HSK 5)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
加以: jiā yǐ — 1. (formal) to apply; to carry out; to take action to (do sth) (used before a disyllabic verb, indicating that the action is directed at sth previously mentioned, e.g. 加以說明 (jiā yǐ shuō míng)); to apply (restrictions etc); to give (support, consideration etc) 2. (literary) moreover; in addition (HSK 5)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
們: men — plural marker for pronouns, and nouns referring to individuals
加以: jiā yǐ — 1. (formal) to apply; to carry out; to take action to (do sth) (used before a disyllabic verb, indicating that the action is directed at sth previously mentioned, e.g. 加以說明 (jiā yǐ shuō míng)); to apply (restrictions etc); to give (support, consideration etc) 2. (literary) moreover; in addition (HSK 5)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
們: men — plural marker for pronouns, and nouns referring to individuals
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
大: dà — 1. big; large; great 2. older (than another person) 3. eldest (as in 大姐 (dà jiě)) 4. greatly; freely; fully 5. (dialect) father 6. (dialect) uncle (father's brother) (HSK 1)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
更: gēng — 1. to change or replace 2. to experience 3. one of the five two-hour periods into which the night was formerly divided 4. watch (e.g. of a sentry or guard) (HSK 2)
容易: róng yì — 1. easy; straightforward 2. likely; liable to; apt to (HSK 3)
成為: chéng wéi — to become; to turn into (HSK 2)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
家: jiā — 1. home 2. family 3. (polite) my (sister, uncle etc) 4. classifier for families or businesses 5. refers to the philosophical schools of pre-Han China 6. noun suffix for a specialist in some activity, such as a musician or revolutionary, corresponding to English -ist, -er, -ary or -ian 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
爭吵: zhēng chǎo — 1. to quarrel 2. dispute (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
引線: yǐn xiàn — 1. fuse (for an explosive device) 2. electrical lead 3. intermediary 4. catalyst 5. (dialect) sewing needle

「」；And on top of that, the daily "endless stream" of meals;，。Zijun's whole life's work seemed to rest entirely upon this business of eating.，，，；Eat, then scrape together money, scrape together money to eat, and on top of that feed Ah Sui and feed the chickens;，。she seemed to have forgotten entirely all she once knew, and never thought that my train of thought was so often broken by this urging to eat.，，。Even if, sitting there, I let a trace of irritation show on my face, she never changed her ways, but went on chewing away heartily as though quite unmoved.

加以: jiā yǐ — 1. (formal) to apply; to carry out; to take action to (do sth) (used before a disyllabic verb, indicating that the action is directed at sth previously mentioned, e.g. 加以說明 (jiā yǐ shuō míng)); to apply (restrictions etc); to give (support, consideration etc) 2. (literary) moreover; in addition (HSK 5)
每日: měi rì — 1. daily 2. (soup etc) of the day
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
川流不息: chuān liú bù xī — the stream flows without stopping (idiom); unending flow (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
吃飯: chī fàn — 1. to have a meal 2. to eat 3. to make a living (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
功業: gōng yè — 1. achievement 2. outstanding work 3. glorious deed
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
完全: wán quán — 1. complete; whole 2. totally; entirely (HSK 2)
建立: jiàn lì — 1. to establish 2. to set up 3. to found (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
吃飯: chī fàn — 1. to have a meal 2. to eat 3. to make a living (HSK 1)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
吃: chī — 1. to eat; to consume 2. to eat at (a cafeteria etc) 3. to eradicate; to destroy 4. to absorb 5. to suffer (shock, injury, defeat etc) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
籌錢: chóu qián — to raise money
籌: chóu — 1. chip (in gambling); token (for counting); ticket 2. to prepare; to plan; to raise (funds) 3. resource; way; means (HSK 7-9)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
吃飯: chī fàn — 1. to have a meal 2. to eat 3. to make a living (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
喂: wéi — hello (when answering the phone) (HSK 2)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
飼: sì — 1. to raise 2. to rear 3. to feed
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
所知: suǒ zhī — 1. known 2. what one knows
道: dào — 1. road; path (classifier: 條 (tiáo), 股 (gǔ)) 2. (bound form) way; reason; principle 3. (bound form) a skill; an art; a specialization 4. (Daoism) the Way; the Dao 5. to say (introducing a direct quotation, as in a novel) 6. (bound form) to express; to extend (polite words) 7. classifier for long thin things (rivers, cracks, shadows etc), barriers (walls, doors etc), questions (in an exam etc), commands, courses in a meal, steps in a process 8. (old) circuit (administrative division) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
全都: quán dōu — 1. all 2. without exception (HSK 5)
忘掉: wàng diào — to forget (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不想: bù xiǎng — unexpectedly; to one's surprise
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
構思: gòu sī — 1. to design 2. to plot 3. to plan out 4. to compose 5. to draw a mental sketch 6. conception 7. plan 8. idea 9. composition (HSK 7-9)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
常常: cháng cháng — frequently; often (HSK 1)
為了: wèi le — for; for the purpose of; in order to (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
催促: cuī cù — to urge (HSK 7-9)
吃飯: chī fàn — 1. to have a meal 2. to eat 3. to make a living (HSK 1)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
打斷: dǎ duàn — 1. to interrupt 2. to break off 3. to break (a bone) (HSK 6)
即使: jí shǐ — even if; even though (HSK 5)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
怒色: nù sè — 1. angry look 2. glare 3. scowl
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
總是: zǒng shì — always (HSK 3)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
改變: gǎi biàn — 1. to change 2. to alter 3. to transform (HSK 2)
仍然: réng rán — still; as before; yet (HSK 3)
毫無: háo wú — 1. not in the least 2. to completely lack (HSK 7-9)
感觸: gǎn chù — 1. one's thoughts and feelings 2. emotional stirring 3. moved 4. touched (HSK 7-9)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
大: dà — 1. big; large; great 2. older (than another person) 3. eldest (as in 大姐 (dà jiě)) 4. greatly; freely; fully 5. (dialect) father 6. (dialect) uncle (father's brother) (HSK 1)
嚼: jiáo — 1. to chew 2. also pr. (jué) (HSK 7-9)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)

，。It took a full five weeks before I could make her understand that my work could not be bound by set mealtimes.，，。After she understood, she was probably very displeased, but she said nothing.，，，，《》。My work did indeed proceed more quickly after that; before long I had translated fifty thousand words in all, and once I gave it a single polishing, it could be sent off, together with two finished essays, to Freedom's Friend.。Only meals still remained a source of trouble for me.，，；That the dishes were cold did not matter, but there was actually not enough of it;，，。sometimes there was not even enough rice, even though, since I sat at home racking my brains all day, my appetite had already shrunk considerably compared to before.，。This was because it had first gone to feed Ah Sui — sometimes along with the mutton that, of late, even she herself would not readily eat.，，，。She said Ah Sui had grown pitifully thin, and that the landlady had even mocked us for it; she could not bear such taunts.

使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
明白: míng bai — 1. clear; obvious; unequivocal 2. sensible; reasonable 3. to understand; to realize (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
作: zuō — 1. (bound form) worker 2. (bound form) workshop 3. (slang) troublesome; high-maintenance (person) (HSK 6)
工: gōng — 1. work 2. worker 3. skill 4. profession 5. trade 6. craft 7. labor
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
受: shòu — 1. to receive 2. to accept 3. to suffer 4. subjected to 5. to bear 6. to stand 7. pleasant 8. (passive marker) 9. (LGBT) bottom (HSK 3)
規定: guī dìng — 1. to stipulate; to specify; to prescribe; to fix (a price); to set (a quota) 2. regulations; rules; provisions; stipulations (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
吃飯: chī fàn — 1. to have a meal 2. to eat 3. to make a living (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
束縛: shù fù — to bind; to tie up; to fetter; to shackle (HSK 7-9)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
費: Fèi — surname Fei (HSK 3)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
五星: wǔ xīng — the five visible planets, namely: Mercury 水星, Venus 金星, Mars 火星, Jupiter 木星, Saturn 土星
期: qī — 1. a period of time 2. phase 3. stage 4. classifier for issues of a periodical, courses of study 5. time 6. term 7. period 8. to hope 9. Taiwan pr. (qí) (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
明白: míng bai — 1. clear; obvious; unequivocal 2. sensible; reasonable 3. to understand; to realize (HSK 1)
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
大約: dà yuē — 1. approximately 2. probably (HSK 3)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
高興: gāo xìng — 1. happy 2. glad 3. willing (to do sth) 4. in a cheerful mood (HSK 1)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
可是: kě shì — 1. but; however 2. (used for emphasis) indeed (HSK 2)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
工作: gōng zuò — 1. to work 2. (of a machine) to operate 3. job 4. work 5. task 6. classifier: 個 (gè), 份 (fèn), 項 (xiàng) (HSK 1)
果然: guǒ rán — 1. really 2. sure enough 3. as expected 4. if indeed (HSK 3)
從此: cóng cǐ — 1. from now on 2. since then 3. henceforth (HSK 4)
較為: jiào wéi — 1. comparatively 2. relatively 3. fairly
迅速: xùn sù — 1. rapid 2. speedy 3. fast (HSK 4)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
進行: jìn xíng — 1. (of a process etc) to proceed; to be in progress; to be underway 2. (of people) to carry out; to conduct (an investigation or discussion etc) 3. (of an army etc) to be on the march; to advance (HSK 2)
不久: bù jiǔ — 1. not long (after) 2. before too long 3. soon 4. soon after (HSK 2)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
共: gòng — 1. common 2. general 3. to share 4. together 5. total 6. altogether 7. abbr. for 共產黨 (Gòng chǎn dǎng), Communist party (HSK 4)
譯: yì — 1. to translate 2. to interpret (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
五: wǔ — 1. five 2. 5 (HSK 1)
萬: Wàn — surname Wan (HSK 2)
言: yán — 1. words 2. speech 3. to say 4. to talk
只要: zhǐ yào — so long as; provided; if (HSK 2)
潤色: rùn sè — 1. to polish (a piece of writing) 2. to add a few finishing touches to (a piece of writing, painting etc)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
回: Huí — Hui ethnic group (Chinese Muslims) (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
好: hǎo — 1. good 2. appropriate; proper 3. all right! 4. (before a verb) easy to 5. (before a verb) good to 6. (before an adjective for exclamatory effect) so 7. (verb complement indicating completion) 8. (of two people) close; on intimate terms 9. (after a personal pronoun) hello (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
篇: piān — 1. sheet 2. piece of writing 3. bound set of bamboo slips used for record keeping (old) 4. classifier for written items: chapter, article (HSK 2)
小品: xiǎo pǐn — 1. short, simple literary or artistic creation 2. essay 3. skit (HSK 7-9)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
寄: jì — 1. to entrust; to place in sb's care 2. (bound form) to depend on; to attach oneself to; to reside temporarily 3. (bound form) foster (as in 寄女[ji4 nu : 3] foster daughter) 4. to send by post; to mail (HSK 4)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
自由: zì yóu — 1. freedom; liberty 2. free; unrestricted (HSK 2)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
友: yǒu — friend
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
吃飯: chī fàn — 1. to have a meal 2. to eat 3. to make a living (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
依然: yī rán — still; as before (HSK 4)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
苦惱: kǔ nǎo — 1. vexed 2. distressed (HSK 7-9)
菜: cài — 1. vegetable; greens (classifier: 棵 (kē)) 2. dish (of food) (classifier: 樣 (yàng), 道 (dào), 盤 (pán)) 3. (of one's skills etc) weak; poor 4. (coll.) (one's) type (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
無妨: wú fáng — 1. no harm (in doing it) 2. One might as well. 3. It won't hurt. 4. no matter 5. it's no bother
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
不夠: bù gòu — 1. not enough 2. insufficient 3. inadequate (HSK 2)
有時: yǒu shí — 1. sometimes 2. now and then (HSK 1)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
飯: fàn — 1. cooked rice 2. classifier: 碗 (wǎn) 3. meal 4. classifier: 頓 (dùn) 5. (loanword) fan 6. devotee (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不夠: bù gòu — 1. not enough 2. insufficient 3. inadequate (HSK 2)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
終日: zhōng rì — all day long
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
在家: zài jiā — 1. to be at home 2. (at a workplace) to be in (as opposed to being away on official business 出差 (chū chāi)) 3. (Buddhism etc) to remain a layman (as opposed to becoming a monk or a nun 出家 (chū jiā)) (HSK 1)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
用腦: yòng nǎo — to undertake mental work
飯量: fàn liàng — 1. amount of food one eats 2. portion size
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
比: Bǐ — 1. Belgium 2. Belgian 3. abbr. for 比利時 (Bǐ lì shí) (HSK 1)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
減少: jiǎn shǎo — to lessen; to decrease; to reduce; to lower (HSK 4)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
先: xiān — 1. beforehand; first; earlier 2. at first; originally 3. for the time being; for now 4. (prefix) my late (in referring to deceased relatives older than oneself) (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
喂: wéi — hello (when answering the phone) (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
有時: yǒu shí — 1. sometimes 2. now and then (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
並: bìng — 1. and 2. furthermore 3. also 4. together with 5. (not) at all 6. simultaneously 7. to combine 8. to join 9. to merge (HSK 3)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
輕易: qīng yì — 1. easy; simple 2. rashly; offhandedly (HSK 4)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
吃的: chī de — (coll.) food
羊肉: yáng ròu — 1. mutton 2. goat meat
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
實在: shí zài — 1. really 2. actually 3. indeed 4. true 5. real 6. honest 7. dependable 8. (philosophy) reality (HSK 2)
瘦: shòu — 1. thin 2. to lose weight 3. (of clothing) tight 4. (of meat) lean 5. (of land) unproductive (HSK 5)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
太: tài — 1. highest 2. greatest 3. too (much) 4. very 5. extremely (HSK 1)
可憐: kě lián — 1. pitiful 2. pathetic 3. to have pity on (HSK 5)
房東: fáng dōng — landlord (HSK 3)
太太: tài tai — 1. married woman 2. Mrs. 3. Madam 4. wife 5. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi) (HSK 2)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
因此: yīn cǐ — thus; consequently; as a result (HSK 3)
嗤笑: chī xiào — to sneer at
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
受: shòu — 1. to receive 2. to accept 3. to suffer 4. subjected to 5. to bear 6. to stand 7. pleasant 8. (passive marker) 9. (LGBT) bottom (HSK 3)
不住: bù zhù — 1. (verb complement) unable to firmly or securely (grasp, recall etc) 2. repeatedly; continuously; constantly
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
奚落: xī luò — 1. to taunt 2. to ridicule 3. to jeer at 4. to treat coldly 5. to abandon

。And so it was only the chickens who ate what was left of my meal.，「」，：。This I only came to see after a long while, but at the same time, much as Huxley determined "Man's Place in Nature," I became aware of my own place here: somewhere between the pug dog and the chickens.

於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
吃: chī — 1. to eat; to consume 2. to eat at (a cafeteria etc) 3. to eradicate; to destroy 4. to absorb 5. to suffer (shock, injury, defeat etc) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
殘: cán — 1. to destroy 2. to spoil 3. to ruin 4. to injure 5. cruel 6. oppressive 7. savage 8. brutal 9. incomplete 10. disabled 11. to remain 12. to survive 13. remnant 14. surplus (HSK 7-9)
飯: fàn — 1. cooked rice 2. classifier: 碗 (wǎn) 3. meal 4. classifier: 頓 (dùn) 5. (loanword) fan 6. devotee (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
們: men — plural marker for pronouns, and nouns referring to individuals
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
積久: jī jiǔ — to accumulate over time
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
看出: kàn chū — 1. to make out 2. to see (HSK 5)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
同時: tóng shí — at the same time; simultaneously (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
赫胥黎: Hè xū lí — 1. Huxley (name) 2. Thomas Henry Huxley (1825-1895), British evolutionary scientist and champion of Darwin 3. Aldous Huxley (1894-1963), British novelist
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
論定: lùn dìng — 1. to make a definitive judgment 2. to come to a firm conclusion
人類: rén lèi — 1. humanity 2. human race 3. mankind (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
宇宙: yǔ zhòu — universe; cosmos; space (HSK 7-9)
間: jiān — 1. between 2. among 3. within a definite time or space 4. room 5. section of a room or lateral space between two pairs of pillars 6. classifier for rooms (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
位置: wèi zhi — 1. position 2. place 3. seat 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 4)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
自覺: zì jué — 1. to realize; to be aware of; to feel that; to be conscious of (sth relating to oneself) 2. responsible; predisposed to do the right thing; considerate of others (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這裡: zhè lǐ — here (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
位置: wèi zhi — 1. position 2. place 3. seat 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 4)
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
叭: bā — denote a sound or sharp noise (gunfire etc)
兒: ér — 1. child 2. son
狗: gǒu — 1. dog 2. classifier: 隻 (zhī), 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
之間: zhī jiān — 1. (after a noun) between; among; amid 2. (used after certain bisyllabic words to form expressions indicating a short period of time, e.g. 彈指之間 (tán zhǐ zhī jiān)) (HSK 4)

，，，；Later, after repeated protests and urgings, the chickens too gradually became dishes on the table, and for over ten days both Ah Sui and we enjoyed their fresh, fatty meat;，。though in truth they were all quite thin, for by then they had long been getting only a few grains of sorghum a day.。From then on things grew much quieter.，，。Only Zijun grew very despondent, seeming often to feel forlorn and bored, so much so that she was reluctant even to speak.，！I thought: how easily people change!

後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
經: Jīng — surname Jing (HSK 7-9)
多次: duō cì — 1. many times 2. repeatedly (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
抗爭: kàng zhēng — 1. to resist 2. to make a stand and fight (against) (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
催逼: cuī bī — to press (for a payment)
油雞: yóu jī — a variety of chicken
們: men — plural marker for pronouns, and nouns referring to individuals
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
逐漸: zhú jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
成為: chéng wéi — to become; to turn into (HSK 2)
餚: yáo — variant of 肴 (yáo)
饌: zhuàn — 1. food 2. delicacies
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
享用: xiǎng yòng — to enjoy (i.e. have the use or benefit of)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
十: shí — 1. ten 2. 10 (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
日: rì — 1. (bound form) sun 2. day 3. day of the month 4. (bound form) Japan (abbr. for 日本 (Rì běn)) 5. (vulgar) to fuck; to have sex with (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
鮮: xiān — 1. fresh 2. bright (in color) 3. delicious 4. tasty 5. delicacy 6. aquatic foods (HSK 4)
肥: féi — 1. fat 2. fertile 3. loose-fitting or large 4. to fertilize 5. to become rich by illegal means 6. fertilizer 7. manure (HSK 4)
可是: kě shì — 1. but; however 2. (used for emphasis) indeed (HSK 2)
其實: qí shí — actually; in fact; really (HSK 3)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
瘦: shòu — 1. thin 2. to lose weight 3. (of clothing) tight 4. (of meat) lean 5. (of land) unproductive (HSK 5)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
它們: tā men — they; them (HSK 2)
早已: zǎo yǐ — 1. for a long time; long since 2. (dialect) in the past (HSK 3)
每日: měi rì — 1. daily 2. (soup etc) of the day
只能: zhǐ néng — 1. can only 2. obliged to do sth 3. to have no other choice (HSK 2)
得到: dé dào — to get; to obtain; to receive (HSK 1)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
粒: lì — 1. grain; granule; pellet; particle 2. classifier for small round objects (peas, bullets, peanuts, pills, grains etc) 3. (Tw) classifier for larger round objects (watermelon etc) (HSK 7-9)
高粱: gāo liáng — 1. sorghum 2. common sorghum (Sorghum vulgare)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
從此: cóng cǐ — 1. from now on 2. since then 3. henceforth (HSK 4)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
清靜: qīng jìng — 1. quiet 2. peaceful and quiet (HSK 7-9)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
頹唐: tuí táng — 1. dispirited 2. depressed
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
常: Cháng — surname Chang (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
凄苦: qī kǔ — bleak; miserable
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
無聊: wú liáo — 1. bored 2. boring 3. senseless (HSK 4)
至於: zhì yú — 1. as for 2. as to 3. to go so far as to (HSK 6)
不大: bù dà — 1. not very (clear, far away etc); not too 2. not often; infrequently (HSK 1)
願意: yuàn yì — 1. to wish 2. to want 3. ready 4. willing (to do sth) (HSK 2)
開口: kāi kǒu — 1. to open one's mouth 2. to start to talk (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
多麼: duō me — 1. how (wonderful etc) 2. what (a great idea etc) 3. however (difficult it may be etc) 4. (in interrogative sentences) how (much etc) 5. to what extent (HSK 2)
容易: róng yì — 1. easy; straightforward 2. likely; liable to; apt to (HSK 3)
改變: gǎi biàn — 1. to change 2. to alter 3. to transform (HSK 2)
呵: ā — variant of 啊 (ā)

。But even Ah Sui could not be kept much longer.，。We could no longer hope for a letter to come from anywhere, and Zijun, too, had long had no scrap of food left with which to coax it into bowing or standing up on its hind legs.，；Winter, too, was closing in so fast that the stove was about to become a serious problem;，。its appetite had, in truth, long since become a heavy burden we could all too easily feel.。And so even it could not be kept.

但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
留: liú — 1. to leave (a message etc) 2. to retain 3. to stay 4. to remain 5. to keep 6. to preserve (HSK 2)
不住: bù zhù — 1. (verb complement) unable to firmly or securely (grasp, recall etc) 2. repeatedly; continuously; constantly
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
再: zài — 1. again; once more; re- 2. further; beyond this point of time 3. (before an adjective) more 4. then (after sth, and not until then) 5. no matter how ... (followed by an adjective or verb, and then (usually) 也 (yě) or 都 (dōu) for emphasis) 6. (used to introduce additional information, as in 再則 (zài zé), 再就是 (zài jiù shì) etc) 7. (literary) to reappear; to reoccur (HSK 1)
希望: xī wàng — 1. to hope 2. a hope; a wish (HSK 3)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
什麼地方: shén me dì fang — 1. somewhere 2. someplace 3. where
會: huì — 1. can; to have the skill; to know how to 2. to be likely to; to be sure to 3. to meet; to get together 4. meeting; gathering 5. (suffix) union; group; association 6. (bound form) a moment (Taiwan pr. (huǐ)) (HSK 1)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
來信: lái xìn — 1. incoming letter 2. to send us a letter (HSK 5)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
早: zǎo — 1. early 2. morning 3. Good morning! 4. long ago 5. prematurely (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
食物: shí wù — food (HSK 2)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
引: yǐn — 1. to draw (e.g. a bow) 2. to pull 3. to stretch sth 4. to extend 5. to lengthen 6. to involve or implicate in 7. to attract 8. to lead 9. to guide 10. to leave 11. to provide evidence or justification for 12. old unit of distance equal to 10 丈 (zhàng), one-thirtieth of a km or 33.33 meters (HSK 4)
它: tā — it (HSK 2)
打拱: dǎ gǒng — to bow with clasped hands
或: huò — 1. maybe 2. perhaps 3. might 4. possibly 5. or (HSK 2)
直立: zhí lì — 1. erect 2. upright 3. vertical
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
冬季: dōng jì — winter (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
逼近: bī jìn — 1. to press on towards 2. to close in on 3. to approach 4. to draw near (HSK 7-9)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
這麼: zhè me — 1. so much 2. this much 3. how much? 4. this way 5. like this (HSK 2)
快: kuài — 1. rapid 2. quick 3. speed 4. rate 5. soon 6. almost 7. to make haste 8. clever 9. sharp (of knives or wits) 10. forthright 11. plainspoken 12. gratified 13. pleased 14. pleasant (HSK 1)
火爐: huǒ lú — stove
就要: jiù yào — 1. will 2. shall 3. to be going to (HSK 2)
成為: chéng wéi — to become; to turn into (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
大: dà — 1. big; large; great 2. older (than another person) 3. eldest (as in 大姐 (dà jiě)) 4. greatly; freely; fully 5. (dialect) father 6. (dialect) uncle (father's brother) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
問題: wèn tí — 1. question 2. problem 3. issue 4. topic 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
它: tā — it (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
食量: shí liàng — quantity of food one eats; food intake
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
其實: qí shí — actually; in fact; really (HSK 3)
早: zǎo — 1. early 2. morning 3. Good morning! 4. long ago 5. prematurely (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
極: jí — 1. extremely 2. pole (geography, physics) 3. utmost 4. top (HSK 4)
易: Yì — 1. surname Yi 2. I Ching; Book of Changes (abbr. for 易經 (Yì jīng))
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
重: chóng — 1. to repeat 2. repetition 3. again 4. re- 5. classifier: layer (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
負擔: fù dān — 1. to bear (an expense, a responsibility etc) 2. burden (HSK 4)
於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
它: tā — it (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
留: liú — 1. to leave (a message etc) 2. to retain 3. to stay 4. to remain 5. to keep 6. to preserve (HSK 2)
不住: bù zhù — 1. (verb complement) unable to firmly or securely (grasp, recall etc) 2. repeatedly; continuously; constantly
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，，，。Had we stuck a straw marker in it and taken it to the temple market to sell, we might perhaps have gotten a few coppers for it, but neither of us could bring ourselves to do such a thing, nor did we wish to.，，，。In the end, I covered its head with a cloth bundle and took it out to the western outskirts to let it go; when it tried to follow after me, I pushed it into a pit in the ground that was not very deep.

倘: cháng — used in 倘佯 (cháng yáng)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
插: chā — 1. to insert 2. stick in 3. pierce 4. to take part in 5. to interfere 6. to interpose (HSK 5)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
草標: cǎo biāo — (old) sign made of woven weeds, placed on an object, an animal or a person, indicating that it is for sale.
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
廟: miào — 1. temple 2. ancestral shrine 3. classifier: 座 (zuò) 4. temple fair 5. great imperial hall 6. imperial (HSK 7-9)
市: shì — 1. market 2. city 3. municipality (administrative unit) 4. (literary) to trade; to buy and sell goods (HSK 2)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
出賣: chū mài — 1. to offer for sale; to sell 2. to sell out; to betray (HSK 7-9)
也許: yě xǔ — perhaps; maybe (HSK 2)
能: Néng — surname Neng (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
文: Wén — surname Wen (HSK 7-9)
錢: Qián — surname Qian (HSK 1)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不願: bù yuàn — unwilling
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
包袱: bāo fu — 1. wrapping cloth 2. a bundle wrapped in cloth 3. load 4. weight 5. burden 6. funny part 7. punchline (HSK 7-9)
蒙: Méng — surname Meng (HSK 6)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
頭: tóu — 1. head 2. hair style 3. the top 4. end 5. beginning or end 6. a stub 7. remnant 8. chief 9. boss 10. side 11. aspect 12. first 13. leading 14. classifier for pigs or livestock 15. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
由: yóu — 1. to follow 2. from 3. because of; due to 4. by; via; through 5. (before a noun and a verb) it is for ... to ... (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
帶: dài — 1. band 2. belt 3. girdle 4. ribbon 5. tire 6. area 7. zone 8. region 9. classifier: 條 (tiáo) 10. to wear 11. to carry 12. to take along 13. to bear (i.e. to have) 14. to lead 15. to bring 16. to look after 17. to raise (HSK 2)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
西: Xī — 1. the West 2. abbr. for Spain 西班牙 (Xī bān yá) 3. Spanish (HSK 1)
郊: Jiāo — surname Jiao
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
放: fàng — 1. to put 2. to place 3. to release 4. to free 5. to let go 6. to let out 7. to set off (fireworks) (HSK 1)
掉: diào — 1. to fall 2. to drop 3. to lag behind 4. to lose 5. to go missing 6. to reduce 7. fall (in prices) 8. to lose (value, weight etc) 9. to wag 10. to swing 11. to turn 12. to change 13. to exchange 14. to swap 15. to show off 16. to shed (hair) 17. (used after certain verbs to express completion, fulfillment, removal etc) (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
追上: zhuī shàng — to overtake
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
推: tuī — 1. to push 2. to cut 3. to refuse 4. to reject 5. to decline 6. to shirk (responsibility) 7. to put off 8. to delay 9. to push forward 10. to nominate 11. to elect 12. massage (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
深: shēn — (lit. and fig.) deep (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
土: Tǔ — 1. surname Tu 2. Tu ethnic group (HSK 3)
坑: kēng — 1. pit; hollow; depression 2. (mining) pit; shaft; tunnel 3. (literary) to bury alive 4. (coll.) to cheat; to scam; to screw over (HSK 7-9)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)

，；As soon as I got back to our lodgings, I felt things had grown far quieter still;，。but the wretched look on Zijun's face startled me greatly.，。It was an expression I had never seen before, and it was, of course, on account of Ah Sui.？But why should it have come to this?。I had not yet even told her about pushing it into the pit.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
回: Huí — Hui ethnic group (Chinese Muslims) (HSK 1)
寓: yù — 1. (bound form) to reside; to inhabit 2. (bound form) residence; dwelling 3. (bound form) to imply; to place; to contain (sth abstract)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
清靜: qīng jìng — 1. quiet 2. peaceful and quiet (HSK 7-9)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多多: duō duō — 1. many 2. much 3. a lot 4. lots and lots 5. more 6. even more
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
凄: qī — 1. intense cold 2. frigid 3. dismal 4. grim 5. bleak 6. sad 7. mournful 8. also written 淒 (qī)
慘: cǎn — 1. miserable 2. wretched 3. cruel 4. inhuman 5. disastrous 6. tragic 7. dim 8. gloomy (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
吃驚: chī jīng — 1. to be startled 2. to be shocked 3. to be amazed (HSK 4)
那是: nà shi — 1. (coll.) of course 2. naturally 3. indeed
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
為: wéi — 1. as (in the capacity of) 2. to take sth as 3. to act as 4. to serve as 5. to behave as 6. to become 7. to be 8. to do 9. by (in the passive voice) (HSK 2)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
何: Hé — surname He
至於: zhì yú — 1. as for 2. as to 3. to go so far as to (HSK 6)
此: cǐ — this; these (HSK 4)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
說起: shuō qǐ — 1. to mention 2. to bring up (a subject) 3. with regard to 4. as for
推: tuī — 1. to push 2. to cut 3. to refuse 4. to reject 5. to decline 6. to shirk (responsibility) 7. to put off 8. to delay 9. to push forward 10. to nominate 11. to elect 12. massage (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
土: Tǔ — 1. surname Tu 2. Tu ethnic group (HSK 3)
坑: kēng — 1. pit; hollow; depression 2. (mining) pit; shaft; tunnel 3. (literary) to bury alive 4. (coll.) to cheat; to scam; to screw over (HSK 7-9)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)

，，。By nighttime, to that wretched look of hers was added a note of icy coldness.

到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
夜間: yè jiān — 1. nighttime 2. evening or night (e.g. classes) (HSK 5)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
凄: qī — 1. intense cold 2. frigid 3. dismal 4. grim 5. bleak 6. sad 7. mournful 8. also written 淒 (qī)
慘: cǎn — 1. miserable 2. wretched 3. cruel 4. inhuman 5. disastrous 6. tragic 7. dim 8. gloomy (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
加上: jiā shàng — 1. plus 2. to put in 3. to add 4. to add on 5. to add into 6. in addition 7. on top of that (HSK 5)
冰冷: bīng lěng — ice-cold
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
分子: fēn zǐ — 1. (chemistry) molecule 2. (math.) numerator of a fraction
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

「。——，？」。"How strange. — Zijun, why are you like this today?" I could not help asking.

「？」。"What?" She did not even look at me.

「……。」"Your expression…"

「，——。」"It's nothing — nothing at all."

，。At last I could tell, from her words and manner, that she must have concluded I was a hard-hearted man.，，，，，，，，。In truth, on my own, I could live easily enough; though out of pride I had never kept up with family friends, and since moving I had grown distant from all my old acquaintances as well, still, so long as I could fly far away, the road ahead remained wide open.，，，。That I now endured the pain of this life's pressures was, for the most part, for her sake — and letting Ah Sui go had been no different.，。But Zijun's understanding seemed only to grow shallower, so much so that she could not even grasp this much.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
言: yán — 1. words 2. speech 3. to say 4. to talk
動: dòng — 1. (of sth) to move 2. to set in movement 3. to displace 4. to touch 5. to make use of 6. to stir (emotions) 7. to alter 8. abbr. for 動詞 (dòng cí), verb (HSK 1)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
看出: kàn chū — 1. to make out 2. to see (HSK 5)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
大概: dà gài — 1. roughly 2. probably 3. rough 4. approximate 5. about 6. general idea (HSK 3)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
認定: rèn dìng — 1. to maintain (that sth is true) 2. to determine (a fact) 3. determination (of an amount) 4. of the firm opinion 5. to believe firmly 6. to set one's mind on 7. to identify with (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
忍心: rěn xīn — 1. to have the heart to do sth 2. to steel oneself to a task (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
其實: qí shí — actually; in fact; really (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一個人: yī gè rén — 1. by oneself (without assistance) 2. alone (without company)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
容易: róng yì — 1. easy; straightforward 2. likely; liable to; apt to (HSK 3)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
驕傲: jiāo ào — 1. pride 2. arrogance 3. conceited 4. proud of sth (HSK 6)
向來: xiàng lái — always (previously) (HSK 7-9)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
與: yú — variant of 歟 (yú) (HSK 6)
世交: shì jiāo — (long time) friend of the family
來往: lái wǎng — 1. to come and go 2. to have dealings with 3. to be in relation with (HSK 6)
遷居: qiān jū — to move (from one residence to another)
以後: yǐ hòu — 1. after 2. later 3. afterwards 4. following 5. later on 6. in the future (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
疏遠: shū yuǎn — 1. to drift apart 2. to become estranged 3. to alienate 4. estrangement
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
所有: suǒ yǒu — 1. all 2. to have; to possess; to own (HSK 2)
舊識: jiù shí — 1. former acquaintance 2. old friend
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
只要: zhǐ yào — so long as; provided; if (HSK 2)
能: Néng — surname Neng (HSK 1)
遠走高飛: yuǎn zǒu gāo fēi — (idiom) to go far away; to flee to a distant place
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
寬廣: kuān guǎng — 1. wide 2. broad 3. extensive 4. vast (HSK 4)
得很: de hěn — (after an adjective) very
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
忍受: rěn shòu — to bear; to endure (HSK 5)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
壓迫: yā pò — 1. to oppress 2. to repress 3. to constrict 4. oppression 5. stress (physics) (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
苦痛: kǔ tòng — 1. pain 2. suffering
大半: dà bàn — 1. more than half 2. greater part 3. most 4. probably 5. most likely
倒是: dào shi — 1. contrary to what one might expect 2. actually 3. contrariwise 4. why don't you (HSK 5)
為: wéi — 1. as (in the capacity of) 2. to take sth as 3. to act as 4. to serve as 5. to behave as 6. to become 7. to be 8. to do 9. by (in the passive voice) (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
放: fàng — 1. to put 2. to place 3. to release 4. to free 5. to let go 6. to let out 7. to set off (fireworks) (HSK 1)
掉: diào — 1. to fall 2. to drop 3. to lag behind 4. to lose 5. to go missing 6. to reduce 7. fall (in prices) 8. to lose (value, weight etc) 9. to wag 10. to swing 11. to turn 12. to change 13. to exchange 14. to swap 15. to show off 16. to shed (hair) 17. (used after certain verbs to express completion, fulfillment, removal etc) (HSK 2)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
何嘗: hé cháng — 1. (rhetorical question) when? 2. how? 3. it's not that...
不如: bù rú — 1. not equal to; not as good as; inferior to 2. it would be better to (HSK 2)
此: cǐ — this; these (HSK 4)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
識見: shí jiàn — knowledge and experience
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
淺薄: qiǎn bó — superficial
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
至於: zhì yú — 1. as for 2. as to 3. to go so far as to (HSK 6)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
想不到: xiǎng bu dào — 1. unexpected 2. hard to imagine 3. it had not occurred to me 4. who could have thought that (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，；I chose an opportunity to hint at these reasons to her;。she nodded as though she understood.，，。But judging from how she behaved afterward, she either had not understood, or simply did not believe it.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
揀: jiǎn — 1. to choose 2. to pick 3. to sort out 4. to pick up (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
機會: jī huì — 1. opportunity 2. chance 3. occasion 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
這些: zhè xiē — these (HSK 1)
道理: dào li — 1. reason 2. argument 3. sense 4. principle 5. basis 6. justification 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
暗示: àn shì — 1. to hint; to suggest 2. hint; suggestion (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
領會: lǐng huì — 1. to understand 2. to comprehend 3. to grasp (HSK 7-9)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
點頭: diǎn tóu — to nod (HSK 2)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
後來: hòu lái — 1. afterwards; later 2. newly arrived (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
情形: qíng xing — circumstances; situation; state of affairs (HSK 5)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
懂: dǒng — 1. to understand 2. to comprehend (HSK 2)
或者: huò zhě — 1. or 2. possibly; maybe; perhaps (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
相信: xiāng xìn — to believe; to be convinced; to accept as true (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，。The cold of the weather and the cold of her expression together made it impossible for me to find peace at home.，？But where was I to go?，，，。On the main roads, in the parks, though there were no icy looks to meet, the cold wind still cut at one's skin as though it would split it open.。In the end I found my paradise in the public library.

天氣: tiān qì — weather (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
神情: shén qíng — look; expression (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
逼迫: bī pò — 1. to force 2. to compel 3. to coerce (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
在家: zài jiā — 1. to be at home 2. (at a workplace) to be in (as opposed to being away on official business 出差 (chū chāi)) 3. (Buddhism etc) to remain a layman (as opposed to becoming a monk or a nun 出家 (chū jiā)) (HSK 1)
庭: tíng — 1. main hall 2. front courtyard 3. law court
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
安身: ān shēn — 1. to make one's home 2. to take shelter
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
往: wǎng — 1. to go (in a direction) 2. to 3. towards 4. (of a train) bound for 5. past 6. previous (HSK 2)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
大道: dà dào — 1. main street 2. avenue (HSK 6)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
公園: gōng yuán — 1. park (for public recreation) 2. classifier: 座 (zuò) (HSK 2)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
冰冷: bīng lěng — ice-cold
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神情: shén qíng — look; expression (HSK 5)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
風: fēng — 1. wind 2. news 3. style 4. custom 5. manner 6. classifier: 陣 (zhèn), 絲 (sī) (HSK 1)
究竟: jiū jìng — 1. to go to the bottom of a matter 2. after all 3. when all is said and done 4. (in an interrogative sentence) finally 5. outcome 6. result (HSK 4)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
刺: cī — (onom.) whoosh (HSK 4)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
皮膚: pí fū — 1. skin 2. classifier: 層 (céng), 塊 (kuài) (HSK 5)
欲: yù — 1. to wish for 2. to desire 3. variant of 慾 (yù)
裂: liè — 1. to split 2. to crack 3. to break open 4. to rend (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
通俗: tōng sú — 1. common 2. everyday 3. average (HSK 7-9)
圖書館: tú shū guǎn — 1. library 2. classifier: 家 (jiā), 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
覓: mì — 1. (literary) to seek 2. to find
得了: dé le — 1. all right! 2. that's enough! (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
天堂: tiān táng — 1. paradise 2. heaven (HSK 6)

；There one needed no ticket;。and the reading room besides had two iron stoves installed in it.，，。Even though the stoves burned nothing but coal that was neither quite dead nor quite alive, merely seeing them installed there gave one a certain sense of warmth in spirit.：，。As for books, there was nothing worth reading: the old ones were stale, and there were almost no new ones at all.

那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
無須: wú xū — 1. need not 2. not obliged to 3. not necessarily (HSK 7-9)
買票: mǎi piào — 1. to buy tickets 2. (Tw) to buy votes (in an election)
閱: yuè — 1. to inspect 2. to review 3. to read 4. to peruse 5. to go through 6. to experience
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
室: Shì — surname Shi (HSK 3)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
裝: zhuāng — 1. adornment 2. to adorn 3. dress 4. clothing 5. costume (of an actor in a play) 6. to play a role 7. to pretend 8. to install 9. to fix 10. to wrap (sth in a bag) 11. to load 12. to pack (HSK 2)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
個: gě — used in 自個兒 (zì gě r) (HSK 1)
鐵: Tiě — surname Tie (HSK 3)
火爐: huǒ lú — stove
縱使: zòng shǐ — 1. even if 2. even though
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
燒: shāo — 1. to burn; to set on fire 2. to heat (over a fire); to boil (water, tea etc) 3. to braise 4. to cook; to prepare food 5. to run a fever 6. fever 7. (coll.) to become full of oneself; to get carried away (HSK 4)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
活: huó — 1. to live 2. alive 3. living 4. work 5. workmanship (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
煤: méi — 1. coal 2. classifier: 塊 (kuài) (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
火爐: huǒ lú — stove
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
單: Shàn — surname Shan (HSK 4)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
裝: zhuāng — 1. adornment 2. to adorn 3. dress 4. clothing 5. costume (of an actor in a play) 6. to play a role 7. to pretend 8. to install 9. to fix 10. to wrap (sth in a bag) 11. to load 12. to pack (HSK 2)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
它: tā — it (HSK 2)
精神: jīng shén — 1. spirit 2. mind 3. consciousness 4. thought 5. mental 6. psychological 7. essence 8. gist 9. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
總: zǒng — 1. (bound form) general; overall 2. to sum up 3. in every case; always; invariably 4. anyway; after all; eventually; sooner or later 5. surely 6. (after a person's name) abbr. for 總經理 (zǒng jīng lǐ) or 總編 (zǒng biān) etc (HSK 3)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
有些: yǒu xiē — 1. some 2. somewhat; rather; a bit
溫暖: wēn nuǎn — warm (HSK 3)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
無可: wú kě — can't
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
舊: jiù — 1. old 2. opposite: new 新 3. former 4. worn (with age) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
陳腐: chén fǔ — 1. trite 2. clichéd 3. empty and trite 4. banality 5. platitude
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
幾乎: jī hū — almost; nearly; practically (HSK 4)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

。Fortunately, I had not gone there to read anyway.，，，，，。Besides myself there were often a few other people, at most a dozen or so, all in thin clothing just as I was, each reading his own book as a pretext for keeping warm.。This suited me particularly well.，，，，。On the streets one might easily run into an acquaintance and receive a scornful glance, but here there was never any such misfortune to fear, for they were forever gathered round some other iron stove, or leaning by their own white one at home.

好在: hǎo zài — 1. luckily 2. fortunately (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
並非: bìng fēi — really isn't (HSK 7-9)
為: wéi — 1. as (in the capacity of) 2. to take sth as 3. to act as 4. to serve as 5. to behave as 6. to become 7. to be 8. to do 9. by (in the passive voice) (HSK 2)
看書: kàn shū — 1. to read 2. to study
另外: lìng wài — 1. additional 2. in addition 3. besides 4. separate 5. other 6. moreover 7. furthermore (HSK 3)
時常: shí cháng — often; frequently (HSK 5)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
幾個: jǐ ge — 1. a few 2. several 3. how many
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
則: zé — 1. (literary) (conjunction used to express contrast with a previous clause) but; then 2. (bound form) standard; norm 3. (bound form) principle 4. (literary) to imitate; to follow 5. classifier for written items (HSK 7-9)
十: shí — 1. ten 2. 10 (HSK 1)
餘: yú — 1. extra 2. surplus 3. remaining 4. remainder after division 5. (following numerical value) or more 6. in excess of (some number) 7. residue (math.) 8. after 9. I 10. me (HSK 7-9)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
單薄: dān bó — 1. weak 2. frail 3. thin 4. flimsy (HSK 7-9)
衣裳: yī shang — (coll.) clothes
正如: zhèng rú — 1. just as 2. precisely as (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
各人: gè rén — each one; everyone
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
各人: gè rén — each one; everyone
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
作為: zuò wéi — 1. one's conduct 2. deed 3. activity 4. accomplishment 5. achievement 6. to act as 7. as (in the capacity of) 8. qua 9. to view as 10. to look upon (sth as) 11. to take sth to be (HSK 4)
取暖: qǔ nuǎn — to warm oneself (by a fire, heater etc) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
口實: kǒu shí — 1. food 2. salary (old) 3. a pretext 4. a cause for gossip
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
尤為: yóu wéi — especially (HSK 7-9)
合式: hé shì — 1. conforming to a pattern; up to standard 2. variant of 合適 (hé shì)
道路: dào lù — 1. road 2. path 3. way 4. classifier: 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
容易: róng yì — 1. easy; straightforward 2. likely; liable to; apt to (HSK 3)
遇見: yù jiàn — to meet (HSK 4)
熟人: shú rén — 1. acquaintance 2. friend (HSK 3)
得到: dé dào — to get; to obtain; to receive (HSK 1)
輕蔑: qīng miè — 1. scornful; disdainful; contemptuous; pejorative 2. disdain; contempt (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一瞥: yī piē — 1. glance 2. glimpse
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
此地: cǐ dì — 1. here 2. this place
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
決: jué — 1. to decide 2. to determine 3. to execute (sb) 4. (of a dam etc) to breach or burst 5. definitely 6. certainly
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
那樣: nà yàng — 1. that kind 2. that sort (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
橫禍: hèng huò — unexpected calamity
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
他們: tā men — they; them (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
永遠: yǒng yuǎn — 1. forever 2. eternal (HSK 2)
圍: Wéi — surname Wei (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
別的: bié de — 1. else 2. other (HSK 1)
鐵: Tiě — surname Tie (HSK 3)
爐: lú — 1. stove 2. furnace
旁: páng — 1. one side 2. other 3. different 4. lateral component of a Chinese character (such as 刂 (dāo), 亻 (rén) etc) (HSK 5)
或者: huò zhě — 1. or 2. possibly; maybe; perhaps (HSK 2)
靠: kào — 1. to lean against or on 2. to stand by the side of 3. to come near to 4. to depend on 5. to trust 6. to fuck (vulgar) 7. traditional military costume drama where the performers wear armor (old) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
自家: zì jiā — 1. oneself 2. one's own family
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
白: Bái — 1. surname Bai 2. Bai ethnic group (HSK 1)
爐邊: lú biān — fireside
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，。Though there was no book there worth my reading, there was still a peaceful leisure that allowed me to think.，，，，——，——。Sitting there alone, in dry stillness, recalling the past, it was only then that I realized that for more than half a year I had, for the sake of love alone — blind love — utterly neglected every other essential matter of life.，。The first of these was livelihood.，。A person must first live, before love has anything to attach itself to.；The world is not without a path open to those who struggle on;，……。and I too had not yet forgotten how to beat my wings, though I had grown far more despondent than before…

那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
安閑: ān xián — 1. at one's ease 2. carefree
容: Róng — surname Rong
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
待: dāi — to stay; to remain (HSK 5)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
孤身: gū shēn — 1. alone 2. lonely
枯: kū — 1. (of plants) withered 2. (of wells, rivers etc) dried up 3. (bound form) dull; boring 4. (bound form) residue of pressed oilseeds
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
回憶: huí yì — 1. to recall 2. memories 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 5)
從前: cóng qián — 1. previously 2. formerly 3. once upon a time (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
大半: dà bàn — 1. more than half 2. greater part 3. most 4. probably 5. most likely
年來: nián lái — 1. this past year 2. over the last years
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
為了: wèi le — for; for the purpose of; in order to (HSK 3)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
盲目: máng mù — (fig.) (of one's actions) blind; unthinking (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
別的: bié de — 1. else 2. other (HSK 1)
人生: rén shēng — life (one's time on earth) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
要義: yào yì — the essentials
全盤: quán pán — 1. overall 2. comprehensive
疏忽: shū hu — 1. to neglect 2. to overlook 3. negligence 4. carelessness (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
第一: dì yī — 1. first 2. most important; primary; foremost
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
必: bì — 1. certainly 2. must 3. will 4. necessarily (HSK 5)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
愛才: ài cái — to value talent; to cherish talented people
有所: yǒu suǒ — 1. somewhat 2. to some extent (HSK 7-9)
附: fù — 1. to add; to attach 2. to be close to; to be attached (HSK 7-9)
麗: Lí — Korea
世界: shì jiè — world (HSK 3)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
並非: bìng fēi — really isn't (HSK 7-9)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
為了: wèi le — for; for the purpose of; in order to (HSK 3)
奮鬥: fèn dòu — to strive; to struggle (HSK 4)
者: zhě — 1. (after a verb or adjective) one who (is) ... 2. (after a noun) person involved in ... 3. -er 4. -ist 5. (used after a number or 後 (hòu) or 前 (qián) to refer to sth mentioned previously) 6. (used after a term, to mark a pause before defining the term) 7. (old) (used at the end of a command) 8. (old) this
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
開: kāi — 1. to open (transitive or intransitive) 2. (of ships, vehicles, troops etc) to start 3. to turn on; to put in operation; to operate; to run 4. to boil 5. to write out (a prescription, check, invoice etc) 6. (directional complement) away; off 7. carat (gold) 8. abbr. for Kelvin, 開爾文 (Kāi ěr wén) 9. abbr. for 開本 (kāi běn), book format (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
活路: huó lù — 1. through road 2. way out 3. way to survive 4. means of subsistence
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
未: wèi — 1. not yet 2. did not 3. have not 4. not 5. 8th earthly branch: 1-3 p.m., 6th solar month (7th July-6th August), year of the Sheep 6. ancient Chinese compass point: 210° (HSK 7-9)
忘卻: wàng què — to forget
翅子: chì zi — 1. shark's fin 2. wing 3. classifier: 隻 (zhī)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
扇動: shān dòng — 1. to fan 2. to flap 3. to incite 4. to instigate (a strike etc)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
比: Bǐ — 1. Belgium 2. Belgian 3. abbr. for 比利時 (Bǐ lì shí) (HSK 1)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
頹唐: tuí táng — 1. dispirited 2. depressed
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)

，，，，，，，……。The room and the other readers gradually faded away, and I saw a fisherman amid raging waves, a soldier in the trenches, a nobleman in his motorcar, a speculator on the foreign concessions' exchange, a hero deep in the mountain forests, a professor on the lecture platform, an activist moving under cover of dusk, and a thief in the depths of night…，——。Zijun — was not there beside me.，，；She had lost all her courage, grieving and indignant only over Ah Sui, lost in a daze only over the cooking of meals;……。and yet, strangely enough, she had not grown very much thinner for it…

屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
讀者: dú zhě — reader (HSK 3)
漸漸: jiàn jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
消失: xiāo shī — to disappear; to fade away (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
怒: Nù — Nu ethnic group
濤: tāo — 1. big wave 2. Taiwan pr. (táo)
中的: zhòng dì — 1. to hit the target 2. (fig.) to hit the nail on the head
漁夫: yú fū — fisherman
戰壕: zhàn háo — 1. trench 2. entrenchment
中的: zhòng dì — 1. to hit the target 2. (fig.) to hit the nail on the head
兵士: bīng shì — ordinary soldier
摩托車: mó tuō chē — 1. (loanword) motorbike; motorcycle 2. classifier: 輛 (liàng), 部 (bù)
中的: zhòng dì — 1. to hit the target 2. (fig.) to hit the nail on the head
貴人: guì rén — 1. nobility 2. person of high rank
洋場: yáng chǎng — (old) foreign concession
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
投機: tóu jī — 1. congenial; agreeable 2. to speculate; to profiteer (HSK 7-9)
家: jiā — 1. home 2. family 3. (polite) my (sister, uncle etc) 4. classifier for families or businesses 5. refers to the philosophical schools of pre-Han China 6. noun suffix for a specialist in some activity, such as a musician or revolutionary, corresponding to English -ist, -er, -ary or -ian 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
深山: shēn shān — deep in the mountains
密林: mì lín — jungle
中的: zhòng dì — 1. to hit the target 2. (fig.) to hit the nail on the head
豪傑: háo jié — 1. hero 2. towering figure
講臺: jiǎng tái — 1. platform; podium; rostrum 2. lectern 3. (teacher's) desk
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
教授: jiào shòu — 1. professor 2. to instruct 3. to lecture on 4. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi) (HSK 4)
昏: hūn — 1. muddle-headed 2. twilight 3. to faint 4. to lose consciousness (HSK 6)
夜: yè — night (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
運動: yùn dòng — 1. to move 2. to exercise 3. sports 4. exercise 5. motion 6. movement 7. campaign 8. classifier: 場 (chǎng) (HSK 2)
者: zhě — 1. (after a verb or adjective) one who (is) ... 2. (after a noun) person involved in ... 3. -er 4. -ist 5. (used after a number or 後 (hòu) or 前 (qián) to refer to sth mentioned previously) 6. (used after a term, to mark a pause before defining the term) 7. (old) (used at the end of a command) 8. (old) this
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
深夜: shēn yè — very late at night (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
偷: tōu — 1. to steal 2. to pilfer 3. to snatch 4. thief 5. stealthily (HSK 5)
兒: ér — 1. child 2. son
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
不在: bù zài — 1. not to be present 2. to be out 3. (euphemism) to pass away 4. to be deceased
近: jìn — 1. near 2. close to 3. approximately (HSK 2)
旁: páng — 1. one side 2. other 3. different 4. lateral component of a Chinese character (such as 刂 (dāo), 亻 (rén) etc) (HSK 5)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
勇氣: yǒng qì — courage (HSK 4)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
失掉: shī diào — 1. to lose 2. to miss
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
為著: wèi zhe — 1. in order to 2. because of 3. for the sake of
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
悲憤: bēi fèn — grief and indignation
為著: wèi zhe — 1. in order to 2. because of 3. for the sake of
做飯: zuò fàn — 1. to prepare a meal 2. to cook (HSK 2)
出神: chū shén — 1. spellbound 2. entranced 3. lost in thought
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
奇怪: qí guài — 1. strange 2. odd 3. to marvel 4. to be baffled (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
倒: dǎo — 1. to fall; to collapse; to lie horizontally 2. to fail; to go bankrupt 3. to overthrow 4. to change (trains or buses) 5. to move around 6. to resell at a profit (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
並不: bìng bù — not at all; by no means
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
瘦: shòu — 1. thin 2. to lose weight 3. (of clothing) tight 4. (of meat) lean 5. (of land) unproductive (HSK 5)
損: sǔn — 1. (bound form) to decrease; to diminish 2. (bound form) to harm; to damage 3. (coll.) to ridicule; to deride 4. (coll.) mean; nasty; sarcastic (HSK 7-9)

，，，。The cold set in again; the few lumps of hard coal in the stove, neither quite dead nor quite alive, at last burned out — it was already closing time.，。Once more I had to go back to Jizhao Hutong, to face that icy look again.，。Of late I did occasionally meet with a warmer expression, but this only added to my suffering instead.，，，。I remember one night, Zijun's eyes suddenly lit up again with a childlike gleam I had not seen in a long while, and, smiling, she talked with me of how things had been back at the hostel, though every so often a look of fear would cross her face.，，，。I knew that my coldness of late, greater even than her own, had already stirred up her anxious suspicion, and so I too forced myself to talk and laugh, hoping to give her some small comfort.，，，，，。Yet the moment a smile came to my face, the moment the words left my mouth, they turned at once hollow, and this hollowness at once echoed back into my own ears and eyes, giving me a mortifying, malicious mockery of myself.，，，，。Zijun seemed to sense this too, and from then on lost that numb sort of composure she used to have; though she tried her best to hide it, she still let a look of anxious suspicion show through from time to time — yet she became much gentler toward me.

冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
火爐: huǒ lú — stove
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
活: huó — 1. to live 2. alive 3. living 4. work 5. workmanship (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
片: piān — 1. disk 2. sheet (HSK 2)
硬: yìng — 1. hard; stiff; solid 2. (fig.) strong; firm 3. resolutely; uncompromisingly 4. laboriously; with great difficulty 5. good (quality); able (person) 6. (of food) filling; substantial (HSK 5)
煤: méi — 1. coal 2. classifier: 塊 (kuài) (HSK 5)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
燒: shāo — 1. to burn; to set on fire 2. to heat (over a fire); to boil (water, tea etc) 3. to braise 4. to cook; to prepare food 5. to run a fever 6. fever 7. (coll.) to become full of oneself; to get carried away (HSK 4)
盡: jìn — 1. to use up 2. to exhaust 3. to end 4. to finish 5. to the utmost 6. exhausted 7. finished 8. to the limit (of sth) 9. all 10. entirely (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
已: yǐ — 1. already 2. to stop 3. then 4. afterwards (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
閉館: bì guǎn — (of libraries, museums etc) to be closed
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
須: xū — 1. must 2. to have to 3. to wait (HSK 7-9)
回到: huí dào — to return to (HSK 1)
吉兆: jí zhào — lucky omen
衚衕: hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
領略: lǐng lüè — 1. to have a taste of 2. to realize 3. to appreciate (HSK 7-9)
冰冷: bīng lěng — ice-cold
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
顏色: yán sè — 1. color 2. countenance 3. appearance 4. facial expression 5. pigment 6. dyestuff (HSK 2)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
間或: jiàn huò — 1. occasionally 2. now and then
遇到: yù dào — to meet; to run into; to come across (HSK 4)
溫暖: wēn nuǎn — warm (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神情: shén qíng — look; expression (HSK 5)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
反而: fǎn ér — on the contrary; instead (HSK 4)
增加: zēng jiā — to raise; to increase (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
苦痛: kǔ tòng — 1. pain 2. suffering
記得: jì de — to remember (HSK 1)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
夜: yè — night (HSK 2)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
忽而: hū ér — 1. suddenly 2. now (..., now...)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
發出: fā chū — 1. to issue (an order, decree etc); to send out; to dispatch 2. to produce (a sound); to let out (a laugh) (HSK 3)
久已: jiǔ yǐ — 1. long ago 2. a long time since
不見: bù jiàn — 1. not to see 2. not to meet 3. to have disappeared 4. to be missing (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
稚氣: zhì qì — 1. childish nature 2. infantile 3. juvenile 4. puerile
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
光: guāng — 1. light; ray (classifier: 道 (dào)) 2. bright; shiny 3. only; merely 4. used up; finished 5. to leave (a part of the body) uncovered (HSK 3)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
笑: xiào — 1. to laugh; to smile 2. to laugh at (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
談到: tán dào — 1. to refer to 2. to speak about 3. to talk about (HSK 7-9)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
情形: qíng xing — circumstances; situation; state of affairs (HSK 5)
時時: shí shí — 1. often 2. constantly (HSK 6)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
帶: dài — 1. band 2. belt 3. girdle 4. ribbon 5. tire 6. area 7. zone 8. region 9. classifier: 條 (tiáo) 10. to wear 11. to carry 12. to take along 13. to bear (i.e. to have) 14. to lead 15. to bring 16. to look after 17. to raise (HSK 2)
些: xiē — classifier indicating a small amount or small number greater than 1: some, a few, several (HSK 4)
恐怖: kǒng bù — 1. terrible 2. frightful 3. frightening 4. terror 5. terrorist (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
超過: chāo guò — 1. to surpass 2. to exceed 3. to outstrip (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷漠: lěng mò — 1. cold and detached towards sb 2. lack of regard 3. indifference 4. neglect (HSK 7-9)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
引起: yǐn qǐ — to give rise to; to lead to; to cause; to arouse (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
憂: yōu — 1. to worry 2. to concern oneself with 3. worried 4. anxiety 5. sorrow 6. (literary) to observe mourning
疑: yí — (bound form) to doubt; to suspect
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
只得: zhǐ dé — to have no alternative but to; to be obliged to (HSK 6)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
勉力: miǎn lì — 1. to strive 2. to make an effort 3. to exert oneself
談: Tán — surname Tan (HSK 3)
笑: xiào — 1. to laugh; to smile 2. to laugh at (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
慰藉: wèi jiè — to console; to comfort
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
笑貌: xiào mào — smiling face
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
上臉: shàng liǎn — 1. to turn red in the face (while drinking) 2. to become smug (when complimented)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的話: de huà — if (coming after a conditional clause) (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
齣: chū — variant of 出 (chū) (classifier for plays or chapters of classical novels) (HSK 1)
口: kǒu — 1. mouth 2. classifier for things with mouths (people, domestic animals, cannons, wells etc) 3. classifier for bites or mouthfuls (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
即刻: jí kè — 1. immediately 2. instant 3. instantly
變為: biàn wéi — to change into (HSK 3)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
即刻: jí kè — 1. immediately 2. instant 3. instantly
發生: fā shēng — to happen; to occur; to take place; to break out (HSK 3)
反響: fǎn xiǎng — 1. repercussions 2. reaction 3. echo (HSK 6)
迴: huí — 1. to curve 2. to return 3. to revolve (HSK 1)
向: Xiàng — surname Xiang (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
耳目: ěr mù — 1. eyes and ears 2. sb's attention or notice 3. information 4. knowledge 5. spies
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
難堪: nán kān — 1. hard to take 2. embarrassed (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
惡毒: è dú — malicious
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
嘲: cháo — 1. to ridicule 2. to mock
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
從此: cóng cǐ — 1. from now on 2. since then 3. henceforth (HSK 4)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
失掉: shī diào — 1. to lose 2. to miss
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
往常: wǎng cháng — 1. usual 2. customary (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
麻木: má mù — 1. numb 2. insensitive 3. apathetic (HSK 7-9)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
鎮靜: zhèn jìng — 1. calm 2. cool
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
竭力: jié lì — to do one's utmost (HSK 7-9)
掩飾: yǎn shì — 1. to cover up 2. to conceal 3. to mask 4. to gloss over (HSK 7-9)
總: zǒng — 1. (bound form) general; overall 2. to sum up 3. in every case; always; invariably 4. anyway; after all; eventually; sooner or later 5. surely 6. (after a person's name) abbr. for 總經理 (zǒng jīng lǐ) or 總編 (zǒng biān) etc (HSK 3)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
時時: shí shí — 1. often 2. constantly (HSK 6)
露出: lù chū — 1. to expose 2. to show 3. also pr. (lòu chū)
憂: yōu — 1. to worry 2. to concern oneself with 3. worried 4. anxiety 5. sorrow 6. (literary) to observe mourning
疑: yí — (bound form) to doubt; to suspect
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
對: duì — 1. right; correct 2. towards; at; for 3. concerning; regarding 4. to treat (sb a certain way) 5. to face 6. (bound form) opposite; facing; matching 7. to match together; to adjust 8. to fit; to suit 9. to answer; to reply 10. to add; to pour in (a fluid) 11. to check; to compare 12. classifier: couple; pair (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
溫和: wēn hé — 1. mild 2. gentle 3. moderate (HSK 5)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，，，，。I wanted to tell her plainly, but I had not yet dared to; just as I resolved to speak, the sight of her childlike eyes made me change course and put on, for the time being, a forced look of cheer instead.，。But this too came at once to mock me coldly, and cost me even that composure of indifference.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
明: Míng — 1. Ming Dynasty (1368–1644) 2. surname Ming 3. Ming (c. 2000 BC), fourth of the legendary Flame Emperors, 炎帝 (Yán dì) descended from Shennong 神農 (Shén nóng) Farmer God
告: gào — 1. (bound form) to say; to tell 2. to announce; to report 3. to denounce 4. to file a lawsuit; to sue (HSK 7-9)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
敢: gǎn — 1. to dare 2. daring 3. (polite) may I venture (HSK 3)
當: dāng — 1. to be 2. to act as 3. manage 4. withstand 5. when 6. during 7. ought 8. should 9. match equally 10. equal 11. same 12. obstruct 13. just at (a time or place) 14. on the spot 15. right 16. just at (HSK 2)
決心: jué xīn — 1. determination 2. resolution 3. determined 4. firm and resolute 5. to make up one's mind 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
要說: yào shuō — 1. as for 2. when it comes to
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼色: yǎn sè — 1. signal made with one's eyes 2. meaningful glance (HSK 7-9)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
只得: zhǐ dé — to have no alternative but to; to be obliged to (HSK 6)
暫且: zàn qiě — for now; for the time being; temporarily
改: gǎi — 1. to change 2. to alter 3. to transform 4. to correct (HSK 2)
作: zuō — 1. (bound form) worker 2. (bound form) workshop 3. (slang) troublesome; high-maintenance (person) (HSK 6)
勉強: miǎn qiǎng — 1. to do with difficulty 2. to force sb to do sth 3. reluctant 4. barely enough (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
歡容: huān róng — 1. happy 2. joyous
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
即刻: jí kè — 1. immediately 2. instant 3. instantly
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
嘲: cháo — 1. to ridicule 2. to mock
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
並: bìng — 1. and 2. furthermore 3. also 4. together with 5. (not) at all 6. simultaneously 7. to combine 8. to join 9. to merge (HSK 3)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
失: shī — 1. to lose 2. to miss 3. to fail
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
冷漠: lěng mò — 1. cold and detached towards sb 2. lack of regard 3. indifference 4. neglect (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
鎮靜: zhèn jìng — 1. calm 2. cool

，，，。From then on she once again took up the reviewing of old times and the setting of new tests, forcing me to give many false, tender answers — and in showing her that tenderness, the false draft of it was written upon my own heart.，。My heart was gradually filled with these drafts, until I often felt it hard to breathe.，；In my anguish I often thought that to speak the truth naturally requires great courage;，，。if one lacks this courage, and instead settles for a life of falsehood, then one is a person incapable of opening up a new path of life.，！Not only was I not that person — such a person had never even existed!

她: tā — she (HSK 1)
從此: cóng cǐ — 1. from now on 2. since then 3. henceforth (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
開始: kāi shǐ — 1. to begin 2. beginning 3. to start 4. initial 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
往事: wǎng shì — 1. past events 2. former happenings (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
溫習: wēn xí — to review (a lesson etc) (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
考驗: kǎo yàn — 1. to test 2. to put to the test 3. trial 4. ordeal (HSK 3)
逼: bī — 1. to force (sb to do sth) 2. to compel 3. to press for 4. to extort 5. to press on towards 6. to press up to 7. to close in on 8. euphemistic variant of 屄 (bī) (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
做出: zuò chū — 1. to put out 2. to issue
許多: xǔ duō — 1. many 2. a lot of 3. much (HSK 2)
虛偽: xū wěi — 1. false 2. hypocritical 3. artificial 4. sham (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
溫存: wēn cún — 1. tender 2. affectionate 3. tenderness
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
答案: dá àn — 1. answer 2. solution 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 4)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
溫存: wēn cún — 1. tender 2. affectionate 3. tenderness
示: shì — 1. to show 2. to reveal
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
虛偽: xū wěi — 1. false 2. hypocritical 3. artificial 4. sham (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
草稿: cǎo gǎo — 1. draft 2. outline 3. sketch
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
寫: xiě — to write (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
漸: jiān — to imbue
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
這些: zhè xiē — these (HSK 1)
草稿: cǎo gǎo — 1. draft 2. outline 3. sketch
填滿: tián mǎn — to cram
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
常: Cháng — surname Chang (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
難: nán — 1. difficult (to...) 2. problem 3. difficulty 4. difficult 5. not good (HSK 1)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
呼吸: hū xī — to breathe (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
苦惱: kǔ nǎo — 1. vexed 2. distressed (HSK 7-9)
中常: zhōng cháng — 1. ordinary 2. average 3. medium 4. mid-range 5. moderate
常: Cháng — surname Chang (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
須: xū — 1. must 2. to have to 3. to wait (HSK 7-9)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
極大: jí dà — 1. enormous; great 2. (math.) maximum
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
勇氣: yǒng qì — courage (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
假如: jiǎ rú — if (HSK 4)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
勇氣: yǒng qì — courage (HSK 4)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
苟安: gǒu ān — see 苟且偷安 (gǒu qiě tōu ān)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
虛偽: xū wěi — 1. false 2. hypocritical 3. artificial 4. sham (HSK 7-9)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
開闢: kāi pì — 1. to open up 2. to set up 3. to establish (HSK 7-9)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
不獨: bù dú — not only
不是: bù shì — 1. no 2. is not 3. not
這個: zhè ge — 1. (pronoun) this 2. (adjective) this
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
未嘗: wèi cháng — 1. not ever 2. not necessarily
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)

，，，，。Zijun wore a look of resentment — in the morning, a bitterly cold morning, something I had never seen before, though perhaps it was only resentment as I saw it.；At that moment I felt a cold anger, and I laughed inwardly;，，。The thinking she had cultivated, and her open-minded, fearless words, were after all still nothing but emptiness — and of this emptiness she herself remained unaware.，，，，，，，。She had long since stopped reading any books at all, and no longer understood that the first task of human life is to survive, and that on this road toward survival one must either join hands and walk together, or strike out boldly alone; if one only knows how to clutch at the hem of another's robe, then even a warrior would find it hard to fight, and the two would only perish together.

子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
怨: yuàn — 1. to blame 2. (bound form) resentment; hatred; grudge (HSK 5)
色: sè — 1. color 2. classifier: 種 (zhǒng) 3. look 4. appearance 5. sex (HSK 4)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
早晨: zǎo chén — 1. early morning 2. also pr. (zǎo chen) (HSK 2)
極: jí — 1. extremely 2. pole (geography, physics) 3. utmost 4. top (HSK 4)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
早晨: zǎo chén — 1. early morning 2. also pr. (zǎo chen) (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
從未: cóng wèi — never (HSK 7-9)
見: jiàn — 1. to see 2. to meet 3. to appear (to be sth) 4. to interview 5. opinion 6. view (HSK 1)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
也許: yě xǔ — perhaps; maybe (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
看來: kàn lai — 1. apparently 2. it seems that (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
怨: yuàn — 1. to blame 2. (bound form) resentment; hatred; grudge (HSK 5)
色: sè — 1. color 2. classifier: 種 (zhǒng) 3. look 4. appearance 5. sex (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
冷冷: lěng lěng — coldly
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
氣憤: qì fèn — 1. indignant 2. furious (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
暗笑: àn xiào — 1. laugh in (up) one's sleeve 2. snigger 3. snicker
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
磨練: mó liàn — 1. to temper oneself 2. to steel oneself 3. self-discipline 4. endurance
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
思想: sī xiǎng — 1. thought 2. thinking 3. idea 4. ideology 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
豁達: huò dá — 1. optimistic 2. sanguine 3. generous 4. magnanimous 5. open-minded (HSK 7-9)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
畏: wèi — to fear
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
言論: yán lùn — 1. expression of opinion 2. views 3. remarks 4. arguments (HSK 7-9)
到底: dào dǐ — 1. finally 2. in the end 3. when all is said and done 4. after all 5. to the end 6. to the last (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
對於: duì yú — regarding; as far as (sth) is concerned; with regard to (HSK 4)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
並未: bìng wèi — (used to stress that sth did not turn out as one might have expected) did not actually ...; has not actually ...
自覺: zì jué — 1. to realize; to be aware of; to feel that; to be conscious of (sth relating to oneself) 2. responsible; predisposed to do the right thing; considerate of others (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
早已: zǎo yǐ — 1. for a long time; long since 2. (dialect) in the past (HSK 3)
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
已: yǐ — 1. already 2. to stop 3. then 4. afterwards (HSK 3)
不知: bù zhī — 1. not to know 2. unaware 3. unknowingly 4. fig. not to admit (defeat, hardships, tiredness etc) (HSK 7-9)
道人: dào rén — Taoist devotee (honorific)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
第一: dì yī — 1. first 2. most important; primary; foremost
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
求生: qiú shēng — 1. to seek survival 2. to possess the will to live
向著: xiàng zhe — 1. towards 2. facing (sb or sth) 3. (coll.) to side with 4. to favor (HSK 7-9)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
求生: qiú shēng — 1. to seek survival 2. to possess the will to live
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
道路: dào lù — 1. road 2. path 3. way 4. classifier: 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
必須: bì xū — 1. to have to 2. must 3. compulsory 4. necessarily (HSK 2)
攜手同行: xié shǒu tóng xíng — 1. to walk hand in hand 2. to cooperate
或: huò — 1. maybe 2. perhaps 3. might 4. possibly 5. or (HSK 2)
奮: fèn — to exert oneself (bound form)
身: shēn — 1. body 2. life 3. oneself 4. personally 5. one's morality and conduct 6. the main part of a structure or body 7. pregnant 8. classifier for sets of clothes: suit, twinset 9. Kangxi radical 158
孤: gū — 1. lone 2. lonely
往: wǎng — 1. to go (in a direction) 2. to 3. towards 4. (of a train) bound for 5. past 6. previous (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
倘: cháng — used in 倘佯 (cháng yáng)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
捶: chuí — to beat (with a stick or one's fist); to thump; to pound (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
一個人: yī gè rén — 1. by oneself (without assistance) 2. alone (without company)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
衣角: yī jiǎo — corner of the lower hem of a jacket etc
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
雖: suī — 1. although 2. even though (HSK 6)
戰士: zhàn shì — 1. fighter 2. soldier 3. warrior 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 4)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
難: nán — 1. difficult (to...) 2. problem 3. difficulty 4. difficult 5. not good (HSK 1)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
戰鬥: zhàn dòu — 1. to fight 2. to engage in combat 3. struggle 4. battle 5. classifier: 場 (cháng), 次 (cì) (HSK 4)
只得: zhǐ dé — to have no alternative but to; to be obliged to (HSK 6)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
滅亡: miè wáng — 1. to be destroyed; to become extinct; to perish; to die out 2. to destroy; to exterminate (HSK 7-9)

；I felt that our new hope lay only in our separation;，——，，。she ought to resolve to leave — and I suddenly thought of her death, but at once I reproached and repented myself.，，。Fortunately it was morning, and there was still plenty of time; I could speak my truth.，。The opening of our new road would come with this very moment.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
希望: xī wàng — 1. to hope 2. a hope; a wish (HSK 3)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
分離: fēn lí — to separate (HSK 5)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
應該: yīng gāi — ought to; should; must (HSK 2)
決: jué — 1. to decide 2. to determine 3. to execute (sb) 4. (of a dam etc) to breach or burst 5. definitely 6. certainly
然: rán — 1. correct 2. right 3. so 4. thus 5. like this 6. -ly
捨: shě — 1. to give up; to abandon 2. to give alms
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
突然: tū rán — sudden; abrupt; unexpected (HSK 3)
想到: xiǎng dào — 1. to think of 2. to call to mind 3. to anticipate (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
立刻: lì kè — immediately; at once; right away (HSK 3)
自責: zì zé — to blame oneself (HSK 7-9)
懺悔: chàn huǐ — 1. to repent 2. (religion) to confess
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
幸而: xìng ér — 1. by good fortune 2. luckily
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
早晨: zǎo chén — 1. early morning 2. also pr. (zǎo chen) (HSK 2)
時間: shí jiān — 1. (concept of) time 2. (duration of) time 3. (point in) time (HSK 1)
正: zhēng — first month of the lunar year (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
道路: dào lù — 1. road 2. path 3. way 4. classifier: 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
開闢: kāi pì — 1. to open up 2. to set up 3. to establish (HSK 7-9)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
遭: zāo — 1. to suffer; to meet with (usu. misfortune) 2. classifier for events: time, turn, incident

，，，，：《》，《》。I chatted idly with her, deliberately calling up our past, mentioning literature, and so touching on foreign writers and their works: A Doll's House, The Lady from the Sea.……。I praised Nora's resolve...，，，，。These were the very same words I had spoken last year in that shabby room at the hostel, but now they had turned into emptiness — passing from my own mouth into my own ears, so that again and again I suspected some invisible mischievous child was behind me, maliciously and spitefully mimicking my words.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
閑談: xián tán — variant of 閒談 (xián tán)
故意: gù yì — deliberately; on purpose (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
引起: yǐn qǐ — to give rise to; to lead to; to cause; to arouse (HSK 4)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
往事: wǎng shì — 1. past events 2. former happenings (HSK 7-9)
提到: tí dào — 1. to mention 2. to raise (a subject) 3. to refer to (HSK 2)
文藝: wén yì — literature and art (HSK 5)
於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
涉及: shè jí — to involve; to relate to; to concern; to touch upon (HSK 6)
外國: wài guó — foreign country (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
文人: wén rén — cultivated individual; scholar; literati (HSK 7-9)
文人: wén rén — cultivated individual; scholar; literati (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
作品: zuò pǐn — 1. work (of art) 2. opus 3. classifier: 部 (bù), 篇 (piān) (HSK 3)
諾: nuò — 1. to consent 2. to promise 3. (literary) yes!
拉: lā — 1. to pull 2. to play (a bowed instrument) 3. to drag 4. to draw 5. to chat 6. (coll.) to empty one's bowels (HSK 2)
海: Hǎi — surname Hai (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
女人: nǚ rén — woman (HSK 1)
稱揚: chēng yáng — 1. to praise 2. to compliment
諾: nuò — 1. to consent 2. to promise 3. (literary) yes!
拉: lā — 1. to pull 2. to play (a bowed instrument) 3. to drag 4. to draw 5. to chat 6. (coll.) to empty one's bowels (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
果決: guǒ jué — 1. firm 2. unwavering
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
去年: qù nián — last year (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
講: jiǎng — 1. to speak 2. to explain 3. to negotiate 4. to emphasize 5. to be particular about 6. as far as sth is concerned 7. speech 8. lecture (HSK 2)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
那些: nà xiē — those (HSK 1)
話: huà — 1. dialect 2. language 3. spoken words 4. speech 5. talk 6. words 7. conversation 8. what sb said 9. classifier: 種 (zhǒng), 席 (xí), 句 (jù), 口 (kǒu), 番 (fān) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
變成: biàn chéng — 1. to change into 2. to turn into 3. to become (HSK 2)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
嘴: zuǐ — 1. mouth 2. beak 3. nozzle 4. spout (of teapot etc) 5. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
傳入: chuán rù — 1. to import 2. transmitted inwards 3. afferent
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
耳: ěr — 1. ear 2. handle (archaeology) 3. and that is all (Classical Chinese)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
時時: shí shí — 1. often 2. constantly (HSK 6)
疑心: yí xīn — 1. suspicion 2. to suspect
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
隱形: yǐn xíng — invisible (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
壞: huài — 1. bad 2. spoiled 3. broken 4. to break down 5. (suffix) to the utmost (HSK 1)
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
背後: bèi hòu — 1. behind 2. at the back 3. in the rear 4. behind sb's back (HSK 3)
惡意: è yì — 1. malice 2. evil intention (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
刻毒: kè dú — 1. spiteful 2. venomous
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
學: xué — 1. to learn 2. to study 3. to imitate 4. science 5. -ology (HSK 1)
舌: jī — used in 喇舌 (lǎ jī) to transcribe the Taiwanese word for "tongue"

，。She still nodded along as she listened, but afterward fell silent.，。I too finished my words in fits and starts, until even their echo vanished into the void.

「。」，，「，……"Yes." She fell silent again for a moment, then said, "But... ，。Juansheng, I feel you've been very different lately.？Is that so?，——。」You — you tell me honestly."

是的: shì de — 1. yes, that's right 2. variant of 似的 (shì de)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
沉默: chén mò — 1. taciturn 2. uncommunicative 3. silent (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
一會: yī huì — 1. a moment 2. a while 3. in a moment 4. also pr. (yī huǐ)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
涓: Juān — surname Juan
生: shēng — 1. to grow; to give birth; to produce; to be born 2. to arise; to occur 3. to light (a fire) 4. to live; to be alive 5. life 6. raw; uncooked; unprocessed 7. unfamiliar; strange 8. (bound form) student; person engaged in a field 9. (bound form) male role in traditional opera 10. (bound form) life; lifetime 11. (bound form) means of livelihood 12. (bound form) very; intensely (as in 生疼 (shēng téng)) 13. (bound form) in a forced manner (as in 生拉硬拽 (shēng lā yìng zhuài)) (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
近來: jìn lái — 1. recently 2. lately (HSK 5)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
兩樣: liǎng yàng — not the same; different
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
可是: kě shì — 1. but; however 2. (used for emphasis) indeed (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
老實: lǎo shi — 1. honest; sincere 2. well-behaved 3. naive; gullible (HSK 4)
告訴: gào sù — to press charges; to file a complaint (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)

，，：，，。I felt as though this struck me a blow on the head, but I steadied myself at once and spoke out my views and convictions: the opening of a new road, the remaking of a new life, so as to avoid perishing together.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
當頭: dāng tóu — 1. coming right into one's face 2. imminent 3. to put first
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
擊: jī — 1. to hit 2. to strike 3. to break 4. Taiwan pr. (jí)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
立即: lì jí — immediately (HSK 4)
定: dìng — 1. to fix; to set; to make definite 2. to subscribe to (a newspaper etc); to book (tickets etc); to order (goods etc) 3. to congeal; to coagulate 4. (literary) definitely (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
神: Shén — God (HSK 5)
說出: shuō chū — 1. to speak out 2. to declare (one's view)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
意見: yì jiàn — 1. idea 2. opinion 3. suggestion 4. objection 5. complaint 6. classifier: 點 (diǎn), 條 (tiáo) (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
主張: zhǔ zhāng — 1. to advocate 2. to stand for 3. view 4. position 5. stand 6. proposition 7. viewpoint 8. assertion 9. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
開闢: kāi pì — 1. to open up 2. to set up 3. to establish (HSK 7-9)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
再造: zài zào — 1. to rebuild; to reconstruct; to regenerate 2. (in set phrases like 恩同再造 (ēn tóng zài zào)) to save sb's life
為的是: wèi de shì — 1. for the sake of 2. for the purpose of
免得: miǎn de — so as not to; so as to avoid (HSK 6)
一同: yī tóng — together (HSK 6)
滅亡: miè wáng — 1. to be destroyed; to become extinct; to perish; to die out 2. to destroy; to exterminate (HSK 7-9)

，，：At the end, summoning all my resolve, I added these few words:

「……"...，。Besides, you can now go forward bravely, with nothing to hold you back.；You want me to speak honestly;，。yes, one ought not to be false.：，！I'll say it honestly then: because — because I no longer love you!，……。」But this is really much better for you, because you can then go about things with nothing weighing on your mind..."

況且: kuàng qiě — 1. moreover 2. besides 3. in addition 4. furthermore (HSK 7-9)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
無須: wú xū — 1. need not 2. not obliged to 3. not necessarily (HSK 7-9)
顧慮: gù lǜ — 1. misgivings; apprehensions 2. to worry about; to be concerned about (HSK 7-9)
勇往直前: yǒng wǎng zhí qián — to advance bravely (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
老實說: lǎo shí shuō — honestly speaking; to be frank, ... (HSK 7-9)
是的: shì de — 1. yes, that's right 2. variant of 似的 (shì de)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
不該: bù gāi — 1. should not 2. to owe nothing
虛偽: xū wěi — 1. false 2. hypocritical 3. artificial 4. sham (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
老實說: lǎo shí shuō — honestly speaking; to be frank, ... (HSK 7-9)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
倒: dǎo — 1. to fall; to collapse; to lie horizontally 2. to fail; to go bankrupt 3. to overthrow 4. to change (trains or buses) 5. to move around 6. to resell at a profit (HSK 2)
好: hǎo — 1. good 2. appropriate; proper 3. all right! 4. (before a verb) easy to 5. (before a verb) good to 6. (before an adjective for exclamatory effect) so 7. (verb complement indicating completion) 8. (of two people) close; on intimate terms 9. (after a personal pronoun) hello (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
更: gēng — 1. to change or replace 2. to experience 3. one of the five two-hour periods into which the night was formerly divided 4. watch (e.g. of a sentry or guard) (HSK 2)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
毫無: háo wú — 1. not in the least 2. to completely lack (HSK 7-9)
掛念: guà niàn — to feel anxious about; to have (sth) weighing on one's mind (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
做事: zuò shì — 1. to work 2. to handle matters 3. to have a job

，。At the same time I anticipated some great upheaval to come, yet there was only silence.，；Her face suddenly turned an ashen yellow, as if lifeless;，。but in an instant it revived, and her eyes shone with a childlike glimmer.，，，。That gaze darted in every direction, just like a child hungry and thirsty searching for a loving mother, yet searching only in empty air, fearfully avoiding my eyes.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
同時: tóng shí — at the same time; simultaneously (HSK 2)
豫: Yù — short name for Henan 河南 (Hé nán)
期: qī — 1. a period of time 2. phase 3. stage 4. classifier for issues of a periodical, courses of study 5. time 6. term 7. period 8. to hope 9. Taiwan pr. (qí) (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
大: dà — 1. big; large; great 2. older (than another person) 3. eldest (as in 大姐 (dà jiě)) 4. greatly; freely; fully 5. (dialect) father 6. (dialect) uncle (father's brother) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
變故: biàn gù — 1. an unforeseen event 2. accident 3. misfortune
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
到來: dào lái — 1. to arrive 2. arrival; advent (HSK 5)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
沉默: chén mò — 1. taciturn 2. uncommunicative 3. silent (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
臉色: liǎn sè — 1. complexion 2. look (HSK 5)
陡然: dǒu rán — 1. suddenly 2. unexpectedly 3. abruptly 4. precipitously 5. stumbling
變成: biàn chéng — 1. to change into 2. to turn into 3. to become (HSK 2)
灰: huī — 1. ash 2. dust 3. lime 4. gray 5. discouraged; dejected (HSK 7-9)
黃: Huáng — surname Huang or Hwang (HSK 2)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
瞬間: shùn jiān — in an instant; in a flash (HSK 7-9)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
蘇生: sū shēng — 1. to revive 2. to come back to life
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
發: fā — 1. to send out 2. to show (one's feeling) 3. to issue 4. to develop 5. to make a bundle of money 6. classifier for gunshots (rounds) (HSK 2)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
稚氣: zhì qì — 1. childish nature 2. infantile 3. juvenile 4. puerile
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
閃閃: shǎn shǎn — flickering; sparkling; glistening; glittering
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
光澤: Guāng zé — see 光澤縣 (Guāng zé Xiàn) (HSK 7-9)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
眼光: yǎn guāng — 1. gaze 2. insight 3. foresight 4. vision 5. way of looking at things (HSK 5)
射: shè — 1. to shoot 2. to launch 3. to allude to 4. radio- (chemistry) (HSK 5)
向: Xiàng — surname Xiang (HSK 2)
四處: sì chù — 1. all over the place 2. everywhere and all directions (HSK 6)
正如: zhèng rú — 1. just as 2. precisely as (HSK 5)
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
饑: jī — variant of 飢 (jī)
渴: kě — thirsty (HSK 1)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
尋求: xún qiú — to seek; to look for (HSK 5)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
慈愛: cí ài — 1. love 2. devotion (to children) 3. affection, esp. towards children
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
母親: mǔ qīn — mother (HSK 3)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
空中: kōng zhōng — 1. in the sky 2. in the air (HSK 5)
尋求: xún qiú — to seek; to look for (HSK 5)
恐怖: kǒng bù — 1. terrible 2. frightful 3. frightening 4. terror 5. terrorist (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
迴避: huí bì — 1. to shun 2. to avoid (sb) 3. to skirt 4. to evade (an issue) 5. to step back 6. to withdraw 7. to recuse (a judge etc) (HSK 5)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)

，，。I could not bear to watch any longer; fortunately it was morning, and braving the cold wind I hurried straight to the public library.

《》，。There I saw that Friends of Freedom had published all my short essays.，。This gave me a start, and I felt as if I had gained a little life.，，——，。I thought, there are still many roads of life open — but, going on like this, it still would not do.

在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
自由: zì yóu — 1. freedom; liberty 2. free; unrestricted (HSK 2)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
友: yǒu — friend
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
小品: xiǎo pǐn — 1. short, simple literary or artistic creation 2. essay 3. skit (HSK 7-9)
文: Wén — surname Wen (HSK 7-9)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
登出: dēng chū — 1. to log out (computer) 2. to publish 3. to be published 4. to appear (in a newspaper etc)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
驚: jīng — 1. to startle 2. to be frightened 3. to be scared 4. alarm (HSK 7-9)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
得了: dé le — 1. all right! 2. that's enough! (HSK 5)
一點: yī diǎn — 1. a bit; a little bit 2. (used in negative expressions) (not) the least bit 3. (after an adjective, used to form the comparative) a bit more, -er 4. a point (in a discussion etc) 5. (calligraphy) dot stroke (、) 6. one o'clock (abbr. for 一點鍾 (yī diǎn zhōng))
生氣: shēng qì — 1. to get angry; to be furious 2. vitality; liveliness (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
不行: bù xíng — 1. won't do 2. be out of the question 3. be no good 4. not work 5. not be capable (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，；I began visiting acquaintances I had long lost touch with, but this too lasted only a time or two;，。Their rooms were of course warm, yet I felt a chill down to my very marrow.，。At night, I would curl up in a room colder than ice.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
開始: kāi shǐ — 1. to begin 2. beginning 3. to start 4. initial 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
訪問: fǎng wèn — 1. to visit; to call on (a person or place) 2. (computing) to visit (a website); to access (a network resource etc) 3. (Tw) to interview (e.g. for a report or feature story) 4. classifier: 次 (cì) (HSK 3)
久已: jiǔ yǐ — 1. long ago 2. a long time since
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
相: Xiāng — surname Xiang
聞: Wén — surname Wen (HSK 2)
問: wèn — to ask; to inquire (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
熟人: shú rén — 1. acquaintance 2. friend (HSK 3)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
次: cì — 1. next in sequence 2. second 3. the second (day, time etc) 4. secondary 5. vice- 6. sub- 7. infra- 8. inferior quality 9. substandard 10. order 11. sequence 12. hypo- (chemistry) 13. classifier for enumerated events: time (HSK 1)
他們: tā men — they; them (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
暖和: nuǎn huo — 1. warm 2. nice and warm (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
骨髓: gǔ suǐ — bone marrow
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
寒: hán — 1. cold 2. poor 3. to tremble
冽: liè — cold and raw
夜間: yè jiān — 1. nighttime 2. evening or night (e.g. classes) (HSK 5)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
蜷伏: quán fú — 1. to curl up 2. to lie with knees drawn up 3. to huddle up
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
比: Bǐ — 1. Belgium 2. Belgian 3. abbr. for 比利時 (Bǐ lì shí) (HSK 1)
冰: bīng — 1. ice 2. classifier: 塊 (kuài) 3. to chill sth 4. (of an object or substance) to feel cold 5. (of a person) cold 6. unfriendly 7. (slang) methamphetamine (HSK 4)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)

，。Needles of ice pierced my soul, leaving me forever suffering a numb, aching pain.，，。——，，。There are still many roads of life, I thought, and I have not yet forgotten the beating of wings. — I suddenly thought of her death, but at once I reproached and repented myself.

冰: bīng — 1. ice 2. classifier: 塊 (kuài) 3. to chill sth 4. (of an object or substance) to feel cold 5. (of a person) cold 6. unfriendly 7. (slang) methamphetamine (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
針刺: zhēn cì — 1. to prick with a needle 2. to treat by acupuncture
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
靈魂: líng hún — 1. soul 2. spirit (HSK 7-9)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
永遠: yǒng yuǎn — 1. forever 2. eternal (HSK 2)
苦於: kǔ yú — to suffer from (a disadvantage)
麻木: má mù — 1. numb 2. insensitive 3. apathetic (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
疼痛: téng tòng — 1. pain 2. (of a body part) to be painful; to be sore; to hurt 3. (of a person) to be in pain (HSK 6)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
忘卻: wàng què — to forget
翅子: chì zi — 1. shark's fin 2. wing 3. classifier: 隻 (zhī)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
扇動: shān dòng — 1. to fan 2. to flap 3. to incite 4. to instigate (a strike etc)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
突然: tū rán — sudden; abrupt; unexpected (HSK 3)
想到: xiǎng dào — 1. to think of 2. to call to mind 3. to anticipate (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
立刻: lì kè — immediately; at once; right away (HSK 3)
自責: zì zé — to blame oneself (HSK 7-9)
懺悔: chàn huǐ — 1. to repent 2. (religion) to confess
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，。In the public library I often caught a flash of light, a new road of life lying ahead.，，，——。She had bravely awakened, and resolutely walked out of this ice-cold home, and moreover — with not the slightest look of resentment.，，，，，，，，，，……。I would then become as light as a drifting cloud, floating in the sky, above the deep blue heavens, below the deep mountains and vast seas, tall mansions and towers, battlefields, motorcars, foreign settlements, grand houses, bustling streets in bright daylight, and nights of darkness...

在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
通俗: tōng sú — 1. common 2. everyday 3. average (HSK 7-9)
圖書館: tú shū guǎn — 1. library 2. classifier: 家 (jiā), 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
往往: wǎng wǎng — 1. usually 2. in many cases 3. more often than not (HSK 3)
瞥見: piē jiàn — to glimpse
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
閃: Shǎn — surname Shan (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
光明: guāng míng — 1. light 2. radiance 3. (fig.) bright (prospects etc) 4. openhearted (HSK 3)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
橫: héng — 1. horizontal 2. across 3. crosswise 4. horizontal stroke (in Chinese characters) 5. to place (sth) flat (on a surface) 6. to cross (a river, etc) 7. in a jumble 8. chaotic 9. (in fixed expressions) harsh and unreasonable 10. violent (HSK 6)
在前: zài qián — 1. ahead 2. formerly 3. in the past
面: miàn — 1. face 2. side 3. surface 4. aspect 5. top 6. classifier for objects with flat surfaces such as drums, mirrors, flags etc
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
勇猛: yǒng měng — 1. bold and powerful 2. brave and fierce
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
覺悟: jué wù — 1. to come to understand 2. to realize 3. consciousness 4. awareness 5. Buddhist enlightenment (Sanskrit: cittotpāda) (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
毅然: yì rán — 1. firmly 2. resolutely 3. without hesitation (HSK 7-9)
走出: zǒu chū — to leave (a room etc); to go out through (a door etc)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
冰冷: bīng lěng — ice-cold
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
家: jiā — 1. home 2. family 3. (polite) my (sister, uncle etc) 4. classifier for families or businesses 5. refers to the philosophical schools of pre-Han China 6. noun suffix for a specialist in some activity, such as a musician or revolutionary, corresponding to English -ist, -er, -ary or -ian 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
而且: ér qiě — 1. (not only ...) but also 2. moreover; in addition; furthermore (HSK 2)
毫無: háo wú — 1. not in the least 2. to completely lack (HSK 7-9)
怨恨: yuàn hèn — 1. to resent 2. to harbor a grudge against 3. to loathe 4. resentment 5. rancor (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
神色: shén sè — 1. expression 2. look
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
輕: qīng — 1. light 2. easy 3. gentle 4. soft 5. reckless 6. unimportant 7. frivolous 8. small in number 9. unstressed 10. neutral 11. to disparage (HSK 2)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
行: háng — 1. (bound form) row; line 2. (bound form) line of business; trade; profession 3. (bound form) commercial firm 4. (bound form) to rank (first, second etc) among one's siblings (by age) 5. (in data tables) row; (Tw) column 6. classifier for rows or lines (HSK 1)
雲: Yún — 1. surname Yun 2. short name for Yunnan 雲南 (Yún nán) (HSK 2)
漂浮: piāo fú — 1. to float 2. to hover 3. to drift (also fig., to lead a wandering life) 4. to rove 5. showy 6. superficial
空: kōng — 1. empty 2. air 3. sky 4. in vain (HSK 3)
際: jì — 1. border 2. edge 3. boundary 4. interval 5. between 6. inter- 7. to meet 8. time 9. occasion 10. to meet with (circumstances)
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
蔚藍: wèi lán — azure; sky-blue
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
下: xià — 1. down 2. downwards 3. below 4. lower 5. later 6. next (week etc) 7. second (of two parts) 8. to decline 9. to go down 10. to arrive at (a decision, conclusion etc) 11. measure word to show the frequency of an action (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
深山: shēn shān — deep in the mountains
大海: dà hǎi — 1. sea 2. ocean (HSK 2)
廣: Guǎng — surname Guang (HSK 5)
廈: Xià — abbr. for Xiamen or Amoy 廈門 (Xià mén), Fujian
高樓: gāo lóu — 1. high building 2. multistory building 3. skyscraper 4. classifier: 座 (zuò)
戰場: zhàn chǎng — 1. battlefield 2. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 6)
摩托車: mó tuō chē — 1. (loanword) motorbike; motorcycle 2. classifier: 輛 (liàng), 部 (bù)
洋場: yáng chǎng — (old) foreign concession
公館: gōng guǎn — 1. residence (of sb rich or important) 2. mansion
晴: qíng — 1. clear 2. fine (weather) (HSK 2)
明: Míng — 1. Ming Dynasty (1368–1644) 2. surname Ming 3. Ming (c. 2000 BC), fourth of the legendary Flame Emperors, 炎帝 (Yán dì) descended from Shennong 神農 (Shén nóng) Farmer God
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
鬧市: nào shì — 1. downtown area 2. city center
黑暗: hēi àn — 1. dark 2. darkly 3. darkness (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
夜: yè — night (HSK 2)

，，。And, truly, I sensed that this new phase of life was about to arrive.

，；We had, after all, made it through that almost unbearable winter, this Beijing winter;，，，，，，。just like a dragonfly fallen into the hands of a mischievous, wicked child, tied with a fine thread and toyed with and tormented at will — though luckily it did not lose its life, in the end it still lay on the ground, the only difference being a matter of sooner or later.

我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
總算: zǒng suàn — 1. at long last 2. finally 3. on the whole (HSK 5)
度過: dù guò — 1. to pass 2. to spend (time) 3. to survive 4. to get through (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
極: jí — 1. extremely 2. pole (geography, physics) 3. utmost 4. top (HSK 4)
難: nán — 1. difficult (to...) 2. problem 3. difficulty 4. difficult 5. not good (HSK 1)
忍受: rěn shòu — to bear; to endure (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冬天: dōng tiān — winter (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
北京: Běi jīng — Beijing municipality, capital of the People's Republic of China (short name 京 (Jīng)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冬天: dōng tiān — winter (HSK 2)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
蜻蜓: qīng tíng — dragonfly
落: là — 1. to leave out 2. to be missing 3. to leave behind or forget to bring 4. to lag or fall behind (HSK 4)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
惡作劇: è zuò jù — 1. practical joke 2. prank 3. to play a practical joke
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
壞: huài — 1. bad 2. spoiled 3. broken 4. to break down 5. (suffix) to the utmost (HSK 1)
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
手裡: shǒu lǐ — 1. in hand 2. (a situation is) in sb's hands (HSK 4)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
繫: jì — 1. to tie 2. to fasten 3. to button up (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
細線: xì xiàn — 1. string 2. thread
盡情: jìn qíng — as much as one likes (HSK 7-9)
玩弄: wán nòng — 1. to play with 2. to toy with 3. to dally with 4. to engage in 5. to resort to
虐待: nüè dài — 1. to mistreat 2. to maltreat 3. to abuse 4. mistreatment 5. maltreatment (HSK 7-9)
雖然: suī rán — although; even though (often used correlatively with 可是 (kě shì) or 但是 (dàn shì) etc) (HSK 2)
幸而: xìng ér — 1. by good fortune 2. luckily
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
送: sòng — 1. to send; to deliver; to transmit 2. to give (as a present) 3. to see (sb) off 4. to accompany; to go along with (HSK 1)
掉: diào — 1. to fall 2. to drop 3. to lag behind 4. to lose 5. to go missing 6. to reduce 7. fall (in prices) 8. to lose (value, weight etc) 9. to wag 10. to swing 11. to turn 12. to change 13. to exchange 14. to swap 15. to show off 16. to shed (hair) 17. (used after certain verbs to express completion, fulfillment, removal etc) (HSK 2)
性命: xìng mìng — life (HSK 7-9)
結果: jiē guǒ — to bear fruit (HSK 2)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
躺: tǎng — 1. to recline 2. to lie down (HSK 4)
在地: zài dì — (Tw) local; native (from Taiwanese 在地, Tai-lo pr. [tsāi-tē])
上: shǎng — used in 上聲 (shǎng shēng) (HSK 1)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
爭: zhēng — 1. to strive for 2. to vie for 3. to argue or debate 4. deficient or lacking (dialect) 5. how or what (literary) (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
遲早: chí zǎo — sooner or later (HSK 7-9)
之間: zhī jiān — 1. (after a noun) between; among; amid 2. (used after certain bisyllabic words to form expressions indicating a short period of time, e.g. 彈指之間 (tán zhǐ zhī jiān)) (HSK 4)

《》，，：。I had already written three letters to the chief editor of Friends of Freedom, and only then did I get a reply — inside the envelope were just two book coupons: one worth twenty cents and one worth thirty.，，，。And yet, merely to press for it, I had spent nine cents in postage stamps and a day's hunger, all wasted on an emptiness that gained me nothing.

寫: xiě — to write (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
自由: zì yóu — 1. freedom; liberty 2. free; unrestricted (HSK 2)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
友: yǒu — friend
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
總編輯: zǒng biān jí — chief editor (of newspaper)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
三: Sān — surname San (HSK 1)
封: Fēng — surname Feng (HSK 2)
信: xìn — 1. letter 2. mail 3. classifier: 封 (fēng) 4. to trust 5. to believe 6. to profess faith in 7. truthful 8. confidence 9. trust 10. at will 11. at random (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
得到: dé dào — to get; to obtain; to receive (HSK 1)
回信: huí xìn — 1. to reply 2. to write back 3. letter written in reply 4. classifier: 封 (fēng) (HSK 5)
信封: xìn fēng — envelope (HSK 3)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
張: Zhāng — surname Zhang (HSK 3)
書: Shū — abbr. for 書經 (Shū jīng) (HSK 1)
券: quàn — 1. bond (esp. document split in two, with each party holding one half) 2. contract 3. deed (i.e. title deeds) 4. ticket 5. voucher 6. certificate (HSK 6)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
角: Jué — surname Jue (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
三角: sān jiǎo — 1. triangle 2. (math.) trigonometry (abbr. for 三角學 (sān jiǎo xué)) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
單: Shàn — surname Shan (HSK 4)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
催: cuī — 1. to urge 2. to press 3. to prompt 4. to rush sb 5. to hasten sth 6. to expedite (HSK 7-9)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
九: jiǔ — 1. nine 2. 9 (HSK 1)
分: fēn — 1. to divide; to separate 2. to distribute; to allocate 3. to distinguish (good and bad) 4. (bound form) branch of (an organization); sub- (as in 分局 (fēn jú)) 5. fraction 6. one tenth (of certain units) 7. unit of length equivalent to 0.33 cm 8. minute (unit of time) 9. minute (angular measurement unit) 10. a point (in sports or games) 11. 0.01 yuan (unit of money) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
郵票: yóu piào — 1. (postage) stamp 2. classifier: 枚 (méi), 張 (zhāng) (HSK 3)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
饑: jī — variant of 飢 (jī)
餓: è — 1. hungry 2. to starve (sb) (HSK 1)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
白: Bái — 1. surname Bai 2. Bai ethnic group (HSK 1)
挨: āi — 1. in order; in sequence 2. close to; adjacent to (HSK 6)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
己: jǐ — 1. self 2. oneself 3. sixth of the ten Heavenly Stems 十天干 (shí tiān gān) 4. sixth in order 5. letter "F" or Roman "VI" in list "A, B, C", or "I, II, III" etc 6. hexa
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
所得: suǒ dé — 1. what one acquires 2. one's gains
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，。Yet the thing I felt was bound to come did, in the end, come.

，，；This happened at the turn of winter into spring, when the wind was no longer so cold, and I lingered outdoors even longer than before;，。by the time I returned home, it was usually already dusk.，，，，。It was on just such a dusky evening that I came home as usual, listless and low in spirits, and as usual, the moment I saw the gate of my lodgings, my spirits sank even further, and I slowed my steps still more.，；But at last I walked into my own room, where there was no lamp lit;，！and when I groped for a match and lit it, what met me was a strange loneliness and emptiness!

這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
冬: dōng — winter
春: Chūn — surname Chun
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
交: jiāo — 1. to hand over; to deliver; to pay (money); to turn over 2. to make friends 3. (of lines) to intersect 4. variant of 跤 (jiāo) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
風: fēng — 1. wind 2. news 3. style 4. custom 5. manner 6. classifier: 陣 (zhèn), 絲 (sī) (HSK 1)
已: yǐ — 1. already 2. to stop 3. then 4. afterwards (HSK 3)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
這麼: zhè me — 1. so much 2. this much 3. how much? 4. this way 5. like this (HSK 2)
冷: Lěng — surname Leng (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
更: gēng — 1. to change or replace 2. to experience 3. one of the five two-hour periods into which the night was formerly divided 4. watch (e.g. of a sentry or guard) (HSK 2)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
在外: zài wài — 1. outer 2. excluded
面: miàn — 1. face 2. side 3. surface 4. aspect 5. top 6. classifier for objects with flat surfaces such as drums, mirrors, flags etc
徘徊: pái huái — 1. to pace back and forth 2. to dither; to hesitate 3. (of sales figures etc) to fluctuate (HSK 7-9)
待: dāi — to stay; to remain (HSK 5)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
回家: huí jiā — to return home (HSK 1)
大概: dà gài — 1. roughly 2. probably 3. rough 4. approximate 5. about 6. general idea (HSK 3)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
昏: hūn — 1. muddle-headed 2. twilight 3. to faint 4. to lose consciousness (HSK 6)
黑: Hēi — short name for Heilongjiang 黑龍江 (Hēi lóng jiāng) (HSK 2)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
昏: hūn — 1. muddle-headed 2. twilight 3. to faint 4. to lose consciousness (HSK 6)
黑: Hēi — short name for Heilongjiang 黑龍江 (Hēi lóng jiāng) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
晚上: wǎn shang — 1. evening 2. night 3. classifier: 個 (gè) 4. in the evening (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
照常: zhào cháng — as usual (HSK 7-9)
沒精打采: méi jīng dǎ cǎi — 1. listless 2. dispirited 3. washed out 4. also written 沒精打彩 (méi jīng dǎ cǎi)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
回來: huí lai — to return; to come back (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
寓所: yù suǒ — dwelling
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
門: Mén — surname Men (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
照常: zhào cháng — as usual (HSK 7-9)
更加: gèng jiā — 1. more (than sth else) 2. even more (HSK 3)
喪氣: sàng qì — to feel disheartened
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
腳步: jiǎo bù — 1. footstep 2. step (HSK 5)
放: fàng — 1. to put 2. to place 3. to release 4. to free 5. to let go 6. to let out 7. to set off (fireworks) (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
更: gēng — 1. to change or replace 2. to experience 3. one of the five two-hour periods into which the night was formerly divided 4. watch (e.g. of a sentry or guard) (HSK 2)
緩: huǎn — 1. slow 2. unhurried 3. sluggish 4. gradual 5. not tense 6. relaxed 7. to postpone 8. to defer 9. to stall 10. to stave off 11. to revive 12. to recuperate (HSK 7-9)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
終於: zhōng yú — 1. at last 2. in the end 3. finally 4. eventually (HSK 3)
走進: zǒu jìn — to enter; to step into (HSK 2)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
燈火: dēng huǒ — lights
摸: mō — 1. to feel with the hand 2. to touch 3. to stroke 4. to grope 5. to steal 6. to abstract (HSK 4)
火柴: huǒ chái — 1. match (for lighting fire) 2. classifier: 根 (gēn), 盒 (hé) (HSK 5)
點: diǎn — 1. to touch briefly; to tap 2. to mark with a dot; to check off (on a list) 3. to order (food etc); to select 4. to mention; to bring up (a topic or person) 5. to hint at; to imply 6. to administer (eye medicine etc) in drops 7. to light (a fire, a lamp etc); to ignite 8. to nod (one's head) in agreement; to beckon by moving (one's hand) up and down 9. point; dot; spot; speck 10. dot stroke in Chinese characters 11. (math.) decimal point 12. point in time or space 13. (after a number) o'clock 14. a small amount; a bit; (after a verb or adjective) a bit more 15. classifier for small amounts (HSK 1)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
異樣: yì yàng — 1. difference 2. peculiar
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂寞: jì mò — 1. lonely 2. lonesome 3. (of a place) quiet 4. silent (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)

，。While I was still stunned, the landlady's wife came to the window and called me outside.

「，。」。"Today Zijun's father came here and took her back home," she said simply.

，，。This seemed, after all, to be something beyond expectation, and I stood there speechless, as if struck a blow to the back of the head.

「？」，。"Has she gone?" After a while, this was the only sentence I managed to ask.

「。」"She's gone."

「，——？」"Did she — did she say anything?"

「。"She didn't say anything.，。」She only asked me to tell you, when you got back, that she had gone."

；I did not believe it;。but the room was filled with a strange loneliness and emptiness.，；I looked everywhere, searching for Zijun;，，。and saw only a few worn-out, dim pieces of furniture, standing sparse and bare, proving that they had no power to hide a single person or thing.，；I then thought to look for a letter, or some words she had left behind, but there was none;，，，，。only salt, dried chili peppers, flour, and half a head of cabbage had been gathered together in one place, with a few dozen copper coins set beside them.，，，。This was the entire stock of provisions for our two lives; now, without a word, she had solemnly left it all to me alone, teaching me, in her silence, to use it to sustain myself a little longer.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
信: xìn — 1. letter 2. mail 3. classifier: 封 (fēng) 4. to trust 5. to believe 6. to profess faith in 7. truthful 8. confidence 9. trust 10. at will 11. at random (HSK 2)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
異樣: yì yàng — 1. difference 2. peculiar
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂寞: jì mò — 1. lonely 2. lonesome 3. (of a place) quiet 4. silent (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
遍: biàn — 1. everywhere 2. all over 3. classifier for actions: one time (HSK 2)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
各處: gè chù — every place
尋覓: xún mì — to look for (HSK 7-9)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
只見: zhǐ jiàn — 1. to see (the same thing) over and over again 2. to see, to one's surprise, (sth happen suddenly) (HSK 5)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
件: jiàn — 1. item 2. component 3. classifier for events, things, clothes etc (HSK 2)
破舊: pò jiù — shabby (HSK 7-9)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
黯淡: àn dàn — variant of 暗淡 (àn dàn)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
傢具: jiā jù — variant of 家具 (jiā jù)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
顯得: xiǎn de — 1. to seem 2. to look 3. to appear (HSK 3)
極其: jí qí — extremely (HSK 4)
清: Qīng — 1. Qing (Wade-Giles: Ch'ing) dynasty of China (1644–1911) 2. surname Qing (HSK 6)
疏: Shū — surname Shu
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
證明: zhèng míng — 1. proof 2. certificate 3. identification 4. testimonial 5. classifier: 個 (gè) 6. to prove 7. to testify 8. to confirm the truth of (HSK 3)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
它們: tā men — they; them (HSK 2)
毫無: háo wú — 1. not in the least 2. to completely lack (HSK 7-9)
隱匿: yǐn nì — 1. to cover up 2. to hide 3. to conceal
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
人: rén — 1. person; people 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi), 名 (míng) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
物: wù — 1. (bound form) thing 2. (literary) the outside world as distinct from oneself; people other than oneself
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
能力: néng lì — 1. capability 2. ability 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
轉念: zhuǎn niàn — 1. to have second thoughts about sth 2. to think better of
尋: xún — 1. to search 2. to look for 3. to seek (HSK 7-9)
信: xìn — 1. letter 2. mail 3. classifier: 封 (fēng) 4. to trust 5. to believe 6. to profess faith in 7. truthful 8. confidence 9. trust 10. at will 11. at random (HSK 2)
或: huò — 1. maybe 2. perhaps 3. might 4. possibly 5. or (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
留下: liú xià — 1. to leave behind 2. to stay behind 3. to remain 4. to keep 5. not to let (sb) go (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
字跡: zì jì — handwriting (HSK 7-9)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
鹽: yán — 1. salt 2. classifier: 粒 (lì) (HSK 4)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
乾: Qián — surname Qian (HSK 1)
辣椒: là jiāo — 1. hot pepper 2. chili (HSK 7-9)
麵粉: miàn fěn — flour (HSK 7-9)
半: bàn — 1. half 2. semi- 3. incomplete 4. (after a number) and a half (HSK 1)
株: zhū — 1. tree trunk 2. stump (tree root) 3. a plant 4. classifier for trees or plants 5. strain (biology) 6. to involve others (in shady business) (HSK 7-9)
白菜: bái cài — 1. Chinese cabbage, esp. napa cabbage (Brassica rapa subsp. pekinensis) 2. sometimes used to refer to bok choy (Brassica rapa subsp. chinensis) 3. classifier: 棵 (kē) (HSK 3)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
聚集: jù jí — to assemble; to gather (HSK 7-9)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
處: chǔ — 1. to reside 2. to live 3. to dwell 4. to be in 5. to be situated at 6. to stay 7. to get along with 8. to be in a position of 9. to deal with 10. to discipline 11. to punish (HSK 4)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
旁邊: páng biān — side; adjacent place (HSK 1)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
幾: jī — (literary) almost (HSK 1)
十: shí — 1. ten 2. 10 (HSK 1)
枚: Méi — surname Mei (HSK 7-9)
銅: tóng — 1. copper (chemistry) 2. see also 紅銅 (hóng tóng) 3. classifier: 塊 (kuài) (HSK 7-9)
元: Yuán — 1. surname Yuan 2. Yuan dynasty (1279–1368) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
兩: liǎng — 1. two 2. both 3. some 4. a few 5. tael, unit of weight equal to 50 grams (modern) or 1⁄16 of a catty 斤 (jīn) (old) (HSK 1)
人生: rén shēng — life (one's time on earth) (HSK 3)
活: huó — 1. to live 2. alive 3. living 4. work 5. workmanship (HSK 3)
材料: cái liào — 1. (raw) material 2. data 3. (fig.) person who has the potential to do the job (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
全副: quán fù — completely
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
鄭重: zhèng zhòng — 1. serious 2. solemn 3. earnest 4. conscientious (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
留給: liú gěi — to set aside for
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一個人: yī gè rén — 1. by oneself (without assistance) 2. alone (without company)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
言中: yán zhòng — to have one's words prove to be prophetic
教: Jiào — surname Jiao (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
藉此: jiè cǐ — using this as a pretext; thereby
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
維持: wéi chí — to keep; to maintain; to preserve (HSK 4)
較: jiào — 1. (bound form) to compare 2. (literary) to dispute 3. compared to 4. (before an adjective) relatively; comparatively; rather 5. also pr. (jiǎo) (HSK 3)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)

，，；I felt as if pushed out by everything around me, and rushed to the middle of the courtyard, where darkness surrounded me;，。on the paper windows of the main house a bright lamplight was cast, where they were teasing their child into laughter.，，：，，；My heart, too, grew calm, and I felt that within the heavy pressure bearing down on me, a path of escape was gradually and dimly appearing: deep mountains and great marshes, foreign settlements, sumptuous banquets under electric lights;，，，……。trenches, the darkest depths of night, the stroke of a sharp blade, footsteps making no sound at all...

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
似乎: sì hū — it seems; seemingly; as if (HSK 4)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
周圍: zhōu wéi — environs; surroundings; periphery (HSK 3)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
排擠: pái jǐ — 1. to crowd out 2. to push aside 3. to supplant
奔: bēn — 1. to hurry 2. to rush 3. to run quickly 4. to elope (HSK 7-9)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
院子: yuàn zi — 1. courtyard 2. garden 3. yard 4. patio 5. classifier: 個 (gè) 6. (old) servant (HSK 2)
中間: zhōng jiān — 1. the middle; the inside 2. in the middle; within; between; among 3. during; in the meantime (HSK 1)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
昏: hūn — 1. muddle-headed 2. twilight 3. to faint 4. to lose consciousness (HSK 6)
黑: Hēi — short name for Heilongjiang 黑龍江 (Hēi lóng jiāng) (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
周圍: zhōu wéi — environs; surroundings; periphery (HSK 3)
正: zhēng — first month of the lunar year (HSK 1)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
紙: zhǐ — 1. paper (classifier: 張 (zhāng), 沓 (dá)) 2. classifier for documents, letters etc (HSK 2)
窗: chuāng — 1. window 2. classifier: 扇 (shàn)
上映: shàng yìng — to screen; to show (a movie) (HSK 7-9)
出: chū — 1. to go out; to come out 2. to arise; to occur 3. to produce; to yield 4. to go beyond; to exceed 5. (used after a verb to indicate an outward direction or a positive result) 6. classifier for dramas, plays, operas etc (HSK 1)
明亮: míng liàng — 1. bright 2. shining 3. glittering 4. to become clear (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
燈光: dēng guāng — 1. (stage) lighting 2. light (HSK 4)
他們: tā men — they; them (HSK 1)
正在: zhèng zài — to be in the process of (doing sth); to be currently ...-ing (HSK 1)
逗: dòu — 1. to tease (playfully); to entice 2. (coll.) to joke 3. (coll.) funny; amusing 4. to stay; to sojourn 5. brief pause at the end of a phrase (variant of 讀 (dòu)) (HSK 7-9)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
孩子: hái zi — child (HSK 1)
推: tuī — 1. to push 2. to cut 3. to refuse 4. to reject 5. to decline 6. to shirk (responsibility) 7. to put off 8. to delay 9. to push forward 10. to nominate 11. to elect 12. massage (HSK 2)
笑: xiào — 1. to laugh; to smile 2. to laugh at (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沉靜: chén jìng — 1. peaceful 2. quiet 3. calm 4. gentle
下來: xià lai — 1. to come down 2. (completed action marker) 3. (after verb of motion, indicates motion down and towards us, also fig.) 4. (indicates continuation from the past towards us) 5. to be harvested (of crops) 6. to be over (of a period of time) 7. to go among the masses (said of leaders) (HSK 3)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
沉重: chén zhòng — 1. heavy 2. hard 3. serious 4. critical (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
迫: pǎi — used in 迫擊炮 (pǎi jī pào)
壓: yā — 1. to press 2. to push down 3. to keep under (control) 4. pressure (HSK 3)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
漸漸: jiàn jiàn — gradually (HSK 4)
隱約: yǐn yuē — vague; faint; indistinct (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
現: xiàn — 1. to appear 2. present 3. now 4. existing 5. current
出脫: chū tuō — 1. to manage to sell 2. to dispose of sth (by selling) 3. to get property off one's hands 4. to find excuses (to get off a charge) 5. to extricate sb (from trouble) 6. to vindicate 7. to become prettier (of child)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路徑: lù jìng — 1. path 2. route 3. method 4. ways and means
深山: shēn shān — deep in the mountains
大: dà — 1. big; large; great 2. older (than another person) 3. eldest (as in 大姐 (dà jiě)) 4. greatly; freely; fully 5. (dialect) father 6. (dialect) uncle (father's brother) (HSK 1)
澤: zé — 1. pool 2. pond 3. (of metals etc) luster 4. favor or beneficence 5. damp 6. moist
洋場: yáng chǎng — (old) foreign concession
電燈: diàn dēng — 1. electric light 2. classifier: 盞 (zhǎn) (HSK 4)
下: xià — 1. down 2. downwards 3. below 4. lower 5. later 6. next (week etc) 7. second (of two parts) 8. to decline 9. to go down 10. to arrive at (a decision, conclusion etc) 11. measure word to show the frequency of an action (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
盛筵: shèng yán — grand banquet
壕溝: háo gōu — 1. trench 2. moat
最: zuì — 1. (before an adjective or verb) to the highest degree; (the) most ...; -est 2. (after 之 (zhī)) best or most extreme example (e.g. 世界之最 (shì jiè zhī zuì) "the greatest in the world") (HSK 1)
黑: Hēi — short name for Heilongjiang 黑龍江 (Hēi lóng jiāng) (HSK 2)
最: zuì — 1. (before an adjective or verb) to the highest degree; (the) most ...; -est 2. (after 之 (zhī)) best or most extreme example (e.g. 世界之最 (shì jiè zhī zuì) "the greatest in the world") (HSK 1)
黑: Hēi — short name for Heilongjiang 黑龍江 (Hēi lóng jiāng) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
深夜: shēn yè — very late at night (HSK 7-9)
利刃: lì rèn — sharp blade
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
擊: jī — 1. to hit 2. to strike 3. to break 4. Taiwan pr. (jí)
毫無: háo wú — 1. not in the least 2. to completely lack (HSK 7-9)
聲響: shēng xiǎng — 1. sound 2. noise
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
腳步: jiǎo bù — 1. footstep 2. step (HSK 5)

，，，。My mind grew somewhat lighter, more at ease; I thought of travel money, and let out a sigh of relief.

，，；Lying there, before my closed eyes passed imagined visions of the future, and before midnight they had already all played themselves out;，，，，。in the darkness I suddenly seemed to see a heap of food, and after that, there floated up Zijun's ashen, sallow face, her childlike eyes open wide, looking at me as though in entreaty.，。When I steadied myself, there was nothing there at all.

躺: tǎng — 1. to recline 2. to lie down (HSK 4)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
合著: hé zhe — 1. (dialect) (implying sudden realization) so 2. after all
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼前: yǎn qián — 1. before one's eyes 2. now 3. at present (HSK 3)
經過: jīng guò — 1. to pass 2. to go through 3. process 4. course 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
豫: Yù — short name for Henan 河南 (Hé nán)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
前途: qián tú — 1. prospects 2. future outlook 3. journey (HSK 4)
不到: bù dào — 1. not to arrive 2. not reaching 3. insufficient 4. less than
半夜: bàn yè — 1. midnight 2. in the middle of the night (HSK 2)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
現: xiàn — 1. to appear 2. present 3. now 4. existing 5. current
盡: jìn — 1. to use up 2. to exhaust 3. to end 4. to finish 5. to the utmost 6. exhausted 7. finished 8. to the limit (of sth) 9. all 10. entirely (HSK 6)
暗中: àn zhōng — 1. in the dark 2. in secret 3. on the sly 4. surreptitiously (HSK 7-9)
忽然: hū rán — suddenly; all of a sudden (HSK 2)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
一堆: yī duī — pile; heap; a lot of; a bunch of
食物: shí wù — food (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
浮出: fú chū — to emerge
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
灰: huī — 1. ash 2. dust 3. lime 4. gray 5. discouraged; dejected (HSK 7-9)
黃: Huáng — surname Huang or Hwang (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
臉: liǎn — 1. face 2. classifier: 張 (zhāng), 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
睜: zhēng — to open (one's eyes) (HSK 7-9)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
孩子氣: hái zi qì — 1. boyish; childish 2. childishness
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼睛: yǎn jing — 1. eye 2. classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng) (HSK 2)
懇: kěn — earnest
托: tuō — 1. to hold up in one's hand; to support with one's palm 2. sth serving as a support: a prop, a rest (e.g. arm rest) 3. (bound form) a shill 4. to ask; to beg; to entrust (variant of 託 (tuō)) 5. torr (unit of pressure) (HSK 6)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一定: yī dìng — 1. surely; certainly; definitely 2. fixed; settled 3. a certain ...; a given ... (HSK 2)
神: Shén — God (HSK 5)
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

。But my heart again felt heavy.，？Why could I not have borne it just a few days longer, instead of rushing so urgently to tell her the truth?，————。Now she would know that all that lay ahead of her was her father's — that creditor of his children's debts — blazing, sun-like severity, and other people's cold looks, colder even than frost.。Beyond that there was only emptiness.，，！To carry the heavy burden of emptiness, walking the so-called road of life amid such severity and cold looks — what a terrible thing this is!，——。And what is more, the end of that road is nothing but — a grave without even a headstone.

但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
沉重: chén zhòng — 1. heavy 2. hard 3. serious 4. critical (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
為什麼: wèi shén me — 1. why? 2. for what reason? (HSK 2)
偏: piān — 1. to lean 2. to slant 3. oblique 4. prejudiced 5. to deviate from average 6. to stray from the intended line 7. stubbornly 8. contrary to expectations (HSK 6)
不忍: bù rěn — cannot bear to
耐: nài — (bound form) to bear; to endure; to withstand (HSK 7-9)
幾天: jǐ tiān — several days
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
急: jí — 1. urgent 2. pressing 3. rapid 4. hurried 5. worried 6. to make (sb) anxious (HSK 2)
急: jí — 1. urgent 2. pressing 3. rapid 4. hurried 5. worried 6. to make (sb) anxious (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
告訴: gào sù — to press charges; to file a complaint (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
真: zhēn — 1. really 2. truly 3. indeed 4. real 5. true 6. genuine (HSK 1)
話: huà — 1. dialect 2. language 3. spoken words 4. speech 5. talk 6. words 7. conversation 8. what sb said 9. classifier: 種 (zhǒng), 席 (xí), 句 (jù), 口 (kǒu), 番 (fān) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
以後: yǐ hòu — 1. after 2. later 3. afterwards 4. following 5. later on 6. in the future (HSK 2)
所有: suǒ yǒu — 1. all 2. to have; to possess; to own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
父親: fù qīn — 1. father 2. also pr. (fù qin) 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
兒女: ér nǚ — 1. children; sons and daughters 2. a young man and a young woman (in love) (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
債主: zhài zhǔ — creditor
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
烈日: Liè rì — Liege, town in Belgium
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
嚴: Yán — surname Yan (HSK 4)
威: wēi — 1. power 2. might 3. prestige
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
旁人: páng rén — 1. other people 2. bystanders 3. onlookers 4. outsiders
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
賽: sài — 1. to compete 2. competition 3. match 4. to surpass 5. better than 6. superior to 7. to excel (HSK 6)
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
冰霜: bīng shuāng — (literary) ice formed in freezing weather as frost or icicles etc (often used as a metaphor for moral uprightness, strictness, sternness or aloofness)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷眼: lěng yǎn — 1. cool eye 2. fig. detached 3. (treating) with indifference
此外: cǐ wài — besides; in addition; moreover; furthermore (HSK 4)
便是: biàn shì — 1. (emphasizes that sth is precisely or exactly as stated) 2. precisely 3. exactly 4. even 5. if 6. just like 7. in the same way as (HSK 6)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
負: fù — 1. to bear 2. to carry (on one's back) 3. to turn one's back on 4. to be defeated 5. negative (math. etc) (HSK 6)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
重擔: zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
嚴: Yán — surname Yan (HSK 4)
威: wēi — 1. power 2. might 3. prestige
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
冷眼: lěng yǎn — 1. cool eye 2. fig. detached 3. (treating) with indifference
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
所謂: suǒ wèi — 1. what is meant by the expression ...; what is referred to as ... 2. (derog.) so-called (HSK 7-9)
人生: rén shēng — life (one's time on earth) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
怎麼: zěn me — 1. how? 2. what? 3. why? (HSK 1)
可怕: kě pà — 1. awful 2. dreadful 3. fearful 4. formidable 5. frightful 6. scary 7. hideous 8. horrible 9. terrible 10. terribly (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
呵: ā — variant of 啊 (ā)
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
況: kuàng — 1. moreover 2. situation
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
盡頭: jìn tóu — end; extremity; limit (HSK 7-9)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
墓碑: mù bēi — 1. gravestone 2. tombstone (HSK 7-9)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
墳墓: fén mù — 1. grave 2. tomb (HSK 7-9)

，，。I should not have told Zijun the truth; we had loved each other once, and I ought to have offered her my lies forever.，。If truth is something to be treasured, then for Zijun it ought not to have become a heavy emptiness.，，。A lie, of course, is also an emptiness, but in the end, at most, it would only weigh this heavily.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
應該: yīng gāi — ought to; should; must (HSK 2)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
相愛: xiāng ài — to love each other
過: Guō — surname Guo (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
應該: yīng gāi — ought to; should; must (HSK 2)
永久: yǒng jiǔ — 1. everlasting 2. perpetual 3. lasting 4. forever 5. permanent (HSK 7-9)
奉獻: fèng xiàn — 1. to offer respectfully 2. to consecrate 3. to dedicate 4. to devote (HSK 6)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
說謊: shuō huǎng — 1. to lie 2. to tell an untruth (HSK 7-9)
如果: rú guǒ — if; in case; in the event that (HSK 2)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
寶貴: bǎo guì — 1. valuable 2. precious 3. to value 4. to treasure 5. to set store by (HSK 4)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
不該: bù gāi — 1. should not 2. to owe nothing
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
沉重: chén zhòng — 1. heavy 2. hard 3. serious 4. critical (HSK 4)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
謊: huǎng — 1. lies 2. to lie
語: yǔ — 1. dialect 2. language 3. speech
當然: dāng rán — 1. only natural 2. as it should be 3. certainly 4. of course 5. without doubt (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
臨: lín — 1. to face 2. to overlook 3. to arrive 4. to be (just) about to 5. just before (HSK 7-9)
末: me — variant of 麼 (me) (HSK 4)
至多: zhì duō — 1. up to the maximum 2. upper limit 3. at most
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
沉重: chén zhòng — 1. heavy 2. hard 3. serious 4. critical (HSK 4)

，，，。I had thought that if I told Zijun the truth, she would be able to go forward without any misgivings, resolutely and unwaveringly, just as she had when we were about to live together.。But I fear I was mistaken in this.。Her courage and fearlessness then had come from love.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
以為: yǐ wéi — to think; to believe (often with the implication that the belief is mistaken – unless referring to one's own current belief) (HSK 2)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
可以: kě yǐ — 1. can 2. may 3. possible 4. able to 5. not bad 6. pretty good (HSK 2)
毫無: háo wú — 1. not in the least 2. to completely lack (HSK 7-9)
顧慮: gù lǜ — 1. misgivings; apprehensions 2. to worry about; to be concerned about (HSK 7-9)
堅決: jiān jué — firm; resolute; determined (HSK 3)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
毅然: yì rán — 1. firmly 2. resolutely 3. without hesitation (HSK 7-9)
前行: qián xíng — (literary) to go forward
一如: yī rú — to be just like
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
將要: jiāng yào — 1. will 2. shall 3. to be going to (HSK 5)
同居: tóng jū — 1. to live together 2. to cohabit
時: Shí — surname Shi (HSK 3)
那樣: nà yàng — 1. that kind 2. that sort (HSK 2)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
恐怕: kǒng pà — 1. fear 2. to dread 3. I'm afraid that... 4. perhaps 5. maybe (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
錯誤: cuò wù — 1. mistaken; false; wrong 2. error; mistake 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
當時: dāng shí — then; at that time (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
勇敢: yǒng gǎn — brave; courageous (HSK 4)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
畏: wèi — to fear
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)

，。I lacked the courage to bear the burden of falsehood myself, and instead unloaded the burden of truth onto her.，，。After she came to love me, she would have to carry this burden, walking the so-called road of life amid such severity and cold looks.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
負: fù — 1. to bear 2. to carry (on one's back) 3. to turn one's back on 4. to be defeated 5. negative (math. etc) (HSK 6)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
虛偽: xū wěi — 1. false 2. hypocritical 3. artificial 4. sham (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
重擔: zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
勇氣: yǒng qì — courage (HSK 4)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
重擔: zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
卸: xiè — 1. to unload 2. to unhitch 3. to remove or strip 4. to get rid of (HSK 7-9)
給: gěi — 1. to 2. for 3. for the benefit of 4. to give 5. to allow 6. to do sth (for sb) 7. (grammatical equivalent of 被) 8. (grammatical equivalent of 把) 9. (sentence intensifier) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
就要: jiù yào — 1. will 2. shall 3. to be going to (HSK 2)
負: fù — 1. to bear 2. to carry (on one's back) 3. to turn one's back on 4. to be defeated 5. negative (math. etc) (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
重擔: zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
嚴: Yán — surname Yan (HSK 4)
威: wēi — 1. power 2. might 3. prestige
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
冷眼: lěng yǎn — 1. cool eye 2. fig. detached 3. (treating) with indifference
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
所謂: suǒ wèi — 1. what is meant by the expression ...; what is referred to as ... 2. (derog.) so-called (HSK 7-9)
人生: rén shēng — life (one's time on earth) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)

……。I thought of her death...，，，。I saw that I was a cowardly, contemptible person, one who deserved to be cast out by the strong and the powerful, whether they were people of truth or people of falsehood.，……。And yet she, from beginning to end, had still hoped that I might sustain a somewhat longer life...

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
想到: xiǎng dào — 1. to think of 2. to call to mind 3. to anticipate (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
卑怯: bēi qiè — 1. mean and cowardly 2. abject
者: zhě — 1. (after a verb or adjective) one who (is) ... 2. (after a noun) person involved in ... 3. -er 4. -ist 5. (used after a number or 後 (hòu) or 前 (qián) to refer to sth mentioned previously) 6. (used after a term, to mark a pause before defining the term) 7. (old) (used at the end of a command) 8. (old) this
應該: yīng gāi — ought to; should; must (HSK 2)
被: bèi — 1. quilt 2. to cover (with) 3. (literary) to suffer (a misfortune) 4. used to indicate passive voice (placed before the doer of the action like "by" in English passive-voice sentences, or, if the doer is not mentioned, before the verb) 5. (since c. 2009) (sarcastic or jocular) used to indicate that the following word should be regarded as being in air quotes (as in 被旅遊[bei4 lu : 3 you2] to "go on a trip") (HSK 3)
擯: bìn — 1. to reject 2. to expel 3. to discard 4. to exclude 5. to renounce
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
強有力: qiáng yǒu lì — 1. strong 2. forceful
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
人們: rén men — people (HSK 2)
無論: wú lùn — 1. no matter what or how 2. regardless of whether... (HSK 4)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
者: zhě — 1. (after a verb or adjective) one who (is) ... 2. (after a noun) person involved in ... 3. -er 4. -ist 5. (used after a number or 後 (hòu) or 前 (qián) to refer to sth mentioned previously) 6. (used after a term, to mark a pause before defining the term) 7. (old) (used at the end of a command) 8. (old) this
虛偽: xū wěi — 1. false 2. hypocritical 3. artificial 4. sham (HSK 7-9)
者: zhě — 1. (after a verb or adjective) one who (is) ... 2. (after a noun) person involved in ... 3. -er 4. -ist 5. (used after a number or 後 (hòu) or 前 (qián) to refer to sth mentioned previously) 6. (used after a term, to mark a pause before defining the term) 7. (old) (used at the end of a command) 8. (old) this
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
自始至終: zì shǐ zhì zhōng — from start to finish (idiom) (HSK 7-9)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
希望: xī wàng — 1. to hope 2. a hope; a wish (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
維持: wéi chí — to keep; to maintain; to preserve (HSK 4)
較: jiào — 1. (bound form) to compare 2. (literary) to dispute 3. compared to 4. (before an adjective) relatively; comparatively; rather 5. also pr. (jiǎo) (HSK 3)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)

，。I would leave Jizhao Hutong; here there was nothing but a strange emptiness and loneliness.，，；I thought, if only I left this place, it would be as though Zijun were still by my side;，，，，。or at least, as though she were still somewhere in the city, and one day might unexpectedly come to visit me, just as in the days when I lived at the hostel.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
離開: lí kāi — to depart; to leave (HSK 2)
吉兆: jí zhào — lucky omen
衚衕: hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這裡: zhè lǐ — here (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
異樣: yì yàng — 1. difference 2. peculiar
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
寂寞: jì mò — 1. lonely 2. lonesome 3. (of a place) quiet 4. silent (HSK 7-9)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
只要: zhǐ yào — so long as; provided; if (HSK 2)
離開: lí kāi — to depart; to leave (HSK 2)
這裡: zhè lǐ — here (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
身邊: shēn biān — 1. at one's side 2. on hand (HSK 2)
至少: zhì shǎo — 1. at least 2. (to say the) least (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
如: rú — 1. as 2. as if 3. such as (HSK 6)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
城中: Chéng zhōng — see 城中區 (Chéng zhōng Qū)
有: yǒu — 1. to have; there is 2. (bound form) having; with; -ful; -ed; -al (as in 有意 (yǒu yì) intentional) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
將要: jiāng yào — 1. will 2. shall 3. to be going to (HSK 5)
出乎: chū hū — 1. due to 2. to stem from 3. to go beyond (also fig. beyond reason, expectations etc) 4. to go against (expectations)
意: yì — 1. (bound form) idea; thought; meaning; sense 2. (bound form) intention; feeling; inclination; state of mind 3. (bound form) Italy (abbr. for 意大利 (Yì dà lì))
表: biǎo — 1. exterior surface 2. family relationship via females 3. to show (one's opinion) 4. a model 5. a table (listing information) 6. a form 7. a meter (measuring sth) (HSK 2)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
訪: fǎng — 1. (bound form) to seek by inquiry 2. (bound form) to visit; to call on
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
住: zhù — 1. to live; to reside; to stay 2. to stop; to cease 3. (result complement indicating firmness or a stable achieved state) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
時候: shí hou — 1. time 2. length of time 3. moment 4. period (HSK 1)
似的: shì de — 1. seems as if 2. rather like 3. Taiwan pr. (sì de) (HSK 4)

，；But every request and every letter met with no response at all;，。left with no choice, I went to call on an old family friend I had long neglected.，，，。He had been my uncle's classmate in boyhood, a senior licentiate renowned for his rectitude, who had lived in Beijing a long time and had a wide circle of acquaintances.

然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
一切: yī qiè — 1. everything 2. every 3. all (HSK 3)
請: qǐng — 1. to ask 2. to invite 3. please (do sth) 4. to treat (to a meal etc) 5. to request (HSK 1)
托: tuō — 1. to hold up in one's hand; to support with one's palm 2. sth serving as a support: a prop, a rest (e.g. arm rest) 3. (bound form) a shill 4. to ask; to beg; to entrust (variant of 託 (tuō)) 5. torr (unit of pressure) (HSK 6)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
書信: shū xìn — 1. letter 2. epistle
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
反響: fǎn xiǎng — 1. repercussions 2. reaction 3. echo (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
不得已: bù dé yǐ — 1. to act against one's will 2. to have no alternative but to 3. to have to 4. to have no choice 5. must (HSK 7-9)
只好: zhǐ hǎo — to have no other option but to ...; to have to; to be forced to (HSK 3)
訪問: fǎng wèn — 1. to visit; to call on (a person or place) 2. (computing) to visit (a website); to access (a network resource etc) 3. (Tw) to interview (e.g. for a report or feature story) 4. classifier: 次 (cì) (HSK 3)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
不問: bù wèn — 1. to pay no attention to 2. to disregard 3. to ignore 4. to let go unpunished 5. to let off
候: hòu — 1. to wait 2. to inquire after 3. to watch 4. season 5. climate 6. (old) period of five days
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
世交: shì jiāo — (long time) friend of the family
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
伯父: bó fù — 1. father's elder brother 2. term of respect for older man 3. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
幼年: yòu nián — 1. childhood 2. infancy
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
同窗: tóng chuāng — 1. schoolmate 2. fellow student
以: Yǐ — abbr. for Israel 以色列 (Yǐ sè liè) (HSK 7-9)
正經: zhèng jīng — 1. decent 2. honorable 3. proper 4. serious 5. according to standards
出名: chū míng — 1. well-known for sth 2. to become well known 3. to make one's mark 4. to lend one's name (to an event, endeavor etc) (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
拔: bá — 1. to pull up 2. to pull out 3. to draw out by suction 4. to select 5. to pick 6. to stand out (above level) 7. to surpass 8. to seize (HSK 5)
貢: Gòng — surname Gong
寓: yù — 1. (bound form) to reside; to inhabit 2. (bound form) residence; dwelling 3. (bound form) to imply; to place; to contain (sth abstract)
京: Jīng — 1. surname Jing 2. short name for Beijing 北京 (Běi jīng) 3. Gin or Jing, ethnic minority of China, descendants of ethnic Vietnamese people living mainly in Guangxi 4. Kinh, the ethnic majority in Vietnam
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
久: jiǔ — (of a period of time) long (HSK 3)
交游: jiāo yóu — 1. to have friendly relationships 2. circle of friends
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
廣闊: guǎng kuò — 1. wide 2. vast (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，。Probably because of my shabby clothes, the moment I arrived I met with the gatekeeper's contemptuous stare.，，。With great difficulty I finally saw him, and he still recognized me, but he was very cold toward me.，。He already knew everything about our past.

大概: dà gài — 1. roughly 2. probably 3. rough 4. approximate 5. about 6. general idea (HSK 3)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
衣服: yī fu — 1. clothes 2. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 套 (tào) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
破舊: pò jiù — shabby (HSK 7-9)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
登門: dēng mén — to visit sb at home
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
遭: zāo — 1. to suffer; to meet with (usu. misfortune) 2. classifier for events: time, turn, incident
門房: mén fáng — 1. gatehouse 2. lodge 3. gatekeeper 4. porter
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
白眼: bái yǎn — 1. to give sb a dirty look; to cast a supercilious glance 2. a disdainful look
好容易: hǎo róng yì — 1. (idiomatic usage) with great difficulty 2. to have a hard time (convincing sb, relinquishing sth etc) 3. (literal usage) so easy
才: cái — 1. ability; talent 2. sb of a certain type 3. a capable individual 4. then and only then 5. just now 6. (before an expression of quantity) only 7. (emphatic, esp. in contrast or correction) really; actually (HSK 2)
相見: xiāng jiàn — 1. to see each other 2. to meet in person
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
相識: xiāng shí — 1. to get to know each other 2. acquaintance (HSK 7-9)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
冷落: lěng luò — 1. desolate 2. unfrequented 3. to treat sb coldly 4. to snub 5. to cold shoulder (HSK 7-9)
我們: wǒ men — we; us; ourselves; our (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
往事: wǎng shì — 1. past events 2. former happenings (HSK 7-9)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
全都: quán dōu — 1. all 2. without exception (HSK 5)
知道了: zhī dào le — 1. OK! 2. Got it!

「，，」，，「？"Naturally, you can't stay here either," he said coldly, after hearing me ask him to help me find work elsewhere. "But where would you go?。——，，，，，。」It's very difficult. — And that, what was it, your friend, Zijun — do you know, she's dead."

自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這裡: zhè lǐ — here (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
聽: tīng — 1. to listen to; to hear 2. to heed; to obey 3. a can (loanword from English "tin") 4. classifier for canned beverages 5. to let be; to allow (Taiwan pr. (tìng)) 6. (literary) to administer; to deal with (Taiwan pr. (tìng)) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
托: tuō — 1. to hold up in one's hand; to support with one's palm 2. sth serving as a support: a prop, a rest (e.g. arm rest) 3. (bound form) a shill 4. to ask; to beg; to entrust (variant of 託 (tuō)) 5. torr (unit of pressure) (HSK 6)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
別處: bié chù — elsewhere
覓: mì — 1. (literary) to seek 2. to find
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)
之後: zhī hòu — 1. after; behind 2. (at the beginning of a sentence) afterwards; since then (HSK 4)
冷冷: lěng lěng — coldly
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
說: shuì — to persuade (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
難: nán — 1. difficult (to...) 2. problem 3. difficulty 4. difficult 5. not good (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
什麼: shén me — 1. what? 2. something; anything (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
朋友: péng you — 1. friend 2. classifier: 個 (gè), 位 (wèi) (HSK 1)
罷: bà — 1. to stop 2. to cease 3. to dismiss 4. to suspend 5. to quit 6. to finish
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
你: nǐ — you (informal, as opposed to courteous 您 (nín)) (HSK 1)
可知: kě zhī — 1. evidently 2. clearly 3. no wonder 4. knowable
道: dào — 1. road; path (classifier: 條 (tiáo), 股 (gǔ)) 2. (bound form) way; reason; principle 3. (bound form) a skill; an art; a specialization 4. (Daoism) the Way; the Dao 5. to say (introducing a direct quotation, as in a novel) 6. (bound form) to express; to extend (polite words) 7. classifier for long thin things (rivers, cracks, shadows etc), barriers (walls, doors etc), questions (in an exam etc), commands, courses in a meal, steps in a process 8. (old) circuit (administrative division) (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

。I was so startled I had no words.

「？」。"Really?" I finally asked, without meaning to.

「。"Ha ha.。Of course it's true.，。」My servant Wang Sheng's family lives in the same village as hers."

「，——？」"But — do you know how she died?"

「。"Who knows.。」In any case, she's dead, that's all."

，。I had already forgotten how I took my leave of him and returned to my own lodgings.；I knew he was not one to tell lies;，。Zijun would never come again, as she had the year before.，。Even if she had wished to carry the heavy burden of emptiness through severity and cold looks along the so-called road of life, she could no longer do so.，——！Her fate had already determined that she would perish in the truth I had given her — a loveless world!

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
忘卻: wàng què — to forget
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
辭別: cí bié — to bid farewell (to); to say goodbye (to)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
回到: huí dào — to return to (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寓所: yù suǒ — dwelling
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
不: bù — 1. no; not so 2. (bound form) not; un- (HSK 1)
說謊: shuō huǎng — 1. to lie 2. to tell an untruth (HSK 7-9)
話: huà — 1. dialect 2. language 3. spoken words 4. speech 5. talk 6. words 7. conversation 8. what sb said 9. classifier: 種 (zhǒng), 席 (xí), 句 (jù), 口 (kǒu), 番 (fān) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
總: zǒng — 1. (bound form) general; overall 2. to sum up 3. in every case; always; invariably 4. anyway; after all; eventually; sooner or later 5. surely 6. (after a person's name) abbr. for 總經理 (zǒng jīng lǐ) or 總編 (zǒng biān) etc (HSK 3)
不會: bù huì — 1. improbable 2. unlikely 3. will not (act, happen etc) 4. not able 5. not having learned to do sth 6. (coll.) (Tw) don't mention it 7. not at all
再: zài — 1. again; once more; re- 2. further; beyond this point of time 3. (before an adjective) more 4. then (after sth, and not until then) 5. no matter how ... (followed by an adjective or verb, and then (usually) 也 (yě) or 都 (dōu) for emphasis) 6. (used to introduce additional information, as in 再則 (zài zé), 再就是 (zài jiù shì) etc) 7. (literary) to reappear; to reoccur (HSK 1)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
去年: qù nián — last year (HSK 1)
那樣: nà yàng — 1. that kind 2. that sort (HSK 2)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
雖是: suī shì — 1. although 2. even though 3. even if
想: xiǎng — 1. to think (about) 2. to think of; to devise 3. to think (that); to believe (that) 4. to desire; to want (to) 5. to miss (feel wistful about the absence of) (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
嚴: Yán — surname Yan (HSK 4)
威: wēi — 1. power 2. might 3. prestige
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
冷眼: lěng yǎn — 1. cool eye 2. fig. detached 3. (treating) with indifference
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
負: fù — 1. to bear 2. to carry (on one's back) 3. to turn one's back on 4. to be defeated 5. negative (math. etc) (HSK 6)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
重擔: zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
走: zǒu — 1. to walk 2. to go 3. to run 4. to move (of vehicle) 5. to visit 6. to leave 7. to go away 8. to die (euph.) 9. from 10. through 11. away (in compound verbs, such as 撤走 (chè zǒu)) 12. to change (shape, form, meaning) (HSK 1)
所謂: suǒ wèi — 1. what is meant by the expression ...; what is referred to as ... 2. (derog.) so-called (HSK 7-9)
人生: rén shēng — life (one's time on earth) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
路: Lù — surname Lu (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
命運: mìng yùn — fate; destiny (HSK 3)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
決定: jué dìng — 1. to decide; to determine; to make up one's mind 2. decision (classifier: 個 (gè), 項 (xiàng)) (HSK 3)
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
所: suǒ — 1. actually 2. place 3. classifier for houses, small buildings, institutions etc 4. that which 5. particle introducing a relative clause or passive 6. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
給與: jǐ yǔ — variant of 給予 (jǐ yǔ)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
人間: rén jiān — 1. the human world 2. the earth (HSK 5)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
滅: miè — 1. to extinguish or put out 2. to go out (of a fire etc) 3. to exterminate or wipe out 4. to drown (HSK 6)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，；Naturally, I could not stay here any longer;，「？」But, "Where to go?"

，。All around was vast emptiness, and dead silence.，，。The darkness before the eyes of those who die without love — I seemed to see it all, one by one, and to hear too the sounds of all their anguished, despairing struggles.

四圍: sì wéi — 1. all around 2. on all sides 3. encircled
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
廣大: guǎng dà — 1. (of an area) vast or extensive 2. large-scale 3. widespread 4. (of people) numerous (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
還有: hái yǒu — 1. there still remain(s); there is (or are) still 2. in addition (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
無: mó — used in 南無 (nā mó) (HSK 4)
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
人們: rén men — people (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼前: yǎn qián — 1. before one's eyes 2. now 3. at present (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
黑暗: hēi àn — 1. dark 2. darkly 3. darkness (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
一一: yī yī — one by one; one after another (HSK 7-9)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
聽: tīng — 1. to listen to; to hear 2. to heed; to obey 3. a can (loanword from English "tin") 4. classifier for canned beverages 5. to let be; to allow (Taiwan pr. (tìng)) 6. (literary) to administer; to deal with (Taiwan pr. (tìng)) (HSK 1)
得: dé — 1. to obtain 2. to get 3. to gain 4. to catch (a disease) 5. proper 6. suitable 7. proud 8. contented 9. to allow 10. to permit 11. ready 12. finished (HSK 2)
一切: yī qiè — 1. everything 2. every 3. all (HSK 3)
苦悶: kǔ mèn — 1. depressed 2. dejected 3. feeling low
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
絕望: jué wàng — 1. to despair 2. to give up all hope 3. desperate 4. desperation (HSK 5)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
掙扎: zhēng zhá — to struggle (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
聲音: shēng yīn — sound; voice (HSK 2)

，，。I was still waiting for something new to arrive, something nameless, something unexpected.，。But day after day, it was nothing but dead silence.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
期待: qī dài — 1. to look forward to 2. to await 3. expectation (HSK 4)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
東西: dōng xī — east and west (HSK 1)
到來: dào lái — 1. to arrive 2. arrival; advent (HSK 5)
無名: wú míng — 1. nameless 2. obscure
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
意外: yì wài — 1. unexpected 2. accident 3. mishap 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
無非: wú fēi — 1. only 2. nothing else (HSK 7-9)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)

，，。I went out much less than before, only sitting or lying in the vast emptiness, letting this dead silence corrode my soul.，，，，，。The dead silence would sometimes tremble of itself, and shrink back of itself, and then, at this juncture between cessation and continuation, there would flash out a nameless, unexpected, new expectation.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
比: Bǐ — 1. Belgium 2. Belgian 3. abbr. for 比利時 (Bǐ lì shí) (HSK 1)
先前: xiān qián — before; previously (HSK 5)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
不大: bù dà — 1. not very (clear, far away etc); not too 2. not often; infrequently (HSK 1)
出門: chū mén — 1. to go out 2. to leave home 3. to go on a journey 4. away from home 5. (of a woman) to get married (HSK 2)
只: zhī — variant of 隻 (zhī) (HSK 2)
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
卧: wò — 1. to lie 2. to crouch (HSK 7-9)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
廣大: guǎng dà — 1. (of an area) vast or extensive 2. large-scale 3. widespread 4. (of people) numerous (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
里: Lǐ — surname Li (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
任: Rén — surname Ren (HSK 3)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
侵蝕: qīn shí — 1. to erode 2. to corrode
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
靈魂: líng hún — 1. soul 2. spirit (HSK 7-9)
死: sǐ — 1. to die 2. impassable 3. uncrossable 4. inflexible 5. rigid 6. extremely 7. damned (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
寂靜: jì jìng — quiet (HSK 7-9)
有時: yǒu shí — 1. sometimes 2. now and then (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
戰慄: zhàn lì — 1. to tremble 2. shudder
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
退: tuì — 1. to retreat; to withdraw 2. to reject; to return (sth) 3. to decline (HSK 3)
藏: Zàng — 1. Tibetan ethnic group 2. Tibet Autonomous Region (short name for 西藏自治區 (Xī zàng Zì zhì qū)) (HSK 6)
於是: yú shì — thereupon; as a result; consequently; thus; hence (HSK 4)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
絕: jué — 1. to cut short 2. extinct 3. to disappear 4. to vanish 5. absolutely 6. by no means (HSK 6)
續: xù — 1. to continue 2. to replenish (HSK 7-9)
之: zhī — 1. (possessive particle, literary equivalent of 的 (de)) 2. him 3. her 4. it (HSK 7-9)
交: jiāo — 1. to hand over; to deliver; to pay (money); to turn over 2. to make friends 3. (of lines) to intersect 4. variant of 跤 (jiāo) (HSK 2)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
閃出: shǎn chū — 1. to flash 2. to sparkle 3. to appear suddenly
無名: wú míng — 1. nameless 2. obscure
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
意外: yì wài — 1. unexpected 2. accident 3. mishap 4. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
期待: qī dài — 1. to look forward to 2. to await 3. expectation (HSK 4)

，；One overcast morning, the sun still could not struggle free of the clouds;。even the air seemed weary.，。My ears caught the sound of soft, broken footsteps and a wheezing breath, which made me open my eyes.，；A quick glance showed the room was still empty;，，，，……。but by chance I looked at the floor, and there circling about was a small animal, thin and weak, half-dead, covered all over in gray dust……

一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
天: tiān — 1. day 2. sky 3. heaven (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
陰沉: yīn chén — gloomy
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
上午: shàng wǔ — morning (HSK 1)
太陽: tài yang — 1. sun 2. sunlight; sunshine 3. temple (on the side of the human head) (abbr. for 太陽穴 (tài yáng xué)) (HSK 2)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
不能: bù néng — 1. cannot 2. must not 3. should not
從: Cóng — surname Cong (HSK 1)
雲: Yún — 1. surname Yun 2. short name for Yunnan 雲南 (Yún nán) (HSK 2)
裡面: lǐ miàn — 1. inside 2. interior 3. also pr. (lǐ mian) (HSK 3)
掙扎: zhēng zhá — to struggle (HSK 7-9)
出來: chū lái — 1. to come out 2. to appear 3. to arise (HSK 1)
連: Lián — surname Lian (HSK 3)
空氣: kōng qì — 1. air 2. atmosphere (HSK 2)
都: Dū — surname Du (HSK 1)
疲乏: pí fá — 1. tired 2. weary
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
耳: ěr — 1. ear 2. handle (archaeology) 3. and that is all (Classical Chinese)
中聽: zhōng tīng — 1. pleasant to hear (i.e. agreeable news) 2. to one's liking 3. music to one's ears 4. Taiwan pr. (zhòng tīng)
到: dào — 1. to reach; to arrive 2. to leave for; to go to 3. to (a place); until (a time); up to (a point) 4. (verb complement indicating arriving at a place or reaching a point) 5. considerate; thoughtful; thorough (HSK 1)
細碎: xì suì — fragments; bits and pieces
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
步: Bù — surname Bu (HSK 3)
聲: shēng — 1. sound 2. voice 3. tone 4. noise 5. reputation 6. classifier for sounds (HSK 5)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
咻: xiū — 1. call out 2. jeer
咻: xiū — 1. call out 2. jeer
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
鼻息: bí xī — breath
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
睜開: zhēng kāi — to open (one's eyes)
眼: yǎn — 1. eye (classifier: 隻 (zhī), 雙 (shuāng)) 2. (often used with 一 (yī)) a look; a glance 3. small hole 4. (bound form) salient point 5. classifier for wells, cave-dwellings etc (HSK 2)
大致: dà zhì — more or less; roughly; approximately (HSK 5)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
看: kān — 1. to look after 2. to take care of 3. to watch 4. to guard (HSK 1)
屋子: wū zi — 1. house 2. room 3. classifier: 間 (jiān) (HSK 3)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
空虛: kōng xū — 1. hollow 2. emptiness 3. meaningless (HSK 7-9)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
偶然: ǒu rán — 1. incidentally 2. occasional 3. occasionally 4. by chance 5. randomly (HSK 5)
看到: kàn dào — to see (HSK 1)
地面: dì miàn — 1. floor 2. ground 3. surface (HSK 4)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
盤旋: pán xuán — 1. to spiral 2. to circle 3. to go around 4. to hover 5. to orbit
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
匹: pǐ — 1. (bound form) matching; comparable to 2. (bound form) alone; single; one of a pair 3. classifier for horses, mules etc (Taiwan pr. (pī)) 4. classifier for cloth: bolt 5. horsepower (HSK 5)
小小: xiǎo xiǎo — 1. very small 2. very few 3. very minor
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
動物: dòng wù — animal (HSK 2)
瘦弱: shòu ruò — thin and weak
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
半死: bàn sǐ — 1. half dead (of torment, hunger, tiredness etc) 2. (tired) to death 3. (terrified) out of one's wits 4. (beaten) to within an inch of one's life 5. (knock) the daylights out of sb
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
滿身: mǎn shēn — covered all over
灰土: huī tǔ — 1. dust 2. (soil taxonomy) spodosol
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)

，，。The moment I looked closely, my heart stopped, and then it began to pound.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
細看: xì kàn — 1. to peer 2. to scan 3. to examine carefully
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
停: tíng — 1. to stop 2. to halt 3. to park (a car) (HSK 2)
接著: jiē zhe — 1. to catch and hold on 2. to continue 3. to go on to do sth 4. to follow 5. to carry on 6. then 7. after that 8. subsequently 9. to proceed 10. to ensue 11. in turn 12. in one's turn (HSK 2)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
直: Zhí — 1. surname Zhi 2. Zhi (c. 2000 BC), fifth of the legendary Flame Emperors 炎帝 (Yán dì) descended from Shennong 神農 (Shén nóng) Farmer God (HSK 3)
跳: tiào — 1. to jump 2. to hop 3. to skip over 4. to bounce 5. to palpitate (HSK 3)
起來: qǐ lai — 1. to stand up; to get up 2. also pr. (qǐ lái) (HSK 1)

。It was Ah Sui.。It had come back.

，，。My leaving Jizhao Hutong had not been only because of the cold looks from the landlord's family and their maidservant — it was mostly because of this very Ah Sui.，「？」，，，，。But, "Where to go?" Of course there were still many new paths of life; I knew this roughly, and now and then caught a faint glimpse of them, feeling they were right before me, and yet I still did not know how to take the first step to cross into them.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
離開: lí kāi — to depart; to leave (HSK 2)
吉兆: jí zhào — lucky omen
衚衕: hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
不單: bù dān — 1. not the only 2. not merely 3. not simply
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
為了: wèi le — for; for the purpose of; in order to (HSK 3)
房主: fáng zhǔ — 1. landlord 2. house owner
人們: rén men — people (HSK 2)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
他: tā — 1. (third-person singular) (since the early 20th century, usu. male) he; him; his 2. (bound form) other; another; some other (as in 他日 (tā rì) and 他人 (tā rén)) (HSK 1)
家: jiā — 1. home 2. family 3. (polite) my (sister, uncle etc) 4. classifier for families or businesses 5. refers to the philosophical schools of pre-Han China 6. noun suffix for a specialist in some activity, such as a musician or revolutionary, corresponding to English -ist, -er, -ary or -ian 7. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 1)
女工: nǚ gōng — 1. working woman 2. variant of 女紅 (nǚ gōng)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
冷眼: lěng yǎn — 1. cool eye 2. fig. detached 3. (treating) with indifference
大半: dà bàn — 1. more than half 2. greater part 3. most 4. probably 5. most likely
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
為著: wèi zhe — 1. in order to 2. because of 3. for the sake of
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
阿: ā — 1. prefix used before monosyllabic names, kinship terms etc to indicate familiarity 2. used in transliteration 3. (bound form) Afghanistan (abbr. for 阿富汗 (Ā fù hàn)) 4. (bound form) Albania (abbr. for 阿爾巴尼亞 (Ā ěr bā ní yà)) 5. (bound form) Algeria (abbr. for 阿爾及利亞 (Ā ěr jí lì yà)) 6. (bound form) Argentina (abbr. for 阿根廷 (Ā gēn tíng)) 7. also pr. (à)
隨: Suí — surname Sui (HSK 3)
但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
呢: ne — 1. (sentence-final particle) used in questions to link back to prior discourse or context ("what about...?", "and...?") 2. (sentence-final particle) indicating that a state or situation still holds 3. (discourse particle) used to mark a slight pause or emphasis in speech (HSK 1)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
自然: zì rán — 1. nature 2. natural 3. naturally (HSK 3)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
約略: yuē lüè — 1. approximate 2. rough
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
間或: jiàn huò — 1. occasionally 2. now and then
依稀: yī xī — 1. vaguely 2. dimly 3. probably 4. very likely
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
覺得: jué de — 1. to think that ...; to feel that ... 2. to feel (uncomfortable etc) (HSK 1)
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
面前: miàn qián — 1. in front of 2. facing 3. (in the) presence (of) (HSK 2)
然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
沒有: méi yǒu — 1. haven't 2. hasn't 3. doesn't exist 4. to not have 5. to not be (HSK 1)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
跨: kuà — 1. to step across 2. to stride over 3. to straddle 4. to span (HSK 6)
進: jìn — 1. to go forward 2. to advance 3. to go in 4. to enter 5. to put in 6. to submit 7. to take in 8. to admit 9. (math.) base of a number system 10. classifier for sections in a building or residential compound (HSK 1)
那裡: nà li — there; that place (HSK 1)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
第一步: dì yī bù — 1. step one 2. first step
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
方法: fāng fǎ — method; way; technique; procedure (HSK 2)

，。After many rounds of consideration and comparison, it turned out that the only place that could still tolerate me was the fellow-provincial guild hall.，，，，，，，，，。It was still the same shabby room, the same plank bed, the same half-withered locust tree and wisteria, but everything that had once given me hope, joy, love, life, had all vanished; only an emptiness remained, an emptiness I had traded my truthfulness to obtain.

經過: jīng guò — 1. to pass 2. to go through 3. process 4. course 5. classifier: 個 (gè) (HSK 2)
許多: xǔ duō — 1. many 2. a lot of 3. much (HSK 2)
回: Huí — Hui ethnic group (Chinese Muslims) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
思量: sī liang — 1. to reckon 2. to consider 3. to turn over in one's mind
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
比較: bǐ jiào — 1. to compare 2. to contrast 3. comparatively 4. relatively 5. quite 6. comparison (HSK 3)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
會館: huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
能: Néng — surname Neng (HSK 1)
相容: xiāng róng — 1. compatible 2. consistent 3. to tolerate (each other)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
地方: dì fāng — 1. region 2. regional (away from the central administration) 3. local (HSK 1)
依然: yī rán — still; as before (HSK 4)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
破: pò — 1. broken 2. damaged 3. worn out 4. lousy 5. rotten 6. to break, split or cleave 7. to get rid of 8. to destroy 9. to break with 10. to defeat 11. to capture (a city etc) 12. to expose the truth of (HSK 3)
屋: wū — 1. (bound form) house 2. (bound form) room (HSK 5)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
板: bǎn — 1. board 2. plank 3. plate 4. shutter 5. table tennis bat 6. clappers (music) 7. classifier: 塊 (kuài) 8. accented beat in Chinese music 9. hard 10. stiff 11. to stop smiling or look serious (HSK 3)
床: chuáng — 1. bed; couch (furniture that one can lie down on) (classifier: 張 (zhāng)) 2. bed; bottom (of rivers, oceans, gardens etc) 3. frame; chassis 4. classifier for blankets, quilts etc (HSK 1)
這樣: zhè yàng — 1. this way; like this; so 2. (before a noun) this kind of; such (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
半: bàn — 1. half 2. semi- 3. incomplete 4. (after a number) and a half (HSK 1)
枯: kū — 1. (of plants) withered 2. (of wells, rivers etc) dried up 3. (bound form) dull; boring 4. (bound form) residue of pressed oilseeds
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
槐樹: huái shù — locust tree (Sophora japonica) (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
紫藤: zǐ téng — wisteria
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
那時: nà shí — 1. then 2. at that time 3. in those days (HSK 2)
使: shǐ — 1. to make 2. to cause 3. to enable 4. to use 5. to employ 6. to send 7. to instruct sb to do sth 8. envoy 9. messenger (HSK 3)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
希望: xī wàng — 1. to hope 2. a hope; a wish (HSK 3)
歡欣: huān xīn — elated
愛: ài — 1. to love; to be fond of; to like 2. affection 3. to be inclined (to do sth); to tend to (happen) (HSK 1)
生活: shēng huó — 1. to live 2. life 3. livelihood (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
全都: quán dōu — 1. all 2. without exception (HSK 5)
逝去: shì qù — 1. to elapse 2. to pass away 3. to die 4. demise
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)
只有: zhǐ yǒu — 1. only have ...; there is only ... 2. (used in combination with 才 (cái)) it is only if ... (that one can ...) (as in 只有通過治療才能痊愈 (zhǐ yǒu tōng guò zhì liáo cái néng quán yù) "the only way to cure it is with therapy") 3. it is only (someone) who ... (as in 只有男性才有此需要 (zhǐ yǒu nán xìng cái yǒu cǐ xū yào) "only men would have such a requirement") 4. (used to express lack of alternatives) can only; have no choice but to (as in 只有屈服 (zhǐ yǒu qū fú) "the only thing you can do is give in") (HSK 3)
一個: yī ge — 1. a; an; one 2. the whole (afternoon, summer vacation etc)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
換: huàn — 1. to exchange 2. to change (clothes etc) 3. to substitute 4. to switch 5. to convert (currency) (HSK 2)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
存在: cún zài — 1. to exist 2. to be 3. existence (HSK 3)

，，。There were still many new paths of life, and I had to step into them, because I was still alive.。But I still did not know how to take that first step.，，，，，，。Sometimes it seemed I saw that path of life like a long, gray-white snake, winding its own way and rushing toward me; I waited, and waited, watching it draw near, but suddenly it would vanish into the darkness.

新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
很: hěn — 1. very; quite 2. (also, often used before an adjective without intensifying its meaning, i.e. as a meaningless syntactic element) (HSK 1)
多: duō — 1. many; much; more; a lot of 2. too many; in excess 3. (after a numeral) ... odd 4. how (to what extent) (Taiwan pr. (duó)) 5. (bound form) multi-; poly- (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
必須: bì xū — 1. to have to 2. must 3. compulsory 4. necessarily (HSK 2)
跨: kuà — 1. to step across 2. to stride over 3. to straddle 4. to span (HSK 6)
進去: jìn qù — to go in (HSK 1)
因為: yīn wèi — because; owing to; on account of (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
活著: huó zhe — alive
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
還: Huán — surname Huan (HSK 1)
不知: bù zhī — 1. not to know 2. unaware 3. unknowingly 4. fig. not to admit (defeat, hardships, tiredness etc) (HSK 7-9)
道: dào — 1. road; path (classifier: 條 (tiáo), 股 (gǔ)) 2. (bound form) way; reason; principle 3. (bound form) a skill; an art; a specialization 4. (Daoism) the Way; the Dao 5. to say (introducing a direct quotation, as in a novel) 6. (bound form) to express; to extend (polite words) 7. classifier for long thin things (rivers, cracks, shadows etc), barriers (walls, doors etc), questions (in an exam etc), commands, courses in a meal, steps in a process 8. (old) circuit (administrative division) (HSK 2)
怎樣: zěn yàng — 1. how 2. what kind (HSK 2)
跨: kuà — 1. to step across 2. to stride over 3. to straddle 4. to span (HSK 6)
出: chū — 1. to go out; to come out 2. to arise; to occur 3. to produce; to yield 4. to go beyond; to exceed 5. (used after a verb to indicate an outward direction or a positive result) 6. classifier for dramas, plays, operas etc (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
第一步: dì yī bù — 1. step one 2. first step
有時: yǒu shí — 1. sometimes 2. now and then (HSK 1)
仿佛: fǎng fú — 1. to seem; as if; seemingly 2. alike; similar (HSK 6)
看見: kàn jiàn — to see; to catch sight of (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
就: jiù — 1. (after a suppositional clause) in that case; then 2. (after a clause of action) as soon as; immediately after 3. (same as 就是 (jiù shì)) merely; nothing else but; simply; just; precisely; exactly 4. only; as little as 5. as much as; as many as 6. to approach; to move towards 7. to undertake; to engage in 8. (often followed by 著 (zhe)) taking advantage of 9. (of food) to go with 10. with regard to; concerning 11. (bound form) to reach; to attain (as in 一蹴而就 (yī cù ér jiù)) 12. (pattern: 就 (jiù) ... 也 (yě) ...) even if ... still ... 13. (pattern: 不 (bù) ... 就 (jiù) ...) if not ... then must be ... (HSK 1)
像: xiàng — 1. to resemble 2. to be like 3. to look as if 4. such as 5. appearance 6. image 7. portrait 8. image under a mapping (math.) (HSK 2)
一: yī — 1. one 2. single 3. a (article) 4. as soon as 5. entire; whole; all; throughout 6. "one" radical in Chinese characters (Kangxi radical 1) 7. also pr. (yāo) for greater clarity when spelling out numbers digit by digit (HSK 1)
條: tiáo — 1. strip 2. item 3. article 4. clause (of law or treaty) 5. classifier for long thin things (ribbon, river, road, trousers etc) (HSK 2)
灰白: huī bái — ash-colored
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
長: cháng — 1. long 2. (bound form) length 3. (bound form) strong point; forte 4. (bound form) to be good at 5. (literary) surplus; spare (Taiwan pr. (zhàng)) (HSK 2)
蛇: shé — 1. snake 2. serpent 3. classifier: 條 (tiáo) (HSK 5)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)
蜿蜒: wān yán — 1. (of a snake) to wriggle along 2. (of a river etc) to zigzag; to meander; to wind
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
向: Xiàng — surname Xiang (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
奔: bēn — 1. to hurry 2. to rush 3. to run quickly 4. to elope (HSK 7-9)
來: lái — 1. to come 2. (used as a substitute for a more specific verb) 3. hither (directional complement for motion toward the speaker, as in 回來 (huí lai)) 4. ever since (as in 自古以來 (zì gǔ yǐ lái)) 5. for the past (amount of time) 6. (prefix) the coming ...; the next ... (as in 來世 (lái shì)) 7. (between two verbs) in order to 8. (after a round number) approximately 9. (used after 得 (dé) to indicate possibility, as in 談得來 (tán de lái), or after 不 (bù) to indicate impossibility, as in 吃不來 (chī bu lái)) (HSK 1)
我等: wǒ děng — 1. we 2. us (archaic)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
等: děng — 1. to wait for; to await 2. by the time; when; till 3. and so on; etc.; et al. 4. (bound form) class; rank; grade 5. (bound form) equal to; same as 6. (used to end an enumeration) 7. (literary) (plural suffix attached to a personal pronoun or noun) (HSK 1)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
看看: kàn kan — 1. to take a look at 2. to examine 3. to survey 4. (coll.) pretty soon
臨近: lín jìn — to approach; to draw near; to be close to (in space or time) (HSK 7-9)
但: dàn — 1. but; yet; however; still 2. merely; only; just (HSK 2)
忽然: hū rán — suddenly; all of a sudden (HSK 2)
便: biàn — 1. plain 2. informal 3. suitable 4. convenient 5. opportune 6. to urinate or defecate 7. equivalent to 就 (jiù): then 8. in that case 9. even if 10. soon afterwards (HSK 6)
消失: xiāo shī — to disappear; to fade away (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
黑暗: hēi àn — 1. dark 2. darkly 3. darkness (HSK 4)
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，。The early-spring night was still so long.，，。Sitting there dully for a long while, I recalled the funeral procession I had seen in the street that morning — paper figures and paper horses in front, and behind them a wailing that sounded like singing.，。Now I understood their cleverness — what a light and simple matter it was.

初: chū — 1. (bound form) at first; initially 2. (bound form) first; early 3. (bound form) (in lunar calendar dates, before numerals 1–10) days 1 to 10 of a month, as in 初三 (chū sān) "the third" (HSK 3)
春: Chūn — surname Chun
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
夜: yè — night (HSK 2)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
那麼: nà me — 1. like that; in that way; to that extent 2. (before a number) ... or so; about ... 3. then; in that case (HSK 2)
長: cháng — 1. long 2. (bound form) length 3. (bound form) strong point; forte 4. (bound form) to be good at 5. (literary) surplus; spare (Taiwan pr. (zhàng)) (HSK 2)
長久: cháng jiǔ — 1. long-time; long-term 2. lasting; enduring; permanent 3. for a long time (HSK 6)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
枯: kū — 1. (of plants) withered 2. (of wells, rivers etc) dried up 3. (bound form) dull; boring 4. (bound form) residue of pressed oilseeds
坐: Zuò — surname Zuo (HSK 1)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
記起: jì qǐ — 1. to recall 2. to recollect
上午: shàng wǔ — morning (HSK 1)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
街頭: jiē tóu — street (HSK 6)
所見: suǒ jiàn — 1. (literary) what one sees 2. (literary) opinion; view
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
葬式: zàng shì — funeral
前面: qián miàn — 1. ahead 2. in front 3. preceding 4. above 5. also pr. (qián mian) (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
紙人紙馬: zhǐ rén zhǐ mǎ — paper dolls for ritual use in the shape of people or animals
後面: hòu mian — 1. the back; the rear; the last bit 2. behind; near the end; at the back 3. later; afterwards (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
唱歌: chàng gē — to sing a song (HSK 1)
一般: yī bān — 1. same 2. ordinary 3. so-so 4. common 5. general 6. generally 7. in general (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
哭聲: kū shēng — sound of weeping
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
已經: yǐ jīng — already (HSK 2)
知道: zhī dào — 1. to know; to become aware of 2. also pr. (zhī dao) (HSK 1)
他們: tā men — they; them (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
聰明: cōng ming — 1. intelligent; clever; bright 2. acute (of sight and hearing) (HSK 5)
瞭: liǎo — 1. (of eyes) bright 2. clear-sighted 3. to understand clearly (HSK 1)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
多麼: duō me — 1. how (wonderful etc) 2. what (a great idea etc) 3. however (difficult it may be etc) 4. (in interrogative sentences) how (much etc) 5. to what extent (HSK 2)
輕鬆: qīng sōng — 1. light 2. gentle 3. relaxed 4. effortless 5. uncomplicated 6. to relax 7. to take things less seriously (HSK 4)
簡: jiǎn — 1. simple 2. uncomplicated 3. letter 4. to choose 5. to select 6. bamboo strips used for writing (old)
截: jié — 1. to cut off (a length) 2. to stop 3. to intercept 4. section 5. chunk 6. length (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
事: shì — 1. matter 2. thing 3. item 4. work 5. affair 6. classifier: 件 (jiàn), 樁 (zhuāng), 回 (huí) (HSK 1)

，，，。And yet Zijun's funeral appeared before my eyes again — alone, bearing the heavy burden of emptiness, walking forward on the long gray-white road, and then instantly vanishing amid the stern authority and cold stares around her.

然而: rán ér — however; but; yet (HSK 4)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
葬式: zàng shì — funeral
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
眼前: yǎn qián — 1. before one's eyes 2. now 3. at present (HSK 3)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
獨自: dú zì — alone (HSK 4)
負: fù — 1. to bear 2. to carry (on one's back) 3. to turn one's back on 4. to be defeated 5. negative (math. etc) (HSK 6)
著: zhāo — 1. a move in chess (Taiwan pr. (zhuó)) 2. trick; tactic 3. (dialect) okay; all right 4. (dialect) to put in; to add (HSK 1)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
重擔: zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
灰白: huī bái — ash-colored
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
長: cháng — 1. long 2. (bound form) length 3. (bound form) strong point; forte 4. (bound form) to be good at 5. (literary) surplus; spare (Taiwan pr. (zhàng)) (HSK 2)
路上: lù shang — 1. on the road 2. on the way; en route (HSK 1)
前行: qián xíng — (literary) to go forward
而: ér — 1. and 2. as well as 3. and so 4. but (not) 5. yet (not) 6. (indicates causal relation) 7. (indicates change of state) 8. (indicates contrast) (HSK 4)
又: yòu — 1. (once) again 2. also 3. both... and... 4. and yet 5. (used for emphasis) anyway (HSK 2)
即刻: jí kè — 1. immediately 2. instant 3. instantly
消失: xiāo shī — to disappear; to fade away (HSK 3)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
周圍: zhōu wéi — environs; surroundings; periphery (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
嚴: Yán — surname Yan (HSK 4)
威: wēi — 1. power 2. might 3. prestige
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
冷眼: lěng yǎn — 1. cool eye 2. fig. detached 3. (treating) with indifference
裡: lǐ — 1. lining 2. interior 3. inside 4. internal 5. also written 裏 (lǐ) (HSK 1)
了: le — 1. (completed action marker) 2. (modal particle indicating change of state, situation now) 3. (modal particle intensifying preceding clause) (HSK 1)

，，，，，，；I wished that there truly were such things as ghosts, truly such a thing as hell; then, even amid the raging winds of retribution, I would seek out Zijun, and speak to her face to face of my remorse and my sorrow, and beg her forgiveness;，，。otherwise, the poisonous flames of hell would surround me, and fiercely burn away all my remorse and my sorrow.

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
願意: yuàn yì — 1. to wish 2. to want 3. ready 4. willing (to do sth) (HSK 2)
真: zhēn — 1. really 2. truly 3. indeed 4. real 5. true 6. genuine (HSK 1)
有所: yǒu suǒ — 1. somewhat 2. to some extent (HSK 7-9)
謂: Wèi — surname Wei
鬼魂: guǐ hún — ghost
真: zhēn — 1. really 2. truly 3. indeed 4. real 5. true 6. genuine (HSK 1)
有所: yǒu suǒ — 1. somewhat 2. to some extent (HSK 7-9)
謂: Wèi — surname Wei
地獄: dì yù — 1. hell; underworld; (Buddhism) Naraka 2. (coll.) (of humor, jokes, content etc) extremely dark or morally transgressive (HSK 7-9)
那麼: nà me — 1. like that; in that way; to that extent 2. (before a number) ... or so; about ... 3. then; in that case (HSK 2)
即使: jí shǐ — even if; even though (HSK 5)
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
孽: niè — 1. son born of a concubine 2. disaster 3. sin 4. evil
風: fēng — 1. wind 2. news 3. style 4. custom 5. manner 6. classifier: 陣 (zhèn), 絲 (sī) (HSK 1)
怒吼: nù hǒu — 1. to bellow 2. to rave 3. to snarl
之中: zhī zhōng — 1. inside 2. among 3. in the midst of (doing sth) 4. during (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
也: Yě — surname Ye (HSK 1)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
尋覓: xún mì — to look for (HSK 7-9)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
當面: dāng miàn — 1. to sb's face 2. in sb's presence (HSK 7-9)
說出: shuō chū — 1. to speak out 2. to declare (one's view)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
悔恨: huǐ hèn — 1. remorse 2. repentance (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
悲哀: bēi āi — 1. grieved 2. sorrowful (HSK 7-9)
祈求: qí qiú — 1. to pray for 2. to appeal
她: tā — she (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
饒恕: ráo shù — 1. to forgive 2. to pardon 3. to spare (HSK 7-9)
否則: fǒu zé — otherwise; if not; or (else) (HSK 4)
地獄: dì yù — 1. hell; underworld; (Buddhism) Naraka 2. (coll.) (of humor, jokes, content etc) extremely dark or morally transgressive (HSK 7-9)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
毒: dú — 1. poison 2. to poison 3. poisonous 4. malicious 5. cruel 6. fierce 7. narcotics (HSK 5)
焰: yàn — flame
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
圍繞: wéi rào — 1. to revolve around 2. to center on (an issue) (HSK 5)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
猛烈: měng liè — fierce; violent; vigorous; intense (HSK 7-9)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
燒: shāo — 1. to burn; to set on fire 2. to heat (over a fire); to boil (water, tea etc) 3. to braise 4. to cook; to prepare food 5. to run a fever 6. fever 7. (coll.) to become full of oneself; to get carried away (HSK 4)
盡: jìn — 1. to use up 2. to exhaust 3. to end 4. to finish 5. to the utmost 6. exhausted 7. finished 8. to the limit (of sth) 9. all 10. entirely (HSK 6)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
悔恨: huǐ hèn — 1. remorse 2. repentance (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
悲哀: bēi āi — 1. grieved 2. sorrowful (HSK 7-9)

，，……。I would embrace Zijun amid the winds of retribution and the poisonous flames, begging her forbearance, or else giving her some satisfaction……

，；But this was even emptier than the new path of life;，。all that existed now was the early-spring night, which was, after all, still so long.，，，——，，。I was alive, and I must, after all, step out toward the new path of life; that first step — was, however, no more than to write down my remorse and my sorrow, for Zijun's sake, and for my own.

但是: dàn shì — but; however (HSK 2)
這: zhè — 1. (pronoun) this; these 2. (bound form) this; the (followed by a noun) 3. (bound form) this; these (followed by a classifier) (in this sense, commonly pr. (zhèi), esp. in Beijing) (HSK 1)
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
更: gēng — 1. to change or replace 2. to experience 3. one of the five two-hour periods into which the night was formerly divided 4. watch (e.g. of a sentry or guard) (HSK 2)
虛空: xū kōng — 1. void 2. hollow 3. empty
於: yú — 1. (of time or place) in; at; on 2. (indicating any indirect relation) to; toward; vis-à-vis; with regard to; for 3. (indicating a source) from; out of 4. (used in comparison) than 5. (used in the passive voice) by (HSK 6)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
現在: xiàn zài — now; at present; currently (HSK 1)
所有: suǒ yǒu — 1. all 2. to have; to possess; to own (HSK 2)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
只是: zhǐ shì — 1. merely; only; just; nothing but 2. simply 3. but; however (HSK 3)
初: chū — 1. (bound form) at first; initially 2. (bound form) first; early 3. (bound form) (in lunar calendar dates, before numerals 1–10) days 1 to 10 of a month, as in 初三 (chū sān) "the third" (HSK 3)
春: Chūn — surname Chun
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
夜: yè — night (HSK 2)
竟: jìng — 1. unexpectedly 2. actually 3. to go so far as to 4. indeed (HSK 7-9)
還是: hái shi — 1. still (as before) 2. had better 3. unexpectedly 4. or (HSK 1)
那麼: nà me — 1. like that; in that way; to that extent 2. (before a number) ... or so; about ... 3. then; in that case (HSK 2)
長: cháng — 1. long 2. (bound form) length 3. (bound form) strong point; forte 4. (bound form) to be good at 5. (literary) surplus; spare (Taiwan pr. (zhàng)) (HSK 2)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
活著: huó zhe — alive
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
總得: zǒng děi — 1. must 2. have to 3. be bound to
向著: xiàng zhe — 1. towards 2. facing (sb or sth) 3. (coll.) to side with 4. to favor (HSK 7-9)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
跨: kuà — 1. to step across 2. to stride over 3. to straddle 4. to span (HSK 6)
出去: chū qù — to go out (HSK 1)
那: Nā — surname Na (HSK 1)
第一步: dì yī bù — 1. step one 2. first step
卻: què — 1. but 2. yet 3. however 4. while 5. to go back 6. to decline 7. to retreat 8. nevertheless 9. even though (HSK 4)
不過: bù guò — 1. only 2. merely 3. no more than 4. but 5. however 6. anyway (to get back to a previous topic) 7. cannot be more (after adjectival) (HSK 2)
是: shì — 1. to be (followed by substantives only) 2. correct; right; true 3. (respectful acknowledgement of a command) very well 4. (adverb for emphatic assertion) (HSK 1)
寫下: xiě xià — to write down
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
悔恨: huǐ hèn — 1. remorse 2. repentance (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
悲哀: bēi āi — 1. grieved 2. sorrowful (HSK 7-9)
為: wéi — 1. as (in the capacity of) 2. to take sth as 3. to act as 4. to serve as 5. to behave as 6. to become 7. to be 8. to do 9. by (in the passive voice) (HSK 2)
子: zǐ — 1. son 2. child 3. seed 4. egg 5. small thing 6. 1st earthly branch: 11 p.m.–1 a.m., midnight, 11th solar month (7th December to 5th January), year of the rat 7. viscount, fourth of five orders of nobility 五等爵位 (wǔ děng jué wèi) 8. ancient Chinese compass point: 0° (north) 9. subsidiary; subordinate; (prefix) sub-
君: jūn — 1. monarch 2. lord 3. gentleman 4. ruler
為: wéi — 1. as (in the capacity of) 2. to take sth as 3. to act as 4. to serve as 5. to behave as 6. to become 7. to be 8. to do 9. by (in the passive voice) (HSK 2)
自己: zì jǐ — oneself; (attributive) one's own (HSK 2)

，，。I still had only a wailing that sounded like singing, with which to send Zijun to her grave, burying her in forgetfulness.

；I want to forget;，。I want, for my own sake, to no longer think of this — that I used forgetting to bury Zijun.

，，，……。I want to step forward, taking that first step toward the new path of life; I want to bury the truth deep within the wound in my heart, and walk on in silence, taking forgetting and lying as my guides……

我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
向著: xiàng zhe — 1. towards 2. facing (sb or sth) 3. (coll.) to side with 4. to favor (HSK 7-9)
新: Xīn — 1. abbr. for Xinjiang 新疆 (Xīn jiāng) 2. abbr. for Singapore 新加坡 (Xīn jiā pō) 3. surname Xin (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
生路: shēng lù — 1. a way to make a living 2. a way to survive 3. a way out of a predicament
跨: kuà — 1. to step across 2. to stride over 3. to straddle 4. to span (HSK 6)
進: jìn — 1. to go forward 2. to advance 3. to go in 4. to enter 5. to put in 6. to submit 7. to take in 8. to admit 9. (math.) base of a number system 10. classifier for sections in a building or residential compound (HSK 1)
第一步: dì yī bù — 1. step one 2. first step
去: qù — 1. to go 2. to go to (a place) 3. (of a time etc) last 4. just passed 5. to send 6. to remove 7. to get rid of 8. to reduce 9. to be apart from in space or time 10. to die (euphemism) 11. to play (a part) 12. (when used either before or after a verb) to go in order to do sth 13. (after a verb of motion indicates movement away from the speaker) 14. (used after certain verbs to indicate detachment or separation) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
要: yāo — (bound form) to demand; to coerce (HSK 1)
將: jiāng — 1. will 2. shall 3. to use 4. to take 5. to checkmate 6. just a short while ago 7. (introduces object of main verb, used in the same way as 把 (bǎ)) (HSK 5)
真實: zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
深深: shēn shēn — 1. deep 2. profound (HSK 6)
地藏: Dì zàng — 1. Kṣitigarbha, the Bodhisattva of the Great Vow (to save all souls before accepting Bodhi) 2. also translated Earth Treasury, Earth Womb, or Earth Store Bodhisattva
在: zài — 1. to exist; to be alive 2. (of sb or sth) to be (located) at 3. (used before a verb to indicate an action in progress) (HSK 1)
心: xīn — 1. heart 2. mind 3. intention 4. center 5. core 6. classifier: 顆 (kē), 個 (gè) (HSK 3)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
創傷: chuāng shāng — wound; injury; trauma (HSK 7-9)
中: Zhōng — 1. (bound form) China; Chinese 2. surname Zhong (HSK 1)
默默: mò mò — in silence; not speaking (HSK 4)
地: de — 1. -ly 2. structural particle: used before a verb or adjective, linking it to preceding modifying adverbial adjunct (HSK 1)
前行: qián xíng — (literary) to go forward
用: yòng — 1. to use; to make use of; to employ 2. (coverb) with; using 3. to need; to have to (usu. used in the negative or in questions) 4. usefulness; utility 5. (bound form) expense; outlay 6. (courteous) to eat; to drink 7. (literary) hence; therefore (HSK 1)
遺忘: yí wàng — to forget; to cease to think about (sb or sth) anymore (HSK 7-9)
和: Hé — surname He (HSK 1)
說謊: shuō huǎng — 1. to lie 2. to tell an untruth (HSK 7-9)
做: zuò — 1. to make; to produce 2. to write; to compose 3. to do; to engage in; to hold (a party etc) 4. (of a person) to be (an intermediary, a good student etc); to become (husband and wife, friends etc) 5. (of a thing) to serve as; to be used for 6. to assume (an air or manner) (HSK 1)
我: wǒ — I; me; my (HSK 1)
的: de — 1. of; ~'s (possessive particle) 2. (used after an attribute when it modifies a noun) 3. (used at the end of a declarative sentence for emphasis) 4. (used after a noun, verb or adjective to form a nominal expression, as in 皮革的 (pí gé de) "one made of leather" or 跑堂兒的 (pǎo táng r de) "a waiter (literally, one who runs back and forth in a restaurant)" or 新的 (xīn de) "new one") 5. also pr. (dì) or (di) in poetry and songs (HSK 1)
前導: qián dǎo — 1. to precede 2. to guide

Finished on October 21, 1925.

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What it’s about

涓生 sets out to write down his remorse for 子君 — the girl who used to walk to his room in the guild hall to hear him talk about Ibsen and Tagore and Shelley and the tyranny of the family, and who one day said, plainly and steadily, 我是我自己的，他們誰也沒有干涉我的權利: I am my own, and none of them has any right to interfere with me. They take two rooms in 吉兆衚衕 on money he scraped together and on the gold ring and earrings she sold; they keep four chicks and a small piebald dog she names 阿隨; for a few months they are happy, and he notices that she has become entirely occupied with cooking three meals a day.

Then a printed slip from the office informs 史涓生 that he need not report for work. The translations go nowhere, the magazine sends two book-tokens worth five cents, the chickens are eaten, and 阿隨 is carried out to the western suburbs and pushed into a shallow pit. 涓生 takes to spending his days in the public library because it has stoves, works out there that love must have something to live on, and decides that what he owes 子君 is the truth: I don't love you any more. He comes home one evening to find her gone — her father has fetched her — and the whole of their means laid out together on the table for him: the salt, the dried chillies, the flour, half a cabbage, a few dozen coppers. A world-weary relative mentions, in passing, that she has died. 阿隨 comes back, half starved. In a lecture two years earlier Lu Xun had asked what happens to Nora after she walks out; this is his own answer, and the answer is that without money she goes home, and dies.

When it was written 背景

Dated 21 October 1925 and, like 孤獨者 and 弟兄, never serialised anywhere — it first appeared in 彷徨 in August 1926. Its subtitle there is 涓生的手記, Juansheng's notes, and it is the only love story Lu Xun ever wrote. It is also his hardest sustained first-person prose: the whole of it is one unreliable man's retrospective self-defence, so past and present interleave without warning, key phrases return as refrains (空虛, 寂靜, 新的生路, 翅子的扇動), and much of what actually happened has to be inferred through his excuses for it. Leave it until 祝福 and 在酒樓上 read comfortably; it repays that wait more than anything else in the collection.

Words in this chapter 生词

她tāHSK 1她tā — she (HSK 1)
油雞yóu jī油雞yóu jī — a variety of chicken
生路shēng lù生路shēng lù — a way to make a living · a way to survive · a way out of a predicament
君jūn君jūn — monarch · lord · gentleman · ruler
吉兆jí zhào吉兆jí zhào — lucky omen
會館huì guǎn會館huì guǎn — provincial or county guild hall
冷眼lěng yǎn冷眼lěng yǎn — cool eye · fig. detached · (treating) with indifference
衚衕hú tòng衚衕hú tòng — variant of 胡同 (hú tòng)
重擔zhòng dàn重擔zhòng dàn — heavy burden; difficult task; great responsibility
真實zhēn shíHSK 3真實zhēn shí — true; real (HSK 3)
總編輯zǒng biān jí總編輯zǒng biān jí — chief editor (of newspaper)
雪花膏xuě huā gāo雪花膏xuě huā gāo — vanishing cream · cold cream (makeup)